Mercies of journey from Melbourne to India

I reached home all in one piece!! It was safe and comfy journey as if I was on the feathery wings of great eagle in the sky.  the Lord was with me and showered me the mercies of the journey. 

The day before my journey to India , I had sever pain in my left back, could not get up, or do any thing, it was sharp and shooting to the ribs in front. 

I knew it was due to bad posture --I was eager to edit, finish  and post the pictures to the story of penguins in my blog. Though I felt the signs of discomfort in my way of sitting, I dared not be disturbed even a single second, and at last I finished it. But the very next moment I realized I could not get up, and the pain was so sever.   Thought I could lie down,  first swallowed two Tylenol mild pain killers and  succeeded into deep slumber.  By evening Inzy came to teach me an Italian dish with keera, dried mint leaves, and yogurt, but seeing my condition, poor girl she taken aback , wishing me all the best as fervently as she could. (she is yet one another sari lover of mine,in Melbourne,lol) I could not stand, I was so miserable, crying with sharp pain.  Eben and Pallavi called me, knowing my miserable condition advised john what to do, poor john and swarna went to the shop brought hot packs.. and tried their level best to comfort me. But no use, I called my mom and aunty, two praying women in India and asked them to pray for me. I was so giddy, with the pain I could not concentrate on any thing, so john took care of my suitcase filling and wieghing etc.While I was watching helplessely not able to get up or put a thing in its place. 

After much disturbed sleep with unsound groanings, and sighs,  but our whole night prayer warriors not knowing my predictment were praying for my safe journey that night in the house of Raj and Prisca . So the next morning when I got up there wasnot much pain, but still had shooting pain now and then, had very hot bath , went down to have subway, started to walk in the sun in the  neighbourhood, along with john,  by 11  Nora and Alex came along to pick me up to the Airport. I did not ask them to give me lift, but they were so kind enough to sacrifice their rest on week end,in spite of very busy schedule they need to take care soon after they leave me in the Airport. John was more sure of God's help so he kept his serene disposition alt all through; he and his sister got from their dad,  never worry emotionally as I do often..lol Stto e times Godo speaks to us in such painful situations, too,  I had had a vivid assurance that 'though I am so miserable now, Ie would be all right by the time I start my journey"  how and why I got that assurance is , based upon the faithful God who said I will never leave you  nor forsake you, I will be with you all the time."

   the pain was subsiding slowly and steadily and by the time I got into the car ...i forgot...that I had pain.   And with the last yummy bite of Macdonald Burger in the Airport, Nora and Alex and John bid farewell with many hugs and prayers. 

On the flight, His mercy was abudant still, , there was a couple sitting beside me for a few minutes, later they shifted to another place, of privacy, and the Lord in His vastness of love provided me three seats to lie down happily , I  slept for a few hours, which I missed the night before, and refreshed and renewed, recharged, revived..hahah completely and to the core of my being.  Later I had a very speedy journey, with too many meals, apple juices and organge juices.    once I landed in Hyd, a god fearing driver who was a convert from Hindu back ground fetched me safe into my home while I was taking rest at the back seat. I landed in Hyd at  12 midnight, and I was in my home by 7 am, my helper and good friends came and helped me with breakfast and tea and again after a good jet lag sleep, my friend in next street invited me for dinner, and that was the end of the day..

I thank you all for your wonderful support and open recepteeive hearts for the word of God, you  and my son John made my life memorable in Melbrourn.. I feel I am going to live longer .. with this energy ,God willing, hahah ..May the good Lord  bless and keep you now and forever till we meet again.  Leela aunty

Little Penguins (Part 2)

"Mom, tell us a bed time story', My little children 5 and 4 years old cooing , laying beside me on a cozy bed into the nook of my arms.
"Oh now, o no, I thought to myself. My mood was not good. I was so sad. I cant leave my little children just like that and go away for a Refresher's course for Lecturers in Bangalore. oh not now I cannot invent any story for them as I used to do"
I was taking the class for BA students, then suddenly our principal Sr. Winifred came and told me, ;"Miss!! there is a Refresher's course for Lecturers in Social work in Bangalore, in fact it was already started a week ago and still there is a vacancy for one more lecturer, so you please go tomorrow and attend this course for two weeks"--that was all that she spoke and left.

We lecturers need to do 4 Refresher's courses to get UGC//  Pay commission recommended salaries, or we should complete PhD in our subject. This option is given  only to some batch of lecturers who joined before 1985 or so.. As I had been in service since 1976 I was supposed to do these courses.
Its a good opportunity for me, but I was not happy to leave my little children like that to go. My husband was working in Railways , in Vijayawada 60km away , in those days to go to that place , he used to take a passenger train to and fro which would make him to go at 6 am and come in the night 10 pm
The responsibility  about the children was too much but I used to take it gladly all through even at the cost of stress and sacrificial life. I hardly had any time for myself, all ways hurry baths, hurry gulping of a morsel of food , many trips to the school and hospitals when they were sick , it costs me lot of patience and physical strength .I was in a way used to take all the responsibility and never entertained, not even a single thought in my mind, to entrust that responsibility to any one , yea, not even to their dad. I used to give me relaxation time for him to spend with children rather than any responsibility. In such conditions leaving my children like that going out two weeks is like a nightmare to me.

See I am different kind, I take things very serious, I am made up of some stuff like too much sentiments, emotions, feelings.. may be that was the reason God all ways have to answer me for every cry of mine immediately. For He promised me that He would not bring any temptation beyond my capacity and even if it occurs He would make a way to get out of that. He is so kind and understands me so well, as I often being misunderstood by my very beloved people in close quarters.

Now.. 'how can I tell a story to my sweet little children here ', I all ways tell them a story and pray while they go to sleep nuzzling into my lap. Then I put them on bed. But today the scene is different, I need to be consoled more than they were. but I can't say 'no' to them.
 As if I was inspired by God I stretched out my hand and got a small little book, Discovery Digest of Back to the Bible series. which was there on the table along with many other books just beside my bed. When I picked one of them, I found that little book with Penguin picture on it and a chick in between the legs. I did not read that book till then as it was a new book yet to be read.
when I started to read and explain the story to my children the words in that book jumping up into my eyes, and stars of the story were showering on us  becoming so vivid...making me and my children accept the situation healthily and happily.

I found myself telling them the story weaving around the dad Penguin, how he need to take care of the little birds for some time while mom Penguin should relinquish;    for me Refresher's course to be refreshed for two weeks"
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the book says like this---
. "Finally, the eggs come forth. The mother, even more depleted than the father after laying the eggs, makes a rush to the sea to binge-eat, replenishing her famished self and staving off post-ovum depression.
  The father stays around to keep the eggs warm.'


The emperor penguin serves as one of the few examples in nature of a dedicated father. After the mother lays the egg, her nutrition levels are diminished and she must replenish them by feeding in the ocean for two months. The mother's absence leaves the father responsible for keeping the egg 
 The male tends to the egg when.. the female returns to the sea, in order to feed herself
A father Emperor penguin feed the chicks  special liquid from their throats till the mother penguins return to care for the young."
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      so by the time I told the story according to the grasping ability and understanding of the little ones, they were so exited to know that dad would take care of them in my absence and dad would cook for them , dad would dress them up , and 'dad would take them to school even?' they asked me while my husband was listening to us while he was reading something.
   He said ,Oh yea I will do all that, just as the dad penguin did, and also another good news, your uncle from Intur would come to stay with you too, and I am applying leave for a few days to stay with you " They were more excited with this piece of news and slowly slumbered into deep sleep, and I am excited and into sleep.

Yes, I could leave them into the hands of God and their dad, and left for Bangalore, praising God.
       But you know some people like me find a sort of satisfaction in still grieving over nothing.
  In Banglore I was so much taken care , good comfortable bed, hot water baths, hot food served on our tables, and lot of food for the brain, good discussions and long long evening walks etc gave me rest and happiness, but still somewhere some how could not detach myself from my sweet home and sweet sweet children.
"Hey Leela what is that bothering you? huh? can you get your children to this place? nooo.. at least can you leave this course and go to them/ ? nooo... then what fun it is to be sad thinking of them..huh? "
 Venus from Kerala university was exhorting me..
 oh well then I came to my senses, and really started to learn to be refreshed.
    When I came home, children were shouting with joy, "Mom, do you know dad cooked potatoes curry so yummy.". it was a great discovery for them.
    "wow, they are so happy, by God's grace".
       I praised God for His timely stories and also exhortations through a good friend, just to make me realize how much I need to refresh by taking rest to my self. to be refreshed and revived  more enthusiastically.

Replinish -refill, top up, fill up, recharge,reload;
freshen; plenish

Refresher's course==Refresh physically and academically and mentally ...
Penguines two months      but for me Two weeks.

Little Penguins of Philip Island (Part 1)

    Only 90 minutes  from Melbourne , Philip Island which I visited made an indelible mark in many memorable events I witnessed in my short stay in Australia.
           I watched the smallest penguins of the world marching through the dunes of the sea, in the dusk of the sunset, slowly wobbling their way, into the green bushes ashore finding their abode of small burrows hidden under the bridge, on which we stood awe stricken, silent and looking at the amazing phenomena of God's love for these little creatures
             He showed His magnificent design once again by putting such a great intelligence and sentiments, insights and instincts into the small brain of these little miniatures of beautiful creation of God.

            They were there, on the white beach among the black rocks in the black  bluish and stunningly silent waters of white froth surf.   They were standing some towards the sea, some towards their left side ... slowly moving as if they were in a slow motion film.   They watch over the other penguins, and at the same time waiting for their families to come ashore to meet them.         Now and then one or two penguins make a quick survey of the sea surface to find the whereabouts of other groups of the penguins swimming through the waters to reach the shore.
  Steadily all of them waiting , expectantly, waiting for others to come; they are not selfish, to push others and go away, they are not zombie like things not caring about their ancient family, they are not possessive caring only their immediate family members.  They showed an amazing patience, concern and respect towards the well being of their fellow penguins.

       As the time pass by and by, as the other penguins coming and joining the group in clusters, I saw one of them made its way slowly and steadily with determined steps, wobbling, into the green bushes, where there was a walk path for them... through which it made its way right under the bridge where I was standing staring into the darkness. The path was illuminated by the shaded electricity . As the leader I do not know who employed her , who elected her/him to take up the responsibility of leading others, it  is a mystery.
 She posted on one feet height elevated earthen platform . She made her seat comfortable and its beak towards the other penguins following after her.
     She did not make any noise or shouts like in other species of the creation, but all other penguins who were following her knew exactly where she posted her self as security guard.
 While she was there , I saw the little blue penguins coming one by one and stood a little lower to her scrutiny gaze, visible to her, and in waiting for others to come and join.
  Minutes were passing on, but they were still and quiet, no noise like other birds,  they look like little gentlemen in black coats and white shirts standing erect with their heads high.  The way they conduct themselves is amazing  they were behaving as cultured royal breed.
      They have discipline , they have punctuality, they have concern for others, they have responsibility  for the group.
  The human world forgot all these  wonderful  qualities of gentlemen , royalty, and beauty of the life.
   But these little birds , still cherish them as if there was a king to obey and to keep the rules.
     The little leader when she thought others are not finding her, or she lied down on that elevated earthen platform among small twigs of green bush, invisible to us, may be shy to lie down in front of us?? do not know but it made a dust signal-- beyond and invisible naked eye of any one of us who were staring in her direction.  This phenomena of hers is spectacular and very secretive.  The other members of the group gathered, enough, and  I saw one of them coming forward just like in the parade we witness on any National Day,as the  leader of the squad tilting his head a little towards the flag and president to salute him as he going on marching.  So this one did the same and found the leader on elevated Dias, and went back to the group, and fetched them one by one after her in  line..wobbling and taking little strides of steps slowly and steadily as if they were in marching in a Que.
One batch of them who stood in group marched forward and went into the burrows under the bridge.  and the rest were still waiting for others from the shore to join them.
    Funnily this time only one penguin came forward from the group and while looking at the elevated Dias she did not wait for others, but slowly went into the burrow. I thought it look like a little bit tired and older. may be she was given permission to go and rest, without waiting for others.
      The others slowly followed the leader while the one who was guarding them on the elevated portion of the earth was waiting for others to come.
       I found a great resemblance of respectable families of the human beings. What makes them so serene and sober and quietly maintaining their dignity of respect and concern for one another?? Why they are not pushing others in selfish greed and thirst for authority?  How could they cherish the same ancient pomp and glory of disgruntlement? By being so what do they achieve..unlike in this barbaric world of greed and covetousness, if only I had chance to be one of them , then only I might understand /for what higher principles of life they took chances for and stood for?
    Find life at its best, and you will find it in creation of God.........The Heavens declare the glory of God.....Day after day they pour forth speech,;  .....They have no speech, they use no words; No sound is heard from their mouth  yet their voice goes out into all the earth, their words to the ends of the world.

PROVIDENTIAL GUIDANCE AND COINCIDENCE OF LIFE

So when I went home, though my parents took me in anxiously, my dad was angry with me. Its natural on his part, because I was the one who wanted to go to the Airlines, I was the one who wrote to him that he need not work any more in the police department, that I would earn lumsum salary and I could look after them well in Bombay and many a promises I gave him and all were like the writing on the water vanished now. He could not lift his head among his colleagues and friends and relatives.  He proudly told his kith and kin that I was highly payed employee in Air India, and felt very proud of me. But all those dreams vanished.  Here I am useless and bruised back at home.    
In fact when I got that appointment letter from Air India, we were so happy because I was the first one who got job in our PG batch.  soon after the studies.   Money was very difficult in those days, dad got status and respect in his job and out in society but money was very less .. in spite of that he got all the necessities to be ful filled for me for the job like deposit money etc.  I was asked to come to Madras to get into a flight to Bombay.  I do not know any one ... neighter dad knew any one in that place , he used have some distant relatives but never knew where they live. So when I got this appointment letter I prayed to God  I was happy when I got a promise from psalms 139:8  even when I ascended into the sky you will be there... is the promise that consoled me...  none of our family knew the aeroplane.. getting a job in it was a great boon to us.  so dad and me started to go to Madras, we reached Air India Air port   all the girls who were selected for the job were in the lounge,  dad and me were both worried, I am afraid to go alone, as I never left my parents and go out in my life.  My dad was strangely very silent and he was so sad to leave me like that.   we both sat together on a sofa, he said," Leela you came into this world in Madras and leaving this world  and going into the sky in Madras" yea I was born in Egmore Hospital in Madras when my dad was working as Police officer before the division of Andhra and Tamilinadu. and I do not know why he said, so but I saw he was very sad to send me alone like that.  There were many fears  on our faces, but we both were trying to hide them from one another... at that moment a strange thing happend,  I saw a girl in a chair to the right side of the place where I was sitting .  Someone saying in my mind , you know that girl go near"  I just got up at once and went to her and found myself talking to her,"hey you are Nirmalatha  Boddu.. "  she answered immediately.. "oh yea , you are Leelavathi"  she was my class mate in stall girls's high school in Guntur, we knew each other very well, even she was selected for the Air hostess post and she too was about to travel with me  to Bombay.. I told my father that here is a girl whom I knew very well.   She too was very happy to see my dad, and told him that we will go together to Bombay and that her brother Harrison went already to Bombay and was waiting for her there , so soon after we got down we will be received by him in the airport and we will be taken care of.  Oh what a  relief for me and my dad? Is this just a coincidence? no never  in the life of a person who loves God will never be coincidences but only provincial guidance's If that girl was not known to me and did not take me with her, I literally do not have any one in that new place. Strangely every body had some one to pick them up when we got down, except for me. And the lord God arranged everything for me even before I asked Him.

CONTINUATION OF -- Encounter with the Murderer

I left the Matunga Police station along with two dear brothers as my escorts. Br Murthy and Br Khoshi, both of them took care of me so tenderly, lovingly and so respectably like thier own sister , I was taken to the home of Br. murthy  where his obedient wife Sis Vijaya hugged me and welcomed me into the home as her own. Once I reached home, I found my self quiet at home but something happend to me like it was imprinted into my soul, forever, great fear took hold of me. I was not in my controle, my hands , knees and body was shaken as a leaf in the whirlwind.  It saw with my own eyes how my knees knuckle to one another  just as it was when I saw Augustine the murderer in the Police station.    My gold chain was not a big one, its small one thin with a rold gold cross as pendant, when Augustine pulled it from my neck it broke into two parts one was in his hand the other fell on the floor at the electric pole where I stood and waiting for the bus. that peice of the chain had this rold gold cross and we both saw it in the same fraction of time and we both bent down to pick it up at the same time, but he pushed me and took it and hit me on my face with his gupthi..shouting "Chore...chain....margaya" that was all that i heard and remember now....
Any way right at home br Murthy and Sis Vijaya were like angels took care of me like a baby in the cradle, indeed. The only bed with the mattress was given to me to sleep, while they made their bed on the floor along with their little daughter Beaulah  most of the night  they were awake to pacify me with words of comfort, they gave me sleeping tablets given by the doctor and saw me to go into deep slumber.  Later they told me that I had very disturbed sleep and I was murmering something in my sleep.
The next day both of them brought a steel basin  and a mug of hot water to brush my teeth paste to my bed where i lied down.  they did not allow me to get down from the bed, brought hot breakfast to the bed and made to go to sleep again , for whole day.   In the eveing when i got up I still was shivering when the door was opened by any one.   so they kept me in bed to find my trembling nerves could be at ease.  I understood that fear is something beyond my control, I rose up to meet the occasion and I did my job successfully , but no body knew what all that fear i suppressed underneath my soul.   This wonderful couple understood my plight and took care of me so well. God bless them.
Later I was called by my dad to come home immediately , he sent some telegraphic money too.  So there ended the life of mine in Bombay as an Air hostess.

When I was in PG I came to know of the Lord and I surrendered my life to Him.  Then I got job here in Bombay Santacruz, in Air India International Air lines as Air hostess, so that was the story behind why I was in Bombay.  The Devil tried to take away my soul destroy it , but I won the case by the grace of God. So seeing it was utterly defeated in winning my soul by testing me in so many ways in the job, It could not keep quiet, it wanted to take away my life, at least it wanted to bring me shame by making my face most ugliest .. as I was selecte to the Air hostess job basing on my face and physique besides other skills of fluency in English language etc etc.   But it failed, again.  The Lord sent His angels to protect me from the Murderer, thought I was just a few feet behind him and he being fully drunk with fresh blood on his hands and a lethal weapon in his hands could not harm me only because God sent His angels to protect me.  Yes  I picked up the half piece of gold chain and it was in  my hand when i went to the Matunga Police station   I could had keep mum without telling the police that the half chain was with me... but I told them and showed them when they asked about it, I gave it to them .  I could not speak a lie.. any way.. the story was beautifully taken care by God, as you will see later in these pages...
Once  I reached home with a bandage on my face , my parents and my sisters could not control the emotions, of love.  But later many things happened through which i had to travel, many problems which I went through, and many more miracles which God wrought in my life with His loving hands..  but those I will record later,  but now I will continue the story of Gold chain...
I joined in a college as a Lecturer for degree students, I lost my gold chain in 1976    I joined the job in 1976 September and 1977 March I got a telegram from br Murthy asking me to attend the court to give witness in the court, he said better I should come to Bombay within two days.    March 31st1977 was the last working day for the academic year for us so that morning when I got the telegram I went to meet my Principal sr Josephine who was such a godly catholic nun, she already knew my testimony  of how I come to know of christ, the story of my salvation and the story of baptism  so she asked me why to Bombay , what happened, she inquired. I told her the incident of the murderer and the gold chain so she listened to me with keen interest and said at the end, oh you need to give witness now ging there? Its already 1O clock you have eAst coaat express to go to Bobmay  go , go soon you will get the train if you go without delay.   so hurriedly I went to the hostle room got my luggage and hurriedly went to the railways station bought the ticket and got into the train without waasting a second of time.  In thsoe days reservation was not at all a problem, few people used to travel so when the ticket collector came I told him I want the the uppoer berth to sleep and got a reservation ticket from him paying some extra money.  When I settled everything and spread my blankets on the berth with my little hand bag as my pillow, when I sit calmly , I felt the great fear pumping into my heart and making me to shiver once again.  Remember this is beyond my control,  my mind, my thoughts. I knew pretty well that I was safe on the berth, but the thought of meeting the murderer once again that too while witnessing against him in a court, made me realize what great adventure I am involved again without a second chance.   First of all I did not know what court means, how I should answer all that t hings. Thank God we did not have mobiles or phones to contact friends and inquire about the information, Thank God we did not have Iphones or Androids to Google and find the information .... we were ignorant,  we were historical figures, we no way could compete with you new high tech generation, I know while you are reading this story you woulh pity me as I would pity the James Bond777 in the detective film.  he do not have all the high technology that is used in C S I Miami  investigation films,   I feel pity so bored while i see this James Bond once upon a time a great hero struggling over petty things to find out the truth of the murder or theft, while Dective in CSI Miami solves the problem by DNA test, or finger print test, lie detector so on and so forth.   But I tell you some times in spiritual realm Ignorance is Bliss.  Faith worked miracles in the ancient times more in the lives of Abraham and Noah rather than in the modern days of weather forcaste system  and incubator babies.. Waiting upon God without any human aid is faith, in essence , and it was greatly available to us in those days, patiently waiting at the feet of God .was our privelege. we old timers praise God for that lack of technology too.in some ways.
whatever on the upper birth all alone in my nook of bed spread i burrowed my head into the folds of the blanket sheet on my little bag and started to pray ferverently for the courage, for the guidance , to face this situation of court and witness.  Thank God we did not have TVs too and ther by we were not very well informed about how to witness in the court.  Some old pictures I saw had some glimpeses of these scenes but  at that time we were more interested in the arguemtn of the hero or heroin rather than the procedure.  So handicapped in every way possilbe i knelt and prayed and read the Bible, and dared not to come down and sit on the lower birth, so got my tea and breakfast upto the birth by the caftaria man, and only to attend natural calls i got down for a few minutes, but whole of my journey ended on the birth. I did not feel like comeing down after all that realization of my predictment of witnessing in the court.

The next day morning I found everybody in that particular compartment were getting down, when I asked the TC who happened to come that side why they were getting down I was told that the compartment i was travelling was Pune compartment , and so when pune arrived all of them got down. So I slowly got down from my birth to sit on the lower birth and to have some breeze  and settled there, I saw a book on my opposite  lower birth , it was there upside
down,  but as soon as I saw the book i knew it was Reader's Digest  which I love to have a glance at it, as it was , there was no one there in that part of the compartment,the three births opposite to me were empty and my two births where I lied down were empty and the side births two were empty.. I could here a low conversation at the rear end of the compartment back there. so i picked up the book into my hands, and turned it over, you know the Index of the Reader's Digest all ways would be on the front page of the book. there wont be any cover pictures etc.  I went through the contents of the Index, and when I come to the fourth content, can you imagine what was there? I myself cannot believe my own eyes... "WHEN YOU ENTER INTO THE WITNESS BOX....."   I donot know how you are feeling now, but I was astonished, I was not in this world, I was like in a trance, or some where not in the real world, so hastily I turned to the pages, where this article is posted,  I read it fast,  pulled out my journel took pen started to note down the points lest I forget later, It was like JESUS himself came and sate beside me and telling me how I should conduct in the court.  It was like this...." When you go to the court to witness1) do not overdressed, or below the standard, you go in good and neat dress just as you would go to an interview for job selection,   2)  when the Lawyer ask you a question donot be over smart, just answer him yes , or no or donot know, stick to the truth.. do not try to describe the things and waste the time. 3) the next point was ...... even the lawyer is asking you questions and you are supposed to answer , you need not look at the lawyer to answer him , you just look at the judge and answer him.........These and many toerh things written in common man language to understand,  and for me it was like Jesus  himself sitting with me and telling me all these things. I noted down.. finished noting down, I read and read the article again, and kept the book on the berth as the train is nearing to the Victoria Terminus Bombay   But my eyes fixed on the book as I told you I was not in this world , I was in a trance like thing, what happend just then was not an ordinary thing,  On the other hand I was travelling on March 31  1977  and the book was of January 1976  how this miracle book got into that place??////??? T when the last stop arrived and I collected my belongings and sat again in front of that book wondering this strange phenomenon, fixing my eyes fast to that book, glued to the seat, glued to the book in my sight.  Atlast the train stopped and only one man was about get down walking just beside me, I called him and said;   Sir is this book yours?'  he in hurry to go away, turned my side and said 'no mam' and got down.  I asked that question just to have my conscious clear.  so I stretched my hand and took the book carefully and hold that into my palms as of a precious valuable gift, in deed it is !!  and that book is still with me in my collection of Books so precious , and it is in its original form carefully and safely in a folder.   Do you know what question I will ask the Lord my Jesus when I go to heaven while I walk with Him on golden streets, a long evening stride with my saviour, , I will ask Him, Lord which is the angel you sent to keep that little Readers Digest there for me on that day"?

LIFE IS A GAME, PREDESTINED AND SUPPOSED TO PLAY IT WELL

                      God has a blue print, a plan,  a design, a web site , a pattern .    His design is perfect. He kept the whole creation to be  just there.  There they have been predestined,; the sun, moon, stars-the Universe. the Galaxy.--the orbits, the known solar system, .God prescribed the pattern how they should be.  But everything  is in His control, He can use them He can destroy them at His own accord. and His wisdom. the creation is in His hands and acts and exists at His will and purpose. It is predestined.               
                
            BUT when He created the 'Man" with His breath in him, He has a special plan for him too. YES--again Predestined too.   Like He knows each of one of us even before they were born, --Now Do not take this in light manner, when He said He knows us before we were born, means---"HE KNEW US  He knew  where we are going to born, where we live, who are parents, the place etc etc. "He knows the place, Nation, home,parents, color,  sex, year month, date ...The birth the life  incidents we face.. were Predestined.
you have no choice, or authority, to escape that .      you are here on this earth , in this particular situation, as it is already PREDESTINED.                BUT  how you choose to act  or face, or adapt, to that situation is your CHOICE,   your WILL>  Your own decision.
God has already written your life and my life n a book  but with gaps and blanks and empty papers,  here and there. Like the blank paper  in between OT and NT>  God waits us to fill it up.  Do you think God put that blank paper period of 400 years  between OT and NT without a plan?
His keeps blanks and gaps in your life . The rest of life after you fill it with your decision   will be written by Him. again depending on your course of action and determination. How do you 'fill' the blank or blank paper in your already destined life is all that matter.

             For example  any person in the Bible right from Adam and Eve.  to Judas and others,  He knew the story of them.    God has given a blank paper to Adam and Eve to fill it up  'choose tree of life or tree of good and bad." When it comes to good and bad God warned them before hand.   but the life of Adam and eve depended on what they chose.
         Its like multiple characters playing the role given to them.  But here the role you play will be depend on the way you want to play. This is Great drama of life.  Its your choice to put your decision on that blank, gap.

         Eg Judas.Matt 26:24   The Son of Man will go just as it is written about him. But woe to that man who betrays the Son of Man! It would be better for him if he had not been born."   what does it mean////////////

             Any way Jesus has to be crucified , Its God plan, He decided it, in our words Predestined, yea, indeed.  If not Judas  some body will play the role whoever choose to do that.   but Crucifixion was offered to Jesus Christ,  it was upto Him  to obey or disobey.    that is not predestined.  yes Crucifixion is predestined.

                It was so about king Saul, "A king to Israel" is needed,  It is predestined.   It means God choosing Saul as the king was predestined.   Chance was given to him.  Its God;s choice.   you see.
               The Director of Great Drams gives the roles , to us. Its predestined.  But when you do not play the role according the Director's rules and expectations, and you take the role as a game of your own will, you are not supposed to play any more. in this Drama. Hahah God, the great Director choose another person  in that role.   but the previous person has to face the consequences of his decision, shame , guilty, ... cast off....

          Beware children, Life is not a  black and white paper, it is Life, a gift from God, life is from God and He is the sole authority. we have to play this game according to His rules, if you put your own rules.. its your own choice of tragic end.

Learn to be still

In this world of restlessness, and busiest schedule routine life, we hardly find 'time to breath.  oh yea time to breath also became a rare commodity just like to find pure water.  Once I attended a Refresher's Course for College Lecturers in Bangalore,  a speaker challenged us asking us do you have time to breath?  properly breathing?   He said we became either too busy or too lazy to breath properly and we are not giving the life giving Oxygen to our brain thereby we are behaving most awkwardly sometimes.   He said take time to breath, give time to breath, real breath in and breath out.  exercise sometimes make us to go on run and be habituated with this life giving process.
Hope  you understand what he meant. 
yes life has become so crushed and squeezed we often find very things we do we ought not to do. and we do not do what we ought to do. 
Here I am going to share a beautiful incident that happened  last month that is   August 2014 in Melbourne.

we were searching for a rented house near the office for my son and we got it. I was very happy  to be with him at this moment of shifting for I could help him in my own way.  Keeping things in proper boxes to shift them easily.   I was also happy because I am at his time to establish his rooms in orderly way thereby saving his time between job, church and home.
I kept all his important certificates like MS degree certificate, Citizen certificate and other important documents in a 
hard plastic folder and kept it till the last moment with me so that I can be charge of them  till I reach the new home.
 When I reached the new home I was too tired and slept for a few hours and started to set the things in its places ,  I was opening all  the bags and boxes and keeping the clothes in closet etc. Suddenly I remember I did not find the  Hard plastic pink folder of the important documents.  first I thought I must have kept them somewhere carefully and did not mind much.  But I wanted to see them once again before I retire for the night.  I searched in the known bags, but could not find. Early morning i searched and could not find. By evening I opened every bag and looked for them but did not find.
Now frantically I was searching every nook and corner of the house dishes, clothes, one by one suspected/unsuspected hidden places in the home. 
     "So at last I bursted out to my son telling him I am afraid I am not able to find  your documents any where. I I am really afraid whether we lost them. I searched every nook and corner of the bag and baggage." 
          " dont worry mom,we will find them. Take rest  we wont lost them"
The next day also I searched and told him that we lost them.
He got the gravity of the situation and he too searched everywhere but could not find.  we come to conclusion that we lost them or forgot them in one of the friend's car who helped us in shifting the things .
so he called those friends and they searched in their cars and confirmed that they were not with them. Fearing we left them in the lift or near the lift and they were thrown out at the dustbins,  he went back yard and looked out for them.   
He was so desperate and so patient all through this time  and at last he blurted out saying, " mom I told you not organize the things , many times but you did not stop , see what happened"  after a few seconds, he added, " I did a mistake by shifting the house when you are here, I should have done it before you come"     I
These words slapped me on my face. I could not lift up my face, gushes of emotional tears were drenching my soul, I could not say a single word, yes I did a wrong thing, but what I did was I did with a heart of a mother,  what happened now, all chaos and hurt and anxiety.  
I even could not sit on the only bed available to sit, as my heart was wrenching inside, I sat on the carpet squatted,
 ( you know my painful knees would not allow me to get up easily if once I chose to squatted on the floor.)  My son went out again in search of the folder,  I could no more cease my agony, I called upon the Lord , He is the very help in times of my need, " Lord  you know my intentions, they are of good thoughts but not of evil, I only tried to be a help to my son, look what a mess I created,  Oh Father help me ,let not any evil come upon my son due to my negligence, I am ready to be punished for my tresspasses  , you punish me but not my son,  I surrender all my life , even those dear things which I hold and which make me away from you,  I surrender to you once again, ..." 
 Thus I prayed and found unexplainable peace explainable touched my soul, and again I was led to pray by His Spirit, and I continued to pray,  Lord help my son or me to go to the place where those documents are there, I need your help Father."   Thus I finished , in seconds I saw my son entered into the room and me telling him  as if in a trance, " stretch your hand just once more and search if anything is there on the closet attic, just once more, oh yea only once more;'  

He said, " I searched there already .no it is not there,"but any way he went near the closet, I said again just once....
Remember  these words I did not know I would say, not contemplated before, I uttered just like that     
.. he went there pushed his hand a bit reluctantly  still saying that he was sure it wouldnt be there, but  
imagine his hand pulled out the folder .... I could not believe my own eyes, my emotions are all mixed up, tears of joy recompose. and astonishment.... a  sigh of great relief  OH was all that I could utter,  could not controle my emotions hide my face in my arms.. on my knees and sobbing with joy and relief.
The next question of astonishment was "mom who put it there"  the immediate answer was "who else it must have me" and you and your friend pushed the things on it and it must had went to the rear side of the attic, and I thought you could see who place as you are almost that height... still in trance and shock  and joy.
I remember now how Elizah pulled the axe from the river by throwing a branch of a tree, 2kings 6:1-7   we have wonderful God   His teachings are wonderful.   In the storms of this little life He would teach us to surrender and be still and depend on Him while doing even the daily chores  of ordinary life.  How beautiful is Thineways O Lord, they are bountiful and marvelous. 
Teach me and I will learn, cleanse me and I will be yours.
Teach me and I will learn , cleanse me and I will be yours.