Beautiful World

BEAUTIFUL WORLD

I used to keep a small note book and pencil beside my pillow, under the mosquito net wherein I was sleeping in that winter season. My room was big and in one corner of the room there was my big writing table and chair, near was my book self. There were two doors to my room; one leads to the big corridor and another into the hall. I closed that door which leads to the corridor. On the writing table I kept one big portrait of Jesus of yesteryears, and my Bible. I had an attached back room, and another bookshelf opportunity to my bed. BY 7 pm I used to close my doors and pray for an hour or so and used to close my doors and pray for an hour or so and used to study till midnight. And just before retiring to bed I used to read Bible sometimes. Those were the references from the Bible I had an attached bath room and another bookshelf opposite to my bed. By 7 pm I used to close my doors and pray for an hour or so and used to study till midnight. And just before retiring to bed I used to read Bible and was go to bed, God used to speak to me in my dreams sometimes. I used to be very happy whenever ig et answers to my prayers thru His owrd. Some times I used to get the reference of the Text from the Bible. I was very much conscious of those dreams, and therefore I used to keep a note book and a pencil to scribble those references
`Once I saw a beautiful Bible with golden Bi edge papers and on one of the inside pages I happened to see a reference of word of God written in Beautiful handwriting in Green ink. I was Isaiah 5:7
Early in the morning to first Thing they did was opening the Bible and reading that references. Oh it was wonderful to walk with God. The verse was as follows. “With it (a live coal, taken from with tongs from alters) he touched my mouth and said, “see this has touched your lips your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for”—That were a joyous day for me. I walked with Jesus and it was beautiful.

And on the other day---I spent my day mostly in the university along with my classmates. We all went to the beach. I felt we tarried there more than needed. I felt somehow I missed that beautiful fellowship that bound me with my Lord. Anyway He only told metro be happy in my life then why this sullen mood to me? With this question still in my mind I searched the Holy Scriptures for an answered and I found an answered all in a sudden, ECC 7:2 “Like the crackling of thorns under the pot, so is the laughter of the fools.”
I was not happy with that answered. Oh I was young and happy girl, can’t I be happier in the company of my friends, giggling all that? That night I got a verse in my sleep and I scribbled in on my little note book. It was Psalm 2:`` Serve the Lord with fear and rejoice with trembling”
When read it in the morning I found the e real meaning of rejoicing.
In those days I was very slim and I was very weak too and used to be very miserable without any stamina at all. Once I asked the Lord, “Lord you give health to your children. I am so weak and tired always. I feel miserable. Please give me good health.” That day God showed me this verse “Those who rejoice in the Lord their strength shall be renewed. (Ref----)
There was a great burden for me for my beloved Kanthanty for her salvation and also for her family. I was waiting letters to her explaining her the way of salvation, My uncle was very angry with me and once he replied me like then” Leela, you are writing about Jesus Christ and Bible in your letters .Remember that I was born as a Hindu and I live and die as a Hindu. Hereafter if you write any more letters of this sort, you have to face the consequences which you cannot imagine _bye uncle. When I read that letter I was shocked. This uncle I loved him very much. There was a great bondage between us. Every summer since my 9th year, I used to go and spend my holidays in his home. He taught me how to draw with pencil. He taught me anything sitting near by. He treated me as his eldest child giving me first preference in all things.
Such uncle wrote to me such a threading heart wrenching letter. I t pricked my heart. Not knowing what to do with that letter I wanted to give a sharp answered describing how great is Jesus Christ and His love. Not knowing what to do with that letter, I just opened the Bible at random, and it was opened at II Kings 19:14
“Hezekiah received the letter from the messenger and reread it. Then he went up to the temple of the Lord and spread it out before the Lord. And Hezekiah prayed to the Lord. “
Oh Lord that was great guidance for me. So immediately. I spread that letter on my writing table in front of the portrait of Jesus which I told you before and I prayed, yes I prayed.
And in the prayer I asked the Lord what answer should I write to my uncle.
Oh the wondrous Lord opened my eyes on the verse in the Bible I King 18: Thirty six.36
Remain silent. Do not answer him and say nothing tin reply.”

All this happened within 5 minutes of time period. As I could not uderstand with my human knowledge. I started to pray vehemently for my uncle and his family. Later my uncle, aunty and 4 children turned to the Lord. Uncle took baptism and became Christian and died as a Christian. All that happened after 15 years after I received that letter from him... all those years I waited on the Lord, and prayed, god is the sovereign Lord who rules the human lives. When we pray unceasingly for a should to be saved He would answered definitely.

The presence of God was so near. One day I happened to observe a small spider while it is weaving its web. Suddenly a small fly was entangled in the web. However it tried it could not come out of it. It was struggling to come out and just then the spider come to the fly very fast. It started to prick it number of times, slowly and steadily until, the fly stopped to struggling to get free, and it became still, as if in unconscious stage. At this moment the spider slowly approached it and started to suck the blood drop by drop .of the fly. Oh!!
When I watched this spectacular phenomena I realized how cunning the luring of Satan is. What type of traps it would set in our lives all through, at every step of our lives. This lesson helped me a lot to watch out such traps in my university life.

Once I was traveling in a bus, an hour before there was great rain and the bus stopped at a bus halt. Was looking out the widow and saw fresh water was flowing down me into the lower part of the road. And pooled into small ditches there. I understood that Gods living water would flow and fill only the hearts who keep themselves in low spirit. Who are meek, humble and low? And I determined to keep myself in low profile always, in order to enjoy His living water in me.
Another time I was traveling from Bombay towards pune. On the way it so happened I could se Lona wala, a hill station, and this beautiful place filled with mountains and valleys and water falls. The weather was so cool and rainy, I can’t but sing the song “Oh Lord my God when I in awesome wonder,”
I could never get such joy as I would enjoy the nature.

When I went to ooty, I could enjoy every minute of my stay over there. The trees, birds, flowers, green meadows, clouds, and woods. Such joy I would never get anywhere else in my life. How I wish one day I live in such fresh country side, enjoying the presence of God in every drop of rain, and in every wave of mist. My soul refreshes in such beautiful places – sea is my passion. I Love to spend hours together at the sea.
In Des Moines, Iowa I enjoyed the snow, the birds, the chipmunks; every morning of my stay over there brought me wonderful mercies of God anew. In my long walks through the meadows among the trees, while the geese flying over my head I felt, this the life, just I needed. I live, 100% in such surroundings. I pray God to give me such surrounding in my last days of life to live and then die.

I am longing for ha beautiful world to welcome me when I close the eyes in this temporary dwelling here in this world.

I HAVE A DREAM

I have a dream , a song to sing
To help me cope with anything.
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail.

I believe in angels,
something good in everything i see
I believe in angels
When i know the time sis right for me
I'll cross the stream
I have a dream.

I have a dream a fantasy
To help me through reality
and my destination
Makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
STILL ANOTHER MILE!

I believe in angels something good in everything i see ....when i know the time is right for me I will cross the stream .......I have a dream

He Touched Me

Those were the days the Lord has been very closer to me. Talking to Him and getting answers from Hi was just like opening the door and be with Him face to face. All that I need to do was just tell Him how I felt. I used to get answers from Him in sundry manner. When I would get the answer I was not known. But I knew that I would get answer from Him and when I get it, I know for sure that the answer was from Him and it used to be clear and straight to my heart. When I get answer from Him it was amazing. It was beautiful and it was very clear. But I used to get those answers in an unusual manner.
Now I perceive and try to understand such simple faith, just believing that He would answer in His own time when we tell Him is all that matter, and is needed. And answers are sometimes so faraway intimate, just as if He was also feeling just as we do.
I think loneliness is the most hated thing in my life, even in those days. Though I know how to fill my hours in day or in night, I always needed someone, just be there. If I do not have that ' someone' in my life I feel very depressed,
I remember how I used to spend those lonely days with that some one who was nearer than my heart. I used to pray day and night, every minute I used to communicate with Him, He was my constant companion, a bosom friend, and I used to share all my feelings, ideas and thoughts and plans for life with Him. Talking to Him was just a normal thing, I used to sing for Him listen to Him by reading the Holy Scriptures to my hearts content, and sleep in His arms, when I get up in the morning He was the first one to remember and talk to, when I retire in the night He was the last one to take leave, so life was beautiful with this Some One beside me, because He was the one who listens to all my thoughts …
Here is a simple incident to know and assert how keenly He was listening to my whispers even and I was happy for that to know that How nearer He was to me…..!

One day it was raining cats and dogs outside, my parents and sisters were sleeping, it was past 1am in the night , suddenly I felt I was alone and very lonely … I thought I was like a little shivering bird in the rainy dark night. Just then, as if His Holy spirit touched my feelings, a smooth gush of wind just changed the pages of the Bible I was reading and as if to stop the pages, I just touched it and I saw the fowling verse right in front of me (Ref: :lonely sparrow

Photo of a sparrow



`I was reading it with wide eyes, and just then through the open wind one small drenched sparrow flew into my room and sat on the log up in the ceiling of my room. We were staying in an old Bungalow with tiles constructed by Britishers. I t was a old strong bungalow and when I saw that little sparrow just on top of my head shivering all alone, oh, I felt awestricken by His presence. I was amazed and stared and stared at the sparrow I lied dove on the mat when I was reading my bible and was gazing at the sparrow and I don’t remember when I my eye lids closed and slipped into deep slumber. It was life I was sleeping in His arms and in His lap. His cozy comforting presence was seen near. I was thoroughly repressed with that.

`Those were the days I was asking the e Lord to speak to me through His word that He has forgiven of all my misgivings so far I had committed I was a proud girl and short tempered. I had a row with same people I never was afraid of anyone and did not care any one. The first thing God conveyed me that I need to go to those people and reconcile with them. In order to have His forgiveness I need to forgive them all. His instructions was so clear, that unless I set right things with my foes I need not sit and pray to Him any more..(Ref:



I started to humble in the presence of God. I started to reconcile with the people with whom I had a row. I started to pray for them kneeling down telling God how I felt for them. And started to be friendly with them after set right with them.

When I started to change my life in this way and seeking His forgiveness, I found these words in the Bible are heart touching, piercing my very marrow of the bones. When He talks through His word its just cuts me deep and give me great and deep solace.
This verse Ref: “Salvation is a gift of God was something that gave me a great Hope. Yes, it’s a gift and gift to be taken, has to be accepted with grateful heart and open arms. I accepted it. But still my faith was weak. This gift is for all, as Jesus knows me by my name how about if He tells me that He has forgiven me, my very personal inequities, follies, I kept on searching the scriptures, reading them prayerfully and meditating on it and waiting upon Him to touch me. His touch has special healing. That heals the bleeding heart of mine. Only He and me knows that, how it works.

The particular night charged my direction in life. That particular verse gave me great confidence in my life. Now that verse made me to trust that I am child of God hereafter. And I am forgiven, and my past 20 years of life will never have its shadow on my future.

Colossians 2: 13- 14 When you were dead in your sins and in your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having cancelled the written code with its regulations that was against us ( you) and that stand opposed to us(you) , he took it away, nailing it to the cross.”

That was great promise- which was the foundation of my faith that gives me an assurance that hereafter I am the child of God and that He is my Father and that Devil has no power over me. That was the assurance for me, as I am washed in His blood, I will see Him face to face when I breathe my last on this earthly journey. That was the belief I gained that Devil can never sneer at me or snatch me from the fold of His grace.

His blood, His cross made a miracle erasing all my guilty consciousness, all my inquiries, all my follies. He died and nailed on the cross instead of me with my sins on my face.
A new beginning started in my life. He not only touched my soul, my feelings, my heart, even my body started to bloom with good health.
I started to love my parents very much. I want them to enjoy this precious love of God. I was so afraid, whether they would be lost without knowing Him. My agony for them knew no bound. I was praying for them. My soul could be consoled for the way I wept for them.

This burden for the lost souls was a gift from Him. As this anguishes for their souls was unquenchable, He consoled me through a vision one day. I was half awake and I saw myself on the deck of a silver color ship. I was in the audience listening carefully, the word of God being proclaimed by a preacher. Suddenly I heard a shout in the clouds of the sky, “Second Coming of Jesus, Get ready to meet Him”. All were running hither and thither in a frantic way and trying to hide themselves. I was crying loudly and praying to God, “Oh God, save my parents, do not leave them, save my parents.”
Then I saw in the sky a very big Wooden Clock. I heard some one telling me that it was not ordinary clock but its God’s clock. It has two hands, but they are not moving by themselves as in our clocks. This clock has two plates one upon the other which was made up of the wood. The outer plate has a hand and the inner plate has a hand. The outer plate and the inner plate were moving. Systematically. The outer plate and inner plate were moving simultaneously. And I saw the two hands were stopped at the number 11. Both hands showing 11 on the clock. I heard a great loud voice, which was telling me that “Our God’s time has still more 5 minutes to go, in that period both your parents would be save. Do not be panic. Wait in the Lord!

Can you imagine how greatly I was consoled? It’s beyond description.
But one thing I knew was what God told me will be done in due course His time and need to wait and see. . That’s all. What a great God we have! What a loving Father we have!
He gives us pain and agony in our heart for our beloved ones. So that we can experience His love! Oh let our souls are sensitive to His directions at every turn of ourselves.
And there was one more mysterious vision which depicted my future life, and the temptations I would face and a way to escape it too.

There was that blue sky behind a whither tall tree. On its branches sat a number of crows. I was wondering why the crow were sitting so silently.
At once all of them were crowing loudly and left place. Then I saw that blue sky was ripped and there was scenery wherein the most handsome men were walking with shameful faces and like women. This scene was vanished and I saw women of variety dresses walking without fear, then I saw women with some religious dresses. Posing them as of very pure and great personality. Then a great wind blew on them, and they cast all their coverings on their heads, and they felt ashamed because they lost their hair also, they were hiding their faces and shouting “shame shame”
When opened my eyes, I knew that was from the Lord, He was trying to teach me and something. He was also showing me my future where I would be put in great temptation of false show off.
I realized life with Gout God is shame Religious would not save me. Sects would no hold me God wants a pure, devoted heart.
Pure and committed worship. Not out ward appearances. That was a great eye open for me. His benevolent Touch has a meaning in life
His touch has sundry ways for different people.