Air Hostess/Encounter with a murderer

Life ia mystery. Win our lives? why certain things happen ? But they happen because they are needed in our lives Why the night should be so dark?why there should be darkness at all? if night is not there people on this earth will never have rest in their lives.

When I look back this terrible incident that happened in my life right at the brink of my very life, i see that everything has bee " predestined" by God. If this incident did not happen, i would not have another miracle story of "READERS"s DIGEST" to depict later that happened in my life after one year.

When certain things were happening in my life, though they were so petrified and terrified and sometimes sorrowful, i see the loving hand of God was weaving a beautiful pattern of clorful design inmy life And every incident in my life wheter i chrish it or not whether they havea meaning in it or not, wheterh they gave me immense joy or give me deep sorrow, nothing, not even one incident missed His eye Rom 8:28 " all things work together for good for them who love God and who are called by His name" Even this most terrorized incident in my tender years of22 years age had its beautiful pattern in my life.
I" I was standing at the Zion Koliwada Suburban Bus Stop, as it was suburnun area, there were scarcely a few buses come to that stop and as already one bus left , just before my arrival, there, I was in only one who stood waiting for the next bus.
I had a small hand bag in which there were only Rs.200/- as my last resort of my survival for the rest of my life in Bombay till i get tht promised typist Post, Only few days back i resigned the post of Air hostess in Air India, due to some reasons I had a gold chain on me which i usually cover up with my sari pallu during the rush hours of travelings in the city As it was very sultry day and as there were not many people on the road I just slipped off the pallu from my right shoulder and let it hang loosely at my back
Suddenly within no time I saw one young man was running on the road and approached me in a minute and hit me on my neck. I thought he was a rowdy and goonda who was trying to molest me until the next second when i heard him shouting at me in Hindi, I could hear him in my shock only three words like " Chore....Chain... Margaya" Then i realized that he snatched away my gold chain and he was threatening me if i shout " Chore or chain "that he would kill me.
Then i saw my gold chain, half piece of it was dangling from his fist and the other half chain fall at the electric pole nearby me We both saw that at once and we both tried to pick it at a time, But he jsut pushed me aside and snatched it from my hand and hit me with a long Gupti, a sword, on my face and started to run on the road All this happened in a matter of a few seconds and just started to chase him in spite of his warning. I was shouting for help" chore chore pakado pakado" ( There the thief catch him" People many of them were standing on the foot path either side of me but no body came to help me. I was just a feet behind him and he was running fast and I did not stop running or chasing him or shouting aloud for help.
To this day i feel that it was miraculous protection of God that protected me from the hand of that person with a sword who had murdered  an elderly man of 75 years , the manager of Roopam theator just a street beside in the broad light of the day. His name was Augustine , the piece of the gold chain which we both tried to pick up from the electric pole had a rold gold Cross,
As it is written n Daniel 6:22 " My God sent his angel, and he shut the mouth of the lions.They have not hurt me because i was found innocent in his sight. Nor have I ever done any wrong before you, O king"
Yes, indeed the Lord had sent his angel to protect me from a murderer on whose hands the blood of an old man were not yet dried. I was matter of fact, it was so easy for him to turn around as he had the same sword in his hand with which he stabbed just a few minutes ago and could kill any person who stop him on his run away., My life was nothing to him, whom i was chasing   on the public road, shouting for the help and attention OF the public In fact while that manger was walking on the foot path to reach the theater after getting down from his car, he was stabbed right in day time and on the public road It was not a big deal for him to do the same once again and get rid of me as I was just a step back of him, following him.
In such a situation we both were crossing a four road junction when a car just stopped on my left side  just a feet away screeching loudly. I thought I was under it wheels almost, and was going to die the next second. But i did not die nor the car touched me,Again I started to pursue him and we both were running on a foot path, and suddenly two hefty men over run of me and as i was seeing in shock, one of them  with his two legs in the air jumped on Augustine's back. Right on the main road he fell down and the sword in his hand was thrown away to a distant . At that moment all those people who were on the footpaths started to chase him shouting at him But strange as a lightening he jumped  over the little bridge wall over the jopadhas ( small tin roofed houses) and started to run, i found half piece of gold chain when he fell and i picked it up.

As I could not follow him any more, jumping from the brick wall of the bridge down to the jho[pdas, I stopped to chase him.    And there was a public tap where some women were observing all this came in rescue of me and hold me as I touched my cheek I found gush of blood oozing out of  the wound he made  and I felt like I was swooning and fell down on the road.  But  I regained my stregth and asked for Paani ( water )  they brought it and at the moment all of us saw a police zeep across the place where we were and the police hefty ment were shouting loudly  (aaoo aaoo Mutunga Police station aaoo)  it means Come on to Matunga police station  to me.  The women there got one auto for me and pushed me into it, that I better go to the station and lodge the complain.
So in an instance I jumped into the auto and reached the station. Once I was in the Police station I felt at poise.  Police are my blood and flesh, of course my dad was in this Police job,  so I was at home in the station. The Police officer asked me about my whereabouts,  I answered him,  " I am from Andhra Pradesh  and I came here  as I got job as airhostess in Air India and my father is DSP of police right back at Andhrapradesh.  " He was pleased to hear this, he ordered for hot coffee and bread omlette for me to eat and relax.     we called for Br Murthy and Br. Khoshi  to come to the Police station. Meanwhile  the son of the Rupam Theatar manager came and sat beside me and the murderer was produced in front of us in couplings   I was told the incident of murder and unknowingly my both knees were knuckling to one another.  I was trembling a little. This physical reaction is something which was not in my control of mind.
But I managed, somehow.  The police took the chain the two pieces and sealed it in front of me and said that they would produce it in the court and would call me for trail when time comes. Thus I was disposed,  the doctor who treated me with my wound was astonished, saying," This is amazing, you got deep wound on your cheek bone  , yes , right on cheep bone , if it is a little down, it would have cut your cheek into two and you need  stitches which would make an ugly scar on your face.   If it is a little up your eye nerves would have been cut off and your would had been blind for life . Its pure LUCK" he said, I said 'No doctor its not Luck , its the GRACE  of God."

Can you believe that I lost  this gold chain in 1976 and I got it back in 1982...in  wonderful miraculous way?  I will post it soon .

Different views

This morning I was online hoping to c Happy and to talk to her online somehow I was led like that even before I read the Daily Bread, then i saw a letter from one of my close friends, and i was led to reply her then and there, and after i sent it i wondered how far my reply has substance, and here is my reply and later the daily text from Daily Bread, which consoled me a lot .........go thru, and find the strange ways of Gods answers.
"Don't u think that we talk to each much deeply and intimately on emails rather than in person, either on phone or directly? woo wwow that was real big concern that u have showed to me by telling me that i should live with children
I do not know what Jesus would have to told us suppose He lived amongst us once again. He knows the pretty well how human mind would change and the cultures would change, I am sure that the women in those days were not at all like this as it is now. Do u know the history of the church? God u will be shocked to know the things that had had happened and the church took tyrannic actions toward the people. St Paul's writings were very complicated, God love is the same for both woman and man, His way of teaching and caring was different, Well my views about Paul and his writings are quiet different, bec i know the heart of My Heavenly Father, I do not think that He will bring the curse of EVE still on me, even after He had come tothis world thru a woman, Tell me can u agree with St Paul the way he went and shaved his head to fulfill his vow past?
Take the present day context , move among the beaten women like me , feel with them, live with them be one among them, wear the shoes they wear, Even prostitutes, Hiv/Aids infected women, u will say what Paul said was not correct in many cases about the women.............hahah, i think i am preaching here, i have many messages in my heart, to speak but i dare not, as it is i am alone again, if i have a man in my life who supports me who really encourages me and not selfish and inferiority complexed i would have been a Revolutionist by this time in Christondom, haha well life is great and strange, and i know what I have to do, I need to seek for His directions still in many areas, wel welllllw ellllllllllllllllll i stop now,
otherwise i fear i loose a good and sweet friend of mine

That was the letter i was writing to one of my close friends,
Then i thought how wonder it is to have different opinions about the very crucial issues in life on which i did agree with many all these years of my christian life, i feel now i am different, i think different , i see the word God supports me in my views too,
Wow interpretation of the word of God is very easy, each person sees it in different angle and talks about that, actually unless and until u r there in the situation u will never know what it means, that is the reason why i like the writings of Richard Wumbrand, the great warrior for Christ, his approach for life is different from any one here , the so called great preachers, unless and until u r in the Gods underground church u will never understand what it is to read the Bible and understand, Hey again my sweet Our Daily Bread is my rescue, here it is what it says...
"So Leela right? or Leena right? why cant we agree? Different personalities, history, or knowledge can color people's views, It does 'nt mean that one person is right and the other is wrong, yet sometimes we can me unkind, rigid, and judgmental if there is not agreement,

Can we learn someone who sees things with different a different perspective? do we need a practice a little patience and love ? i am grateful that God is abundantly patient and loving with me.
This answer helped me a lot to revive my demeanor and disposition today/Yes this is really a daily bread for me, and i need it everyday to my starving soul.

No one to give a cup of water?

I am good , hale and healthy for two days, but suffer from some ailment the other day, but each time i feel that the end is near by and i would not recover soon, and it would lead to some horrible disease, People on the whole think that i am good in health, and acitve and energetic, and no body believe that i am suffering with one or the other ailment in the body.
But when i am ill healthy, what i do is a routine, I swallow some tablet, and lie down quietly on my coach, i do not prefer to share mya gony of the body to any one , because there is none so close to listen to me, there wont be any one to take caare of me, or give a glass of water, or say an encouraging word, or touch me warmly on my forehead, or just smile at me and say that they are there to look after me. i just close my eyes and pretend that i was sleeping all the time till i recover, wondering this would not end and I may end up in the bed like that only and breath my last.
Yet times i feel i have finished everything that i have to do, and i am at the end of my days, and i should not have any desires to enjoy life, the very next day i am enthusiastic and buy this and that for the kitchen and for my self, to make life comfortable, even while buying i feel that life is too short to enjoy now, and again i comfort myself in the days i should enjoy life i could not, atleast now i should have these little amenities, and i should not forgo, again i think how many more days left for me to do so, Life seems very confusing at times Is this only for me or to every one at this age? prior to retirement? its really a confusing stage, i wish i could come out of it soon. and have a stable life as in the days when i got the job in the begining.

Holier than Thou?

" Hey I don't believe these so called praying people" I yelled at one of my friends, in the Phone.
Then I laughed and she laughed, and I added, "see, these people would say that they would "pray". if I tell them any of my needs, instead of doing something for me, or helping me. So rather the other people are best for me, at least they try to help me in their own way, or give a piece of advice to me to meet the need of mine.Whereas the mere praying folks are ready to judge, and find the wrong motives for my life.They bite and devour me instead to love and help in a way that others will know we are His. When i had to go through the life's ups and downs and change the pattern of my life style, instead of talking about my motives and hurts, they started to accuse me and used to tell me that they were praying for me with a Holier than thou faces."

After all we did not take that short conversation, seriously, but we had lighter moments of laughter, and indulged into the things to do together etc.

But the way I said about the so called praying people is lingering in my thoughts, and ringing in my heart. Did I show myself very skeptic, and judgmental? These and many other thoughts were there unanswered , yet , I did not find time to ponder over them to pacify my grieving conscience.
Today's ODB has its own way of speaking to my innermost soul, and touching the core of my heart. Thus giving me balm on the bruises of my life, wherein I was really hurt by the praying groups. Those only pray but never take pains to show their prayer in deeds.

Let me quote what I read in it: May 11/ 2010 Tuesday

Some group of the people that that they should change their jobs, in order to contact the non believers and win them for Christ. But they were harshly criticized by other so called praying people and strong christian groups. Many of them , even some who didn't personally knew them, were shocked and accused them of seeing fame and fortune in the world. But believing that Jesus came " to seek and to save that which was lost ( Luke:18:10) they decided to pursue what they considered an even greater opportunity to serve the " lost" in their community They said some Christians were so cruel to us, and wrote hateful e-mails. Our new non-christian friends were kinder to us than our fellow Christians. We didn't understand that, and were hurt deeply"
Yes, only prayer is not suffice the human heart, Your encouragement, your helping hand, and your support, your tap on the shoulder is as important as the prayer. Take time to discuss the need, offer your suggestions, and help wherever it is needed and also you pray in your closet
Once when i do not have the power generator, that is the Invertor i had power cut in the evening, it was about 9pm, only our house had not thepower and the trouble was on the electric pole, so i called one of our friends and told her, that i have my aunt as my guest at home. and i need an accommodation for that night in her home, as her house is very near and she got a guest room. Instead of offering the room, she said , "madam, sing the song ' Nadipinchu na naava and sleep" This is a song of the helpless, who cannot do anything in the storm of the sea except to rely on God" Funny how can people be so callous, and selfish, and speak of the God's help?

Relationship? or preaching? what is important?

The other day i went to attend some Christian meetings, along with my friends couple, soon after the message was over the preacher just disappeared from the campus, he went away in limosa car along with his wife, and two children and some helpers, may be maids free of cost.

I did not heed this , and I did not give much importance to it But my friend was critical about this departure, she said, 'why this preacher is not giving time for the public, and allow them to talk to him' I said , "these people will crush him just as they did to Jagan," in fact my husband was in my mind. My husband, Yesuratnam, used to spend a lot of time with the people who came to listen to his message He used to come very late to eat his food, though he was sickly, he never gave importance to his life, or his health, he all ways used to tell me , "Leela, first 'others' next 'we' " His word and deed are the same, what he used to say , he used to live by it. ho, how many days i used to wamper over his negligence of his own health to give first preference to 'others'. Many a times even we family , i.e., me and children were put aside for the sake of others, to tend their needs, we had to forgo many little pleasures too, as he used to give his precious time and energy for others.
So I thought its better for the preachers not to spend much time for others, when my friend commented about that particular preacher, that he is selfish not to give some time for others after his speach .
There was a little bit difference of opinion in between us, but neither of us quit the ettiquett of imposing our opion on others, so that conversation was stopped then and there. But my mind often goes to that conversation and wondering what is right? whether to spend time with the audience after the message or just leave the place soon after the message ?
Actually today is 8th of May but i opened the page of 8th of April of Our Daily Bread, today and read the Bible text and the meaning of it in that little book ODB.
when i got answer to my thoughts in my mind i was so happy, then only i saw that i was supposed to read month of May portion, and i was dragging behind one month exactly, realizing my mistake, i understood that it was not by mistake, but by the coincidence of God's help I read that portion which answered my cosncience, correctly.
Here i put down what i read in ODB .
One person, wanted toknow what life was like for homeless people. so he went in disguise, and lived among them, once he attended a meeting where he was offered food and shelter if he listened to the message. after he listened to the preacher he wanted to shake hands with him to comment that the message was good for him But the preacher ignored him and went away within no time, hurriedly. Then this person realized that somehitng is missing in this ministry, that is building up relationship.
st Paul, was right when he said, "we were well pleased to impart to you not only the gospelof God but also our own lives,because you have become dear to us IThess 2:8 When Paul sahred the gospel, he gave himself too.
In our service to the Lord, do we share not just the words, or money,but our time and relationship?

This bit of information clarified my wavering thoughts about that preacher, and painful thoughts about the time my husband spent for others, despising his health. At any cost the preacher is supposed to spend time with the people, however good he may be in preaching. serving others by offering time and relationship is more important than any thing.

Am I wasting my time..oh no...then why I am not...able to............blah blah

The otherday, i was thinking how come i could not make time for many things in life I was trying my level best, to do something, but i never could find time. I thought i was the only who could manage time, however sincerely i tried, I wonder why i could learn this most importatn aspect of life. I had been really disappointed with myself; I could do only 3 out of 10 things i wanted to do in a day, so i started to get up at 5am itself, but still i find something comes in between and the same old pattern of life of doing things late, and missing things to do. Often i feel that i am becoming very slow in moment and doing things, even picking up something from the floor takes me a lot of time, unlike before, moving from one room to another alos makes me take more time than before..My time is taken up in small little things which i used to do within no time in the past.
With these and many other thoughts i opened my "Our Daily Bread" and i found these startling words there, Isnot this the way how God listens to the whispers of the heart even, and answers us?
I thank God for His sweet voice, and for His concern for every thought of us
Read the extract from the Our Dail Bread :

" Why is being on time is so challengingfor some of us? Even when we start early,something inevitably gets in our to make us late.
Gal4;4 When the fullness of the time had come, God sent forth His Son.

Jesus arrival during the Roman Empire (pax Romana ( The peace of Rome) was perfect timing The known world was united by one language of commerce A net work of global trade routes provieded open access to the whole world All of this guaranteed that the gospel could move rapidly in one tongue. No visad No impentrable borders Only unhindered access to help spread the news of the Saviour wwhose crucificion fulfilled the prophecy of the Lamb who would be slain for our sins ( Isa 53) in Gods perfect timing!

All of this should rmeind us that the Lord knows what time is best for us as well if you are waiting for answered prayer or the fullment of one of His promises, donot give up If you think He has forgotten you, think again When the fullness of times is right for you, He will show up--and you will be amazed by His brfilliant timing!
Not ours to know the reason why
Unanswered is our prayer,
But ours to wait for God s own time
To lift the cross we bear

God s timing is always perfect