Well, I am sitting back and reflecting, at this is of 61 years,  many of my friends left me, either they are ill healthy or washed away in the floods of life. Most of them are trace less, NO PATTHA ( no address)  Even those who are younger to me by 5 or 6 years too seems to be facing many trails of life and retreating slowly.  

I have known friends who were fall in love so deeply and left their kith and kin to join the love of their lives.  There were stars in their eyes they walked on the cloud 9, they were so happy in spite of those dire consequences,  They swam against the tides of life. They were for one for the other.   but poverty+love would not give strength to their bodies. They cannot depend on their friends and sympathizers for living.   They have to search for their living. started life at the grass root levels.  But the life they led before they fall in love and get married was richer one. Did not know how to live from morsel to mouth. did not know how to work hard. the demands of life and cravings of daily needs were too much for them. They stopped and  pondered over the riches they left behind.
Now after achieving love and marriage, the eyes are wide opened, the cramps of the stomach were too sounding.  Result of their love life was children. The first born was then apple of their eye. They cannot give poor surroundings to the baby, no never.!!!Therefore getting a job in some company,  fraud over the financial matters, fake liability, cheating and deceiving  and doing anything for the sake of the money they got in ill manner became the way of life.  After all these hearts knew pure and spotless love once, these were the people who sacrificed everything for the sake of love and charity.Pity they never tasted the the purest love of Christ who shed His blood for them in spite of their liabilities.
Indulged into such deceit of Satan they sold their souls to it. thereby became addicts to cigarette smoking, alcoholism, and extravagant expenditure beyond their capability. The lady of the house never stopped her pitiful sheath less pomp and show, for never realized what is real beauty of life.  The clubs, the cars, the mansions, the fields they got by cheating went on and on.  The old friends were forgotten. their simple lives were not an attraction to them now.

The Life as it is now

                                                       Yes I am thankful to God in many ways for His gift of this life.  I am thankful to Him for I am able to breathe and walk and sit and sleep and eat and could digest food.  I am thankful to Him for I can still desire some things and can afford to buy them for my comfort.  I am thankful to God for I am able to think and remember things still. I am thankful to God for I am able to relate with people and could talk to them intelligently.  I am thankful to God for my sight is still good and could read the books, newspaper and listen to the tv program.  Without much strain on my brain. I am able to give my testimony in the TV programs. I t am thankful to God for there are people who are still loving me and shedding tears in my sorrows. I thank God for these dear friends who think of me in gentle manner and pray for me.

                                  Recently I started to thank God for the Alzheimer of my   dear mother who is invalid and could not remember many details of life. She used to ask me about my daughter’s children, and used to enquire of my son’s married life and about the offspring issue.  When I was telling her that he doesn’t have any ep, she used to tell me better he should have.  But recently when he visited her she completely forgot that he was married, and started to say better he get marry soon.  She chose a girl telling him that she should be born-again experienced girl in the Lord and should be fair and charming.   I never heard her speaking these things in this manner, and it was my turn to be utterly astonished to listen to her voice which was recorded by john on his mobile. It look like she resembled as the old patriarch Jacob who was blessing his children with many issues of the future unfolding. Shouldn’t I be heart fully thank full to God for this?  I was just worried a little about my mother how she would take the recent calamity occurred in my family.  I see now Alzheimer is not a disease but its blessing to us in old age to be detached to this world step by semtep.  Wonder How god in His great mercy would pattern everything so beautifully for our good. 

                                       I often remember the keldoscopia where we put different colored glass bangle pieces to look at the various designs it would patterned for our astonishment and amusement. I used to spend hours together with this little self-made instrument in my childhood, one eye peeping into the instrument and one ey closely shut out.

                              This is the way how God makes our lives, we think our beautiful bangles were shattered down and only pieces are with us. But when we allow God to put them into this keldoscopia  he will make our life beautiful  to be astonished by foes and amusement for our friends.

Many days passed since I type on my laptop to post my blogs, because the way the key board is giving me so much of irritation while typing. The letters are jumping, the sentences are jumping due to the curser jumping from one place to another without my effort.  Even now while I was typing this single sentence I had to stop four times and retrieve my curser back to it place. Alas