There are moments of lonliness, na koyi umang hia na koyi tharang hai , my zindhagi hai kya a khathi pathang hia?? And when I sit in that mood, even that He counts....I have no one to trust , and no one to lean upon, no one to discuss things, .. and i feel so, He comes suddenly, and counts every drop of tear, and softly His love enfolds me.. and takes me out.
That is exactly happens many a times and so it was this week. I was watching the CD of memorial service of my hubby and i could not control my emotions, i felt the nerves in my head are going to break, and there is no control to the tears... it was 10 pm , and i never expected any phone call at that moment. then there was call from my Principal, requesting me to go to vizag on some university errand, the very next day i went and stayed with my mom, and finished the work in the university. some work, some occupation, some meaning and purpose in life all that i need. But when i do for some body all by my self , either they take advantage or exploit or humiliated me. When i am attached to some organization or some errand doing for some body else, it would be wonderful. So Lord tell me how could i occupy myself, and not hurt, and live happily... i know i need to pick up the last lines of threads, where i had left out...I thank you Lord for you care even that single drop of tear in darkness and loneliness. Lend your loving hand and lift me up..Amen.
