The set up in my Father's home was completely different from my ammamma's home; Whenever my parents visit my home ,there is nothing much I need , but still the mummy's tasteful mutton curry was one of the items we waited for, among other items like clothes and other necessities which i can use in the kitchen.
My dad and mom used to come to my home for a week or a month,they coud not spend much time with me inmy home due to the responsibilities at home and in job. (((But my father used to have much longing to see me always, he has much hidden love for me allways, and he used to show it in different ways. most of all he longed to spend time with me. I feel ashamed now for i did not give much time to him due to many reasons, one out most thing was i was feeling self righteous and looked down at him as he was attending other group of Christians and forsake the group i attend. Such was the pride and foolishness i exercised many years, and i feel utterly ashamed of myself now for no use or rectification , however i repent now, for he is far away from all of us in heaven.
If only i could meet him there i would ask his pardon for all of my foolishness and rudeness towards him. In fact there are many more things i feel ashamed and repentance now. Especially my self righteousness, and my godliness made me to look down at other people and treat them unlikely.
Do i repeat the same thing even now? i should check my self)))
They used to cometo us just to spend time with my daughter, Happy, and son John.
My dad used to feel very proud to have his grand child in his lap.
In fact when Happy was born he was very much disappointed, as that was a girl again in our home of three girls. When the doctor Soubhagy lakshmi from Ghosha hospital, vizayanagaram announced that I gave birth to a girl baby , the face of my dad was changed with shadow of disappointment. and he said to my husband ," see again a girl"
The reply given by my husband filled joy on every face in that room. "Yes uncle, she is the God given gift for us"
We think of children so very much and expect love and affection from them in return. Life is so mixed with great changes in life. I often wonder why God make human relations so complicated, except the relation between husband and wife , all other relations would change. I admire the old couples always how they help one another and give support to one another, and live for one another.
Only when a Home really obey the God's instructions, like wife obeying husband and husband loving wife; such homes are the heavens on earth. The prayer that goes from that house brings great fruits of blessings to others.
Where there is pride and calculating mind of money, the house would be a hell to live in.
I am sure I have given such home to my children always, when they were with us.
I am sure I was hundred percent obedient to my husband in every matter, even though
I could not agree with him in every matter. But I always used to remember that Ideal woman in Proverbs 31 and strove to be like that woman in my life. Only eternity would reward me for what I have gone through.
