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Heard music is sweet, unheard music is sweeter. thus echoes my heart with great Ode writer.. Between the line sand spaces between the words, you will get the feeling of

  AMOR VINCIT OMNIA of His compassionate heart of a least deserved person like me, even me .

Life is full of little incidents which reflects His presence for those who love Him. Just give time to know what He likes in your life. There is the Lover of our souls who shed His blood and bought us to be His.

Here I am as clear as a crystal, nothing to hide, I only love to share what He did for me. My reflections on everything under the sky, from stars of the sky to the dunes of the sand, , anything under the sun, including,  in and around Homo sapiens too.

These are amazing stories flown out of my heart, right from my childhood of 4 years, till the date. Review of His skillful workmanship in carving HIS WONDERFUL PLAN  in a simple girl like me is simply awesome. unfathomable..

What we know of Him is a little here on this earth, in this short life of ours, what we are going to know of Him is magnificent.

CRITIC & HELL? vs TRUST & WALK ?

          My mind is blowing with gratitude for His love on one side and criticism of people about God and His servants on the other side.

         Do the people think that God and the people who serve Him are a farce? Can people judge others with the colour glasses they wore in their lives? Can somebody's experience be the same to every one else"s? Can they assassinate the character of the people that they never knew, never met and never listened to  them?  Can they just judge every other person just because they tasted the bitter roots in their lives?

Can people justify their deeds just because the whole lot they know were cheaters and  all the others are cheaters? Don't we call this prejudice and biased attitude?

It is like your lover cheated you, and you say Romeo and Juliet are cheaters ?What do you know about them except the drama of Shakespeare? Can you say just because your mom is an adulterous woman, all the other moms are the same? Just because your dad is hireling and every servant of God is hireling?

     Yes it is not good to estimate every one life with the measureing rod of your bruised one.
Jesus told us "Decide whether the tree is good or not by its fruits" The works of the person , his love , his deeds tell us what he is. 
When Jesus was on this earth, he was rejected person by the family 
, by his town people, by his authorities, by his synagogue or church of those days. He was hated by every one except the country folks, fishermen , uneducated people. Even they misinterpreted His dealings with Samaritan woman or of the woman who pour ointment on His head or who wept on His feet, . Even now He is criticized by the foolish. 
How dare you are to despise a person , or man of God with your filthy understanding of spiritual knowledge. Do you ever see Him working in your life the signs and miracles , and do your walked with Him closely?
These people are worse than Judas , because Judas did not know that Jesus was going to resurrect, and going to have victory over death. 
He went and hanged himself because he could not believe the person Jesus Christ. Don't you dare to belittle Jesus or His Servants.
Well there were people who sacrificed their lives, their families, their property everything for the sake of serving Him. Just because you cannot trust your own family member because of his negligence how can you speak about other servants of God whom you never see, on par with your  bitter understanding?
While I was brooding over the criticism of such fluffy generation of the day, I have inclined to pray more for such people.
No wonder the Devil knew the scriptures, and speaks and quotes the scriptures better than any Christian. The other day it happened that I listened to a learned man speaking as he likes, about Jesus ,quoting the scriptures. But I see he was talking only half knowledge language. He did not know the context of the quotes, He did not know the other close related verses of those he quoted. Only the foolish are cheated not the people who have personal relationship with Him. 
Now I tell you one more incident that happened yesterday.
                    "Well, the other day we both went out for shopping, it was a long day for me, too much of walking and roaming , in the shops, bought the things we needed, and reached home , tired, exhausted. Lied down on bed and got into deep slumber, in the early hours of the day I felt one of the ear rings of mine is lost, I found the screw of it on my bed. What happened to the other? I cannot ask my son to search for it, because he all ways hates gold, and he never helped me in his life from his childhood in searching for gold ring or screw of the ear ring. so I was cleaning and searching every nook and corner of the house, I did not move much that night so I knew it must have fallen somewhere in the kitchen or in the room where we take rest. I made  hectic search but could not find. In between I told my son that I lost my gold earring and expressed if it was lost on the road or in shop or in taxi, or in the lift, or somewhere----"He simply said 'ok, if you lost its lost, what we can do? its not a big issue ' he did not make a move to search for it any where. 
The whole day passed away , and of course my eyes were searching hither and thither, but in vain and with least hope to find too. I remembered about the parable of Jesus  the coin a woman a lost and how she searched for it intently..comparing our search for the kingdom of God should be so. I felt a little ashame of myself for my zeal for God is not as much as it is of searching for the ear ring.

That eveing after the dinner, we are about to retire to bed, before that I read the book Nee Prema Nijamainadhena to my son as it is in Telugu. After he listened to it completely he said yes it is really very nice.
Just before switch off the light I once again mentioned my ear ring , casually, he said, "do not worry you can buy another one" I said its not that I am fixed to it alone, I smiled, and said Itsnot the uestion of gold, but I am just wondering about my priorities. And without any other thought I said,
     "Oh Lord if it is Thine will only please .... " ----I haven't finished the prayer yet, and I saw it right in front of me  there in corner of the door. I stopped the prayer, and said loudly 'What what ,, what is it, see , see John... its there', I got up from the bed and bent and took it into my hand.: "John its not the question of gold its the question of my faith and His answer:" said. ---- I checked whether its the different one or the same one I already had with me, that another one is there, where I kept, (Look at my little faith !!!) I could only  rejoiced .. Saying thanks to My Lord who listens to every groaning of our heart again and again.

        My son said, "mom many people give colors to the Holy Spirit saying that it is this and that, and tongues etc, If not Holy Spirit who helped and answered you now?"

       My children saw the Living God working in our lives all through our lives. They saw How God answers our prayers. When a person in the family loves the devil and wanted to depart,' yes , you go, let us not have any argument, but let us depart in peace;. is the attitude of my children or me. Abraham loved his cousin Lot, brought him all the way from Ur but if he could not sustain with godly man 'ok you go' was the solution of Abraham. Nobody could stop any one doing their own will. Now......
Does these fellows know the hearing of God's voice at all in their lives>? When God asked a person to leave everything and serve Him,     could that be understood by common people? In Telugu there is proverb, "Somepeople guddu ki eeakalu peeku thaarata"
It means some people try to find feathers on the egg shell to pluck them off" There is nothing to criticize the children of God and there by they try to humiliate Jesus and His servants. 
I told the above incident which happened two days back which assured me of His eternal presence once more. This and many incidents in my life showed His presence so closely. Does it mean that I am far above than many? Does it mean I did not commit any errors in my life? Does it mean that I am Holy and flawless? Not at all, His grace is for them who seek Him. whoever they may be , whatever they may be. Love the Lord is the criteria of His grace. When you cannot love Jesus, if you forsake Him for the love of that worldly man or woman in life, how can you understand the love for Him and for His people?
I warn whoever he or she may be its not good to touch the eye of God , He saith, 'I consider whoever touch my servant as he touched the apple of my eye;. Its not good to criticize the men of God whom you never knew. 
At the same time if you are cheated by a wolf in sheep clothes, yes its good if you expose him for the present generation so that they could escape his traps. Even Jesus did that, He did not spare the self righteous pharisees, and warned the common people to be aware of such vultures.
On the other hand as it is you never read Bible, never go to church, never trust His word, how dare to speak against the servants of God?  Never never you dare to speak things which you are not aware.  God judges. 
          
You want to be critic and get name and fame and go to hell?  Or trust God and walk with Him to Heaven ?
We must tremble to speak the things which we never knew. 
The Devils rush in where the Angels tremble to trod upon. 
Let not ruffle of the mercy of God, He is a seeing God.

Hunger vs Waiting

       I often humorously used to say, " Why God gave us hunger ?That too, three times per day+?,

                 The pangs of hunger is horrible ,unless we determined to fix on "fasting or Dieting". We need to sleep for 8 hours, without fail, unless we are unable to sleep or control to a fixed hours of sleep by self will.
             These two things'" hunger and sleep" are inevitable in Man's life whether he wants these or doesn't want these. They are there.These are two essential things which cant be eliminated from our lives. Hunger makes us to work hard, it could be quenched any way either by the broth, or by byriyani, in road side hawkers tent or in Maharajah  hotel.It can be quenched by one rupee or thousand rupees for one meal. But we need to work for it, either by sweat or by brain.
         Funny no person can escape it since he we came out of the womb till he reaches the grave. The first cry of the infant could be for a sip of milk, pang of hunger. Sleep cannot be avoided either, whether he is a beggar or a king. must sleep or else he would act like a zombie.

      So why man is afflicted with these two ?hunger and sleep? Why man is constantly work or wait for these two everyday? unless these two basic things are fulfilled to the core,  man cannot be a man Right from the ancient man, these pangs of hunger made man to hunt, run or quarrel or fight for it. In fact Adam and Eve were the ones who were overcome by this taste of the tongue.
  How the world would be if this hunger would not rule the mankind ? Why God instilled the pangs of hunger in man ? Why He asked man to work, toil and bring forth the fruits of the land? There must be a Divine plan , purpose in this often forgotten secret of life.
   The sleep is something which is beyond comprehension. What God wants us to learn from it? Is it the shadow of the death as scriptures or poets describe it ? The night is created only for sleep? When Electricity was not invented human race  has had nothing but to sit quietly in a corner because they could not see anything in the dark night, they doze and fell asleep? What were others who could not sleep immediately thought of the people who went into deep sleep?

         What was the first reaction of man for his own sleep and of the others ? what was the purpose of God in making man to sleep and wake up in the morning, refreshed and relaxed?
We sleep either on the road side or on velvet mattresses, sleep does not bother of the place or comfort. when we really feel to sleep , it doesn't matter where you sleep or how we sleep, sitting, or crouching, or laying --it won't make any difference.

       As they say, all this taste of food is only for three inches tongue, after you tasted and grounded the food in the mouth with saliva, the taste lost it purpose while it goes into the throat, and you do not bother about it. For this small exercise of munching you crave for different tastes and work so hard to get the taste of your tongue. Wonder  why this phenomena took so much time and energy in our lives.

           People behave in different ways to have the Taste and Comfort , they make battles , quarrel, steal, rob and kill others to have better taste and better comfort, which could be any way be fulfilled.Hoarding money in Swiss bank, bribing, black mailing killing all for the sake of Taste , better taste, and comfort, better comfort?

          While I am indulged more and more on these two basic needs of man, I wondered Why God made man with these two, right from his birth,I was led to meditate on  Waiting, which is also instilled by God in the heart of man. Whether he likes it or not , for one thing or another thing in life he waits, consciously or unconsciously.  
        Waiting inspires man to go further,  waiting for next morsel of food, waiting for next spell of sleep, waiting for events, waiting for marriage, waiting for jobs, waiting for children, waiting for death.. oh its too an endless steering force in the life of man.

          When i was a teenager II used to say, that "The most disgusting thing for me is to wait for others." I wanted to have everything perfect, punctual, and to the point. when somebody said that they would come on such and such date and such and such time, they should be there, I did not like waiting for them. It was most irritating blaring thing for me Not knowing that life itself intertwined with waiting.

                 When I was young, I remember very well I was waiting for my dad, all the time, When he would come from the office what would he bring for me, was the inspiring thing for me as I was waiting for him. Because he used to bring something or the other for me a chocolate, marbles, pens, flowers, toys, lipsticks, nail polishes, gramophone records, or at least he would take me on his great bike or zeep outside or for cinema, or friends house. So waiting for him was a pleasant thing, and he never disappointed me.

      Later going to school, writing exams, waiting for results, getting a job, waiting to get married, waiting for children , waiting for husband, waiting for the results of children their schools, their jobs, their marriages, their children, my retirement, all became the part and parcel of my waiting list,

                Now what for I am waiting ? Funny this I never had in my mind before, but surprisingly it became the constant issue in my mind whether I like it or not. That is death. How it come, when it come, is the priority of life.

        This is awesome, because no one knows how it would be when it would be and what it would be?There is no human understanding or explanation or comfort to give.
    So ultimately what all that waiting for taste and sleep leads us to ? To something which could not be explained, by human tongue,
      The Scriptures give us the taste of it only by One who tasted the death, who had gone through the pangs of death, in the bowels of the earth, and over came the death and who became alive again to tell us what it would be , how it would be, what to expect from it..!! St, Paul was thinking of it and said, "O ye death where is thy sting?" he affirmed that it is nullified by the Cross of the Saviour. When fear of death is over come by the Cross that is only by the death and resurrection of Christ , waiting for death is the sweetest thing in life, whatever may come, however it would be , whenever it may touch us, does not matter, There He is waiting for us, yes, WAITING for us, , this time we need not wait for it, He waits for us...!! There lies the sweetest hour, anticipating in coming near future.
  
            Therefore God taught us from hunger and sleep and waiting ... the greatest lesson of waiting for the One who waits for us.  Praise God. Alleluia !!
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