Undereducated? A challenge to younger generation !! Part .2

           

     " Oh yea, there's an adage, 'Age is older but the tastes are younger' -- I am really vexed with our father-in-law, he all ways demands something or the other, never satisfied with the food prepared, finds some flaw with each preparation, saying,'Salt is less, spices are not enough, the curry is not having enough savour'.. I am not able to cope up with this old man, I am really tired of him"---The first daughter-in-law in the Indian Joint family was complaining to the younger daughter-in-law about the OLDBOY in the home.

       "Yes, elder sister, I am really bewildered with something else with this old man, When I asked him " Uncle where is the news paper? He could not hear a word of mine, and pretends that I am not existed there; but when I was complaining  to your brother-in-law about his dad is behaving very awkward and insisting things to be done in his own way, which is not possible to me all ways,' he could hear it and answered me ..in his own style you know..!!?"--the younger was desperate.

      "Yes , Yes sister, you know , you know , I will tell you some other queer thing about him, she lowered her voice pulling the arm of the other woman to the verendah, she said," You know what happened this morning, our nieghbour, came to ask for a cup of sugar, and enquired our father-in-law, 'uncle , did you finish your lunch?, he looked at her blankly, and said, ' I don't remember child'---I was shocked, this man remembers the songs from the films of younger days, like,'MISSAMMA, and MALLESWARI' but cant remember whether he ate breakfast or not..!!!
I am really short of words, now, what to say !!" while she was speaking in great astonishment, the other one was staring at her with amazement.

       ----Let us check with this OLD BOY.. what is happening, here ..Why these young women were so surprised at him, the reasons are not only Lovelessness, but under education of themselves;  they never heard the words Gerontology ( The science of the Old age) or Geriatrics ( The science of the medical problems of the Old people) This knowledge is beyond their capacity to understand, because they never tried to learn new things in life or upgrade themselves in recent developments of Human Behavioural Sciences.

       Funny thing is the youth looking at the old generation, all ways think " Oh these old people are all ways old" On the other hand they think, absurdly, that they never become old...!!, they believe that they will be young all ways. This is a sort of illusion, delusion, and I must say its short of mental ability and hard heartedness of the younger generation.
  You may think that you are young and you never will become old, but its not the reality. Now you may be very good in athletics, and climb the staircase four at a time, and you can eat chicken, beef, and mutton in big quantity and digest and grow your muscles, BUT remember 'one day you will become old' whether you don't like or not. That is REALITY.

       in Ecclesiastes 12:3_5 Its written like this. " When your eye retina has thick membrane,making you not to visualize things things properly, (the nostrils lost its capability of smelling different things, as you grow, the only nose and ears are still growing in size, and when you look awkward, and surprisingly your stature is shrinking in length and becoming shorter and shorted day by day...) even the cuckoo's song disturbed your slumber in the night, ( when you are not able to step on the weighing machine without the help of a hand nearby, when your feet do not cooperate with you ) to walk from one room to the other room also your knees gave away and trembles, your beautiful black hair cut is going to white bushy type (or your hair line in front recedes back and become bald, When you walk like a grasshopper holding one pole or the other, having three legs...when the desire, longings are completely dead, and when you are detached from the nearby surroundings and once upon a dear close people too,  then, yea, then you will remember your grandpa, your dad, your mom, your old pastor, hey certainly you will remember if God forbids the loss of your memory !!!

  Shakespear in wrote in the Drama King Lear,  "Old age is for 'Prayer, Old Hymns, and Old stories"----We call it OLD School.
  Do you know why God has taken away the strength in Old age?--He is telling you, "so far you ran, worked and did all that you wanted to do, that is enough, now its the time,Give all the time you have to me."

     Why the old grand man sought for more salt , more spices, ..?

      There is reason for it,  as you grow old you will loose the capacity to smell the things, the nostril buds become blunt, so is with the buds on your tounge, even the saliva which is most essential to taste the food is generated less, the mouth become dry often, therfore when you cannot enjoy the smell of the food you will not know the taste of the food, as a result the even the appitite for food decrease. ( Just once your close your nostrils with your fingers and try to eat the apple you will think that you are eating grass..no taste)___ chilly , sweet, bitter, sour, salt spicy and other 7 tastes are lost to your tounge, you can not taste them, or differentiate them,  thereby you ask for a little more sweet or little more salt, in your food, fearing that the people are depriving the savoury of life from you.
 Well, what about the problem with the listening, which was complained by those two undereducated women ? In Old age it is common to get a listening problem which is medically known as Presbycusis,  It means, the person with this defect can not listen to the loud frequency of the sound, ( Higher Sound Frequency ) They just can not hear it. Lower Sound Frequency reaches their ear drum. It means when you speak slowly or softly, they can hear. So if you shout in their ears, and waste your energy , its useless.

        Now about the MEMORY POWER.  Every body has two types of Memory Power. 1. Long Term Memory ( Remembering the incidents of the childhood, and youthful days, very sharply, because they lived in it, they enjoyed it, they felt it)
2. Short Term Memory ( Remembering the incident that happened just a few minutes or days ago, they can not remember , like who visited them recently, or what breakfast they took that morning etc.. these are no more much importance to them, as it was before.)

     In Old age, people cannot remember the things happened a few days or a few minutes ago, that is their Short Term Memory is not that sharp. But the Long Term Memory is impeccable, undisturbed, here lies their wisdom, their valuable experience, their Life lessons from the trails and temptations they had gone through, they are printed on the soul, these are the things that come with us to the life after death, which will be shown on the Big Screen --if those were dirty and sinful not erased by the blood of Jesus-- you have to answer your CREATOR, that day.
    Not only this they remember the places and people( Recognizing Memory) but its very difficult for them to recollect their names (Recalling Memory)
     At this juncture I remember some Old Heroes who died in their old age, from the Holy Scriptures, The Bible. One of them is, Moses, Deuteronomy 34:7--9 verses, its written that he died in Moab, 6 verse, it mentions that he was buried, he lived 120 years, but his vision was intact, his energy was it was in his youthful days. ..About Joshua, he lived in between 1355--1245 B.C in Canaan, he lived for 110 years Joshua 24:29
Then Caleb, it means dog, very faithful, lived 85 years, but no traces of any old age, Joshua 14:11
They , even in their old age, very energetic, and powerful till the end. BUT even they could not escape the death, our Hero Moses did not have monument on his grave like some our petty leaders of spiritual, political, social world. People are building temples over the graves, monuments, and make pilgrimage to the burial ground to make a great fuss over the grave.
  Martin Luther, the great Reformer of Protestant Revolution, who stood alone for the truth of the Word of God, in his old age, because of the great stress from every side, and because of many other physical problems, he suffered a lot. He got MENIERE's disease( for some reason the membrane or a little bone in the ear slipped away, and suffers from deafness, which causes a great ringing sound within the ear called(TINNITUS) and leads to dizziness which is different from fainting called VERTIGO, and suffered a lot. He also got ulcer in the bowls, and indigestion, and stones in the kidney, arthritis, and gout and even lost the clarity of mind in his old age.
  But his faith in his saviour and in His blood, and belief that the Salvation is only by Faith not by works, was never unstable, His life was like a rock, and he stood on the Rock of Ages. He lived for 63 years(Nov10, 1483--  --Feb,18,1546), a short life, but he is in history of Christendom forever.
 In present generation, Billy Graham ( 96 years )even in his old age giving word of God through T.V, and by writing books, and interviews, programmes and films, and never forget about the serving of Lord Jesus Christ. --
When you die is immetarial, unavoidable, inevitable, but how you lived for Jesus is all that matter, in your old age. and after death.

"Learn to Respect the Old generation, get up from your seat and offer your seat to them in buses and in the church, give support to them, walk with them a few steps, offer a hand to them to lean upon, get something for them to taste, and bring a smile on their lips with your presence, a few minutes at least.Thus respect show respect  to them. and thereby respect yourself."--your dignity depends on your respect to others. Do not forget !!!! 

Sweet 60s....amazing age... a challenge to the young !! Part.1

             "Grandma, when  I eat food it falls on my shirt"  my grandson said wiping his curd filled lips on my saree apron. I said," Don't worry sometimes it happens to me too." I supported him in his agony.
            "Grandma, that little boy in the next door goes for toilet in his underwear itself," his face was all most wrinkled,and he pressed his little nose with his two fingers.
"Umm, even my mother is like that dear little one" remembering my 83 year old mom on bed.
                "Grandma, mommy is scolding me,saying" you little fellow you cry for every little thing. I said,' Yes my darling, now a days even I am crying the same way" with traces of tears in my eyes.
      "Grandma, on the other hand when I cry nobody bothers too" he complained, knowing well now u will have my full support.
I said, "yea dear little one, the same thing happens to me too."---
    Don't know what had happened, but we both laughed aloud when  I said so.

"Once youth--twice childhood."--Shakespeare
         Old age would not come slowly like a snail.It comes suddenly like tornado, once we are gripped in it we have to washed off as it takes us out and out.

       But one is for sure. How you take care of the old parents, old pastors, old teachers is all that matter. Its the touchstone of your character.

           Even the cruellest tiger knew how to take care of its cubs, its not a great task for any one. But how you are taking care of your parents who are 30 or 40 years older to you?
        You wipe the mouths of your children, we clean them, you even dress them properly, and you help them to walk by giving your hand as a support. but helping an OLDBOY, you find it disgusting, there lies your real character.

        You may say, "Oh no, I don't want to die like this old rag on the bed." " I don't want to depend on any one in my old age" --- are you determining and planning your future?        Oh no, you do not know your future. you cannot do any thing about your old age ailments.
    you have to face them .. certainly.

         What happens in the future you will never know. But you know that you never desire for a death in your youth or in your mid adulthood, you are strong, energetic and lively. Do you think you will be like this till the end ? I know no one wants to die when they are young and strong, but do you know that if we do not want to die in youth we certainly need to go through the old age ??

 Because you are young--- you can jump the stairs four steps at a time may be, but you cannot escape the old age, and then  ? Then you can not take one step even, you need to get the support of something and some one.
Do you think you can escape this old age??
At that moment you will remember who had gone through this life stage, and how you showed your restlessness, your impatience and your disgust comments.
But the time is over.. you can not take back step in life.

71 Psalm ... read it completely... line by line This is the prayer song of an old man. The lamentation of an old man. But he ended that lamentation with a prayer, with a hope, with  faith. " Lord , I beseech you, I am at your feet, ..deliver me, rescue me, save me...my fortress, my Lord, Do not leave me in my old age, When I became weak, oh, please do not forsake me." his prayer is a prayer we should learn when we are still young and bold.

Once the body was healthy, robust, strong, but he will become weak , lean and thin, the spirit is strong, but the frame of the bones which has had the spirit is weak. Then you need to help this LITTLE OLD MAN/WOMAN
You have to treat that big man as a little boy. you have feed him, wipe his mouth carefully, change his diapers, dress him well,(dignified way,as he used to be, do not through him in a piece of rags, whatever be the reason.)
comb his hair (in a way he likes, not the way you feel comfortable with your time)----This Big boy feels ashamed to get help from you , surely, when you take him on your arm ... his spirit cries aloud in his heart. Can you hear that ?---His spirit laments because its not the way he lived all these years, but now he is helpless, if you treat him improper way... The blood of Abel cried to the Lord, so is the Spirit of this Old Big Boy cries to the Lord. Remember.

In 71 Psalm the Psalmist remembered the disgusting words addressed to him, the shame he faced because of his inability to do things fast cute and tidy, he remembered the poophs poophs for the way he dressed up, he remembers the mocking when he could eat properly , and he prays, 10 verse, "Lord let not the enemies talk about me, Please, Lord"

Dear friends do not become an enemy to the old person, just because he could not retort back do not treat him as you like. That would be a curse on you. You do not know how your end would be. The psalmist knew that some people want him to die soon, they want to get rid of him soon, by throwing him in an old age home or out of the house, so he prays, "Lord, my enemies are trying to trap me, avoid me, they conspire against me...verse 10

Are you the one who is contemplating the Old age home for your dear parent? Are you calculating the expenses you have to bore for the Hospital in his old age? Are you the one who wants to shun of the burden of taking care of your old mother and old father?
Beware, what you sow you will reap.

Are you saying, '' This old rag, I cant serve him, I do not know when I will get rid of him?"  If your mother or father is a praying many, do not forget he or she is king or queen, in the sight of God, and His angels will go and inform Him of their tears and the reason for those tears. Its true. Read. Ecc 10:20

We are living in a selfish world, The word of God says, Do not neglect the mother, the one who bore you for 9 months, who shared her blood to you, who brought up you with all her might, if you are negligent in her old age, God will not forgive, the word of God says, Especially when she is old do not be negligent of her needs. Don't close your eyes on pretext of your busy schedule to spare a few minutes to talk to her , to make her laugh with some jokes... Don't do that ever. Or dont cheat yourself that she is not really old, and she doesnt need your time !!! Mother needs her children all ways, especially in her old age. She sent you to your chosen places because she doesn't want to be hurdle for your bright future. No mother wants her children leave her alone. Understand her sacrifice. When I say mother it includes father too. They need you so much and very much especially if they are without their spouse.
Proverbs 23:22--read , read.!!
Last week something happened in PREMALAYAM ( Old age home ) In our little town, It was published in news paper.
There is an old woman who sits in the verndah of the old age home, she refuses to go in side or eat inside. she is sitting a chair and waiting for her son, saying, " No, do not ask me to come inside, my son told me he would come and take me, till he comes , he asked me to stay here. He will certainly come and fetch me back to our home"---Poor mother she doesnt know that her son wantonly dropped her to get rid of her and went away.  Poor mother she never suspected that her end days would be in an old age home.  The stories of each woman in the Old age home is a pathetic ones. God willing I will write those stories too in these series, in future.

Psalms 74:24  Dont be an enemy to the Old people. It would be a great curse on you. Dont you ever dare to think that old age would not come to you. Everybody has to go to that way, and that is the destiny of life.
Death in youth would be horrible and painful, Death in old age would be easy and sweet.  Better to die in old age, What do you say?
Psalms 71:22 This old man in this psalm praises God, and he was getting read to the end of life. He says, I too will play the musical instruments, and I will sing the songs of praise.
The road is in front of us, we have to walk in that road, no escape, dont think the church is only for the youth/adults, the programmes are only for them, invent and invite the Elder people in your church , give special attention to them, treat them lovelingly, the other day my mom was objecting me when I was changing her diapers, I said, "mom, I do this even to my grandchildren, you are like one of them. yes they are little children.
 If they cry inwardly its not good for us.
Welcome them,
 Listen to them, Comfort them, and do not insult them, and don't be merciless, useless, cruel person.

" I am like a strange object to many, but you are the strong fortress to me" Psalms 71:7

( This article I wrote to our St. Stephen Lutheran Church monthly magazine, in Telugu language)

Cheaters, Magic preachers ( Part 1)

       
                            Sorry this is not beautiful story, . The name of the blog is A Beautiful story, that is all, this article I wrote with much agony in my heart, the Bible the Word of God is taken into bondage, ministers are no more ministers but became money mongers, they are playing fiddle to get more coins, they act as the dramatists, yet times and make fun of Jesus Christ, yesterday I attended a meeting where the preacher spoke about the chicken curry and fish curry for about 15 minutes, they are not conscious of the Time of God, they are cheating the audience and themselves, please pray for the Christianity, its not preparing for the Lord's coming but for its own Dooms day. Open your eyes my friends and pray.

                     The ministry of God is taking new trends now a days. I see a strange spirit took over the people and the leaders. Every where the Bible is being preached, its literally taking place in every hook and nook of the world. There are so many "signs" of God exhibited in the universe. Like the earthquakes, famines, floods, wars , etc etc. These had been there even before, soon after the atonement of Jesus, the apostles then were very cautious of His coming back.
But only those little bunch of people were aware of His words, and His promise of coming back.
So Jesus did not come then.

              Now one incident in one remote place of the world reaches the whole world within a few seconds. Its because of the media, TV , Newspaper, Whatsapp etc. We not only hear but actually witnessing everything that happens in the world.  This is what Jesus meant when He said about the end days. Every one will know about everything that happens in the world. Therefore we need to be alert and wait for the end.

         People became very very brave, they call their foolish self will as the faith in God, they call their own plans as the leading of God, they are planning, plotting and scheming different methods of winning people and their resources saying it is the ministry of God.

            There are prayer meetings hundreds of those, fasting prayers, feasting prayers; ministers are too busy to know the mind of God. They spend so much of time on their knees, but only to contemplate the ' METHODS '  of winning people to empty their pockets in better way than the other ministers.

       They read the Bible not to seek the mind of God for their ministry and for their lives, but to present the word of God in attractive way, may be power point, or dramas, or through skits or special musical concerts.
       
          Those humble men of God who waited upon the Lord saying " Move men through God by prayer alone" are no more. The christians just cannot wait, there is no patience to wait upon the Lord. Everything should be done then and there and quickly.  No time to wait one extra minute.

             The thought comes, plan comes, scheme comes, and it would be presented.
And to make it possible they beg , they dance, they act, they prostrate in front of the congregation( not in front of God) to earn the hard earned coins and currency of the congregation.

             There are hundreds of ".....meetings"  I do not know what sort of meetings are these, are they Revival meetings? or prayer meetings? nah they call them some times Healing meetings, or festival of Jesus or some funny names but never seek the glory of God.

       There is strange shoutings on the dais, the speaker jumps from one corner of the stage to another like an ape, and comb his hair with his five fingers frequently, and shouts at the congregation just like Christie Angel the magician, " Are you ready" and the congregation is supposed to shout with equal fervor "Yes" -For what they are ready neigther the speaker or the congregation do know. Its just a catchy word.

Why all this drama of Christian life?
Where are those  humble, tearful, preaching of sacrificial speakers?

                Because they told us" Expect great things from God and attempt great things for God" These mimicry folks tell the congregation that they are expecting to buy a big van, big airplane or big land and force the congregation to say loudly " Amen" if they do not say they roar again with stern voice "Amen?" suggesting the audience again to shout it after him.
                  I am writing this article to tell my friends open your eyes and do not be cheated by these gullible faithless workers. The Spirit of God would teach you whom to follow and whom not to follow. Open your eyes and pray for the dooms days is very near. Take up the yoke of Jesus, for it is light, He teaches you His gentleness and meekness. Preach it on the streets dear folks, deliver the people from these deceitful preachers.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 13

 We used to give  much importance to Sunday, as it is Lord's Day, I used to give Sunday only for prayer, Bible reading, ,church going,  hospital visiting, tracts giving and out reach work and nothing else. All exams and interviews were banned, no shopping, no extra cooking, no entertainment , not even news paper reading. Those were the days I was very particular of pharisee. ways. But God was kind enough to respect my innocent obedience to the laws of the Sabbath. So He helped me not to fall into deep sin of self immolation, but rescued me from unnecessary bondage.

                  For this He has taken a rout of miracles in my life. I do not know even now whether I did right or wrong, but I know God respects them who respects Him. in bygone years I with my research of Sabbath understood that Jesus hasn't made man for the Sabbath but He made Sabbath for man. So I am no more under that bondage. But still I feel awe to remember how God in His mercy paved the path in the red sea of my life.

               In this episode you will listen a wonderful miraculous astonishing event that occurred in my life. How God intervened into my life and helped me to choose right jobin which I faithfully worked for 35 years.. .Listen and be blessed.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 12

  In t  In this episode you will listen how the Lord Jesus led me  slowly to do His will in my life. First He taught me to know His will, His mind, His plan for my life, what job I have to choose,and how things are arranged by the Saviour in a beautiful manner. You will see how God helped me to get rid of unnecessary jobs in my life, and how He helped me to choose the best job according to my aptitude.
   I also spoke about my baptism , it was a strange event in my life, not only He led me with His promise, but some strange incident happened on that day to show us how God plans everything in our life and how he brings that plan to happen in our lives, only if we allow Him to do so.  Do not miss this episode to listen.
    Because whenever I recapture those events in my mind, I will be recharged spiritually and become more thankful to God and understand His love for me. I am sure you will be blessed too. his episode you will listen how the Lord Jesus led me  slowly to do His will in my life. First He taught me to know His will, His mind, His plan for my life, what job I have to choose,and how things are arranged by the Saviour in a beautiful manner. You will see how God helped me to get rid of unnecessary jobs in my life, and how He helped me to choose the best job according to my aptitude.

   I also spoke about my baptism , it was a strange event in my life, not only He led me with His promise, but some strange incident happened on that day to show us how God plans everything in our life and how he brings that plan to happen in our lives, only if we allow Him to do so.  Do not miss this episode to listen.

    Because whenever I recapture those events in my mind, I will be recharged spiritually and become more thankful to God and understand His love for me. I am sure you will be blessed too. 

OKADIVYA EPISODE 12

  In this episode you will listen how the Lord Jesus led me  slowly to do His will in my life. First He taught me to know His will, His mind, His plan for my life, what job I have to choose,and how things are arranged by the Saviour in a beautiful manner. You will see how God helped me to get rid of unnecessary jobs in my life, and how He helped me to choose the best job according to my aptitude.

   I also spoke about my baptism , it was a strange event in my life, not only He led me with His promise, but some strange incident happened on that day to show us how God plans everything in our life and how he brings that plan to happen in our lives, only if we allow Him to do so.  Do not miss this episode to listen.

    Because whenever I recapture those events in my mind, I will be recharged spiritually and become more thankful to God and understand His love for me. I am sure you will be blessed too. 

OKADIVYA EPISODE 11

   In this episode I spoke about how God protected me from the murderer  who attacked me with his GUPTHI a  sharp long sword  used in the battles. It was a miracle I could escape the wrath of the man. God send His angels and protected me ,

          I lodged the complaint in the Matunga Police station, Koliwada.They instructed me that I should be available to give a witness in the court when the summons come. 

              I reached home in Vizag, God has given us work, and we must work and earn to live. This principle is in my blood, at this juncture God taught me how to do His will, How to know His mind , His plan for my life. What job I should do and what higher studies I should and should not do.          

          Do not be surprised, God speaks to us, He is interested even in small things of our tiny lives. He will reveal His mind, plan for our future if only we ASK Him and SEEK Him,  and KNOCK His door to talk to HIm.. Try my dear friends, I urge you try and see how He talks to you,

OKADIVYA EPISODE 10

   This episode is a thriller,  A  thriller story, in my life. I can called it as an encounter with the murderer.   It was the last effort of the devil to finish me in Bombay, when I was getting training as an Air Hostess in Air India International Airlines. Santacruz, Bombay.

                 

 I spoke about the word Luck, a goddess, of evil mind.  Instead of giving glory to God some people give glory to this goddess.  God is the Creator and the only One to whom all the glory , honour, and power should be attributed. His glory should not be given to the Luck or to the Money.

                  This is what happened in my life. I spoke of God's wonderful protection under His mighty wings when a man who killed an old manager of Rupam Theater attempted to snatched my gold chain and tried to kill me on the public road.

Listen and see the Purpose of God in our lives... and praise Him.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 9

  In this episode I spoke about how the promise God has given me  before I went for the job of Air Hostess In Air India, an International Airlines,  Santacruz, Bombay. The promise was  Psalms 139:8  that "God will take care of me when I am in the sky or even in the depths of the sheol"---was full filled literally in that place. I faced many problems as an young girl in strange city, but I experienced the Presence of God at every step. I found the secret of praying alone and unburden all my crushing problems of an young girl. The Devil wanted to finish me either spiritually or physically, but The Promise of God was trustworthy and it sustained me. Listen carefully and see the hand of God how beautifully He can protect every young girl when she is out in this wicked world.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 9

  In this episode I spoke about how the promise God has given me  before I went for the job of Air Hostess In Air India, an International Airlines,  Santacruz, Bombay. The promise was  Psalms 139:8  that "God will take care of me when I am in the sky or even in the depths of the sheol"---was full filled literally in that place. I faced many problems as an young girl in strange city, but I experienced the Presence of God at every step. I found the secret of praying alone and unburden all my crushing problems of an young girl. The Devil wanted to finish me either spiritually or physically, but The Promise of God was trustworthy and it sustained me. Listen carefully and see the hand of God how beautifully He can protect every young girl when she is out in this wicked world.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 8

   When man's word contradicts God's word we have to obey God's word alone. is the rule we have to follow God;s word alone.  --That is the guideline which helped me to go through a great process of temptation to become rich, worldly and famous.  God helps us what to choose what not to choose. It look like that I was giving so much importance to simple test which is nothing to give importance at all. But that little test was so important for me at that moment. It decided my future which I could not foresee before. I could never, ofcourse. But sees my future and He knew what was the best for me and it was his way of diverting my life for better choice. You will just astonish to listen to this episode, after you finished it you will know how wonderfully He deals in simple lives like us too.

This should be dated 20July 2015--journey mercies

             This blog should be dated as 20th July 2015, but I am posting it today, as I am a bit lazy to pen down this beautiful incident in my life; though the Lord has given me an opportunity to share it in small cottage Bible study group in USA and also in English service in India and with many friends who rejoiced to hear it and praise God for it along with me.

To my dear blog friends, I write this now to rejoice with me.

20/7/2015

" I had to get ready to travel back to India, Its hardly one week more, my knees are so painful, at home and in certain shopping malls I find myself comfortable and quiet energetic to do things all by own.  But to think of that long, tedious journey I have to make, in solid 24 hours of flying and yet another 8 hours or so to reach home from Airport to Eluru makes me really shivering in knees!!!

Oh my age, factor, going to complete 63 years this August. Is yet another factor to contemplate pitifully about myself, no companion to share my aches and agonies is yet another thing to feel pity about myself. 

People like me may look very brave and courageous and dashing outwardly but who knows my inward feelings and vulnerability of my physique weaklings?

I looked down at my weak feet, now a days a new problem raised,  not only  knees , strangely enough the top of the feet became so painful, and the length of knees down to feet becoming numb and heavy.  Hey I lost confidence in my legs all together, oh yea, I pray now and then, "Oh lord make my feet as hind's feet" along with the great Psalmist.  And chuckle in myself, imagining me jumping like a deer, though I could do it really in my dreams, now a days.

Oh my this long journey,  of course I came to USA , the thing was the grand children were my inspiration, I wanted to see them desperately so that zeal made me to come to use, now going back home, to India, what is there ? Nothing attractive as much as my grandchildren here!! So the return journey became as a great problem, heavy issue, and a thing I have to do it with much difficulty inevitably.  First of all why I came here... it’s too presumptuous act, I am comfortable in India, in my own bed, in my own sweet little home, in my own circle of friends, in my own kitchen ... now I came here just to see and spend time with my grandchildren, and I see they too become very much busy just as anyone in USA.  Though we has had wonderful moments together, we enjoyed a lot together, still going back home leaving them makes my heart crushing beyond to describe. 

oh any way, I have to take up this great journey all alone , wondered how my knees would take this long journey, hope I wouldn't slip down, and fall and hit myself, hope I won’t get into any accidents, or land up in unknown spheres of life with strangers, hope this strange variations of the weather would hurt me and make me weak, as it was in last time, ( after the three months stay in Australia, from the coldest climate to the tropical weather in India , I suffered a lot with lung infection, hope that would not repeat this time)

These and many other unknown, unspoken, unimaginable thoughts struck me in awe of despair for a while. And the clouds of these thoughts were veiling me now and then, though I did not really feel that I was entertain these thoughts so fondly for my own sake. 

Until the day the Lord comfortably took me into His arms and told me something, by  fondly stroking my hair on my head and smiled at me while telling that He would do all that He likes to do with me.

Now I will tell you what happened then,   I was having these thoughts, which I really did not like to entertain as a child of His, but human mind plays tricks and those thoughts were there, now and then.   But that night I had a vivid dream.  A very clear cut dream, the dream repeating itself all most all the night. 

I heard a strong single voice whispering into my ears, "Read 121 Psalm"    What? This word was telling me not once but thrice....but it look like I was hearing it all through the night.

So the first thing I did that morning was opening my Bible and turn to the page where the 121 Psalm jumping into my eyes.

The Telugu version was so sweet, it’s my mother tongue and the God's word in Telugu is as sweet as honey to me.  But here for this blog I write in English, as soon as I saw the Psalm I knew this is very familiar psalm, most of the time whenever we ask a pastor to pray for us about our journeys or travelling, they pick up this psalm and read and pray for us, and we too do the same, because this psalm is a comfort for the travellers. 

But today this psalm has special purpose to me, because God told me to read it in my dream, so this is a special psalm to ME alone. 

              1. I lift up my eyes the hills.......( my hill is my journey of  20 hours +8 hours+lonely journey)  from where does my help come?

              2. My help comes from the LORD who made heaven and earth.  ( wah,  what, I have a problem of hill size, but here is a God who made heaven with millions of stars and an earth with millions of hills, He is going to help me, the help comes from Him,  what is this little hill of mine to Him... I am a fool to think I have to climb this little hill and feel fearful of it, oh my, my help is from the One who created a number of hills other than this.)

              3. He will not let your foot be moved ( oh my poor feet, how much I worry about the feeble feet, that I may slip down and shiver in walking or may fall down...!!! He says He will not let it slip down... In Telugu it’s written that He will not let it slip down...  This is His promise for my weak feet...wonderful)   Then He says, He who keeps you will not slumber (It means, He will have His eyes on me every second I am in or out, He, from Heaven look down at my moments or movements, while I travel and while I walk or while I move, all through...!! wonderful, isn't it?)

              4. Behold, he who keeps Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. (Wonderful, He who keeps Israel!! Israel was Jacob, indeed, he was cheater and useless fella but he got on his knees and prayed vehemently on his knees, and God spoke to him and gave him the name Israel... Genesis 32:22-32    24th verse Jacob was left alone; Jacob said, ' I will not let thee go, except thou bless me'--Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel'--     wow that is what God expects from us, not depending 

Upon our own strength or upon the help of others, but, just leaning upon Him.  Young people do not find this need in their lives, because they are strong, energetic and confident in their walk and a spring in their heels, but for us who are + 60s at every step of our life we need His help, how beautiful it is, indeed!!!

Jacob prayed for help, he was no more dependent on his strength or his cunning wisdom, he came to a point where he was lonely, desperate and depend on only God.  There God named Jacob as Israel, that 

God is not going to sleep or slumber but take charge over me, Therefore I gird up myself much more to pray for my safe journey, as I do not have confidence in me but in God alone.

               5, The Lord watches over you- the Lord is your 'shade ‘at your right hand.

( oh , He will be beside me,  he will stick to me, he is my shade and my help on my right side,  when the blazing sun heat touches my topless head, and my feeble body, when there is none to speak beside me He is my friend  and companion on my right side. In Telugu language it is more beautifully described as 'needa, ' we have a saying like 'thodu needa' means a companion and shadow who would follow us all the time. 

So this verse solaced me very much. 

                  6. The sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.

(This sentence affirmed my thoughts of His protection that the sun or the moon with its scorching heat or sever cold will not harm me because He promised me He would be my 'thodu needa" companion and shadow--

                  7. The Lord will keep you from all harm- he will watch over your life.

( What an assurance of protection, when God Himself is going to watch over my life and keep me from all harm.. my journey from Airport to home also will be in His hands, what a mighty God we have!!)

                  8. The last verse goes like this –The Lord will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore. ---What an assurance, is it not the special promise for me for my journey? What else I need now… the Lord God spoke to me exactly what I need, and that morning was so beautiful and I need to share it with someone…

        Hey there came my little grandson, Jayden as usual early in the morning to greet me just like that little pure and white Edelweiss, previously I wrote about him comparing with this beautiful flower and the song from Sound of Music.

So there he was in my lap expecting something to hear from me.

            So I told him, ‘Jayden, you know I have to leave you and your sister Jessica and go back to India, to my home. I spent happy days with you both here, but as I need to go home to look after my taxes, and other TV programmes, I am leaving you soon and go. But you know I am getting older and older and my knees are so painful, and I am scared to travel  alone. But last night Jesus told me that He is giving me a promise that is 121 psalm, I will explain to you what is in it. Is it ok for you?  By this time my granddaughter Jessica also joined us.

“Yes, ammamma, tell me what Jesus told you.”

                  I was explaining to him verse by verse, and he was listening to me intently, but when we came to the 5^th verse, he asked me what shadow...is? As I told him that Jesus will be with me just as a shadow just on my right side. Because in my Telugu Bible it’s written as Needa.

                  He asked me, “What is ‘shadow”?  I told him it’s the black image that follows you just beside you when you are walking in the sun.  Jessica is more curious about this, she asked me what this image, why it follows us is?’ I was more exited to explain to these two little children, so further I went to tell them, ‘You know when you are in the sun the hot light of sun will fall on you and gives you a shadow just beside you, you know my mom used to tell me that I should learn to have friends like evening shadow, and friendship should not be like morning shadow.”

“What does it mean? Morning shadow, and evening shadow’? 

                       “It means, you see when you stand in the sun in the morning time the shadow taller but as the time goes by it will decrease and disappear by mid afternoon, so my mom used to tell me that I should make friendship should be like evening shadow, which would start from mid afternoon and increase slowly and slowly and increase in length as time goes by.  So should be our friendship it should be started slowly and increase as the days go by.

                           Both are listening to me keenly and Jayden asked me another question, “Ammamma, Jesus will be with you as shadow on your right side, when you are in the sun, what about in the night? Where he would be?”

               I just loved this little face, both of them are looking at me with inquiring eyes... then I answered them as the Lord led me , ‘Well , when it is night time, the shadow will not be seen but it will come inside me and stay with me, so Jesus will be taking me along in the night time.”

                    I knew the answer now, when my end days come, when I do not have the sun in my life any more, when my days become dark and lonelier, the Lord Himself will be in me…this answer of mine comforted me much more than them. I could still envisage their sweet shining face with bright little eyes while I was talking to them. Bless them!!

                  Sharing the word of God with the little children would boost us and help us to look into the word of God in different perspective.

                        But my daughter confronted me saying its shade not shadow. Then I googled it, and found the meaning of the both words is the same, and the shade would not move, but shadow would move with us.  That too that is on my right side means it’s exactly shadow only. The 6^th verse affirms about the hot sun is there. And my Telugu Bible says its shadow, and I need shadow come with me in my journey rather than the shade.

                         
                      The Lord helped me to share this little bit of good news in a cottage prayer Bible study group. And everybody prayed for my safe journey and send me off.

This sweet story, if it is ended here, there is no thrill. I will tell you how our wonderful God gives signs of His presence at once to assure us what He meant by giving His promises.

                     I sat in the flight, two seats beside me were vacant, and it was four seat area. One young boy sat at the end of the area on fourth seat. People are coming and occupying the seats, the flight took off, to fly. I just glanced at my side seats, the boy at the end of the row also was not there, and I thought he would come back, maybe he went to meet his friends.  One hour passed, but the boy did not come back. So though I bought one seat I have four seat to relax.  I lied down and stretched myself very comfortably. Thus making my aching feet more comfortably.  And in the middle of the journey I just had walk from one end of the flight to the other end there were no vacant seats like I had. So I knew this is God’s doing and it is wonderful in His sight !!!

OKADIVYA EPISODE 7

This episode is  about the training I had as Air Hostess in  Air India International Airlines, I tried to explain all the details of that training, and also how I was tested in it. Especially when certain things tested my faith In Christ , I had to take a decision, and take about turn in life.   Taking decision , a right decision at right time is possible only by the grace of God, because He knew about past , present and FUTURE, when we seek His wisdom He will give guidance in our lives what to do and what not to do. Because He is the All Powerful God, He will give us right direction to take, Once we learn of Him in this way, we will be safe in His arms. The rest of life will be in His protection. ----About this song CHUDUMU EE KHSANAME  is the song I learned in Bombay, during my trails of faith and decision making, Looking unto the Cross sustained me and helped me to go through the trail of faith . the path of faith is lonely but when we look at the Cross it would sustain us and give us victory.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 6

This song was a challenge to me during my training period  as Air Hostess. I learned it there , and I used to sing this song in my trails and tests, over a period of one year, as an young girl of 22 years.   The song was my inspiration, my helpline of my sustain to take a greatest decision in my life. It was the beginning of taking decisions in my life,  so when God guided me to take life important decisions, I know He would be there to choose the right one. Because of His love on the CROSS, Because He shed HIS BLOOD to save me.  Who will give his blood , to the last drop of it, to save me?  Only Jesus Christ. NO ONE ELSE  !!!

This is the 6th episode in my life story,  yes , I have a story to share with every one, God is so good to give me a life story to share publicly.   Here in this episode I explained the process of training, as Air Hostess in Air India International Air Lines,  I tried to give the details of my stay in Santacruz In Bombay , my classes, my tests, my uniform, my TEST of my Faithfulness to God's call.   In my life there have been many indicidents to do His WILL .  God has been so kind and compassionate to help me to go through , he taught me how I should conduct myself, in the times of tests and temptations.  . 

OKADIVYA EPISODE 5

This episode is about the desire to win the soul of my dear daddy, my love for him, my longing to serve God;  and also in this episode I explained about the incident of how I was selected as Air Hostess in Air India International Air Lines in 1975   It was a long story, but beautifully woven with the pearls of His promises and with golden threads of His wooing love for me.  I enjoyed His love every minute since I knew His wonderful name, Jesus Christ.  I feel sorry for those people who could not utter His name, the powerful name who can give us His peace beyond the human understanding.   Try Him once and you will know what is God's love in life.  I love Him because He loved me first. I want to be with Him because He showed His bountiful mercies in my life. I want to walk with Him because at the end, I have to see Him any way.  oh what joy would be mine to meet my saviour when I leave this earthly shore to see Him face to face !!!!

OKADIVYA EPISODE 5

There wont be any incident as accident in the walk with God, every incident is in my life is an appointment with God.   I was selected as Air hostess, in Air India in 1975 ... But there was a test to my faith, and God helped me to keep my faith in Him.  I tasted His love and His care all through the life ... wherever I have been ... all these years.  

OKADIVYA EPISODE 4

This is about God's love in our heart, how it reaches us, cleanses us, and makes us to serve Him in grateful heart and love for Him. It is strange how His loving Power works in our lives and makes us to reach others to help them to know this Loving Saviour of our souls. This walk with Jesus Christ is something you cannot explain to others, because it makes you to touch others , their souls, and lead them to the loving bosom of Christ.  Many intelligent people do not have this narrow and straight path, they are perishing in their own chosen paths, is it not our duty calls us to reach others with His love? you want to love them and serve them, the path the Lord showed us.. cannot be ignored...at any cost.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 3

The ways of God are strange, how He chooses people , when He chooses people, Why He chooses people is a mystery. He works in our lives, because He loves us and wants us to be His children. He gives a work for us. He uses dreams, people, circumstances from the minute we were born on this planet. He pleads us to His cross until we obey Him.  and serve Him. In this third episode I spoke about the dreams which sustained me, which guided me, which answered me in my confusion states.   God is All Mighty God and He talks to us ... Listen to Him.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 2

This is the second episode of my TV programe about my life story.  I brought many incidents in my life how God answered me and guided me to live a new life in Him.  It was the starting of my New Birth in Jesus. I am still amazed how God answeres our prayers.  All that we need to do is ,Ask  and Believe  and Receive from Him. Its so wonderful.. this life would be just wonderful to you and me if only talk to Him in every little incident.  Try my friends.

OKADIVYA EPISODE 1

Old and present friends ... life stories in short (Part 3)

        Sweet smiles on her face for every patient that comes to her clinic, she comforts them with her skillful physician hand. There on the wall   a poster explaining that Jesus is the only Healer and Comforter of everyone.    There were New Testaments available to take away in OP for the patients.  She is slim and fair, tall, and in Venkatagiri starched handloom sarees, with short leaves and diamond bangles twinkling now and then, just as her smiles on her face. 

    When she got married she did not know the Lord Jesus christ, did not know how to pray. She loved and married a christian doctor who is a Pediatrician, then she learned to love the Lord, pray, listen to the Word of God and read. 

    Her parents live just 60kms afar, in a nearby city. Every week end she visits them along with her two little kids, it was 2000 August, she met a major car accident her two boys aged 5 and 6 were killed on the spot, she escaped with deep injuries. 
  Story did not end there, she recovered later, physically, courageous,  and started her life, again, got pregnant, this time her baby is aflicted with autism, furocious, unctrollable, again second pregnancy got a girl baby, a little too childish to her age. 

    Life goes on, but I see the beautiful mother in her, there are many problems in life in and out, never she is disturbed. Prays and submits her life to God. She loves her children, especially her autistic boy, works for him day and night, works for him , made him a champion of swimming, got some state level awards.

For some the life is bed of roses, the thorns are invisible, but for some life is bed of thorns.. still the oozing blood could not disturb them they live like the roses on the thorns. What we learn and what we do not learn from them left to the learning heart of people. Those who go deep into their lives, those who have a desire to learn from other lives have this wisdom awaits to grab it. 
  Life seems to be good for some one not so good for someone, bad for some one and worst to some one... still Life this life given by God is a gift.. only His name and His blood gives us to forebear everything in it. God bless these dear friend of mine. Whisper a prayer for her. You will fall in love with these wonderful people, I thank God for He has given me such beautiful friends in my life who trust you and still a blessing to others in spite of the terrible things that happen in their lives. I question myself what faith I have ?What am I in comparison to their love , faith, or devotion to YOu Lord. They are tested and pruned in the fire of life, still shining as the stars on this earth, the rarest phenomenon of the creation of God.



     

     

My old friends.. and the lives (Part 2)

       There she was cool and quet beautiful , tall and well dressed up with good make up , kajal lipstick, I introduced myself saying " I am Leela, are you Dr. Nirmala?"  "Yes I am Grace Nirmala "said she with a grim face. I wondered, and thought, she must be a little
 above our range of friends, I smiled and went away from her.  She was supposed to take a class for us , we went to an International Huggai Seminar in Hyderabad.

  We were given very good accommodation, and food in good hotel. We had nice time together , that was the last but one day of the seminar.  She was supposed to spek in the after noon session, we all sat for lunch, the seat beside me was vacant, I saw her coming towards me and sitting beside me.

     As usual the mates at the dinner hesitated to speak to this posh lady, but I started some casual conversation with her, every one left the table but we both were still digging into our plates, there was still more time to go to rooms and refresh and come back to the class.

     I asked about her, she told me that she is a gynecologist ,  When I asked her about her family she had a very sad story to tell me.
That brought us together so close , so knitted together and made us friends forever.
We love each other from the core of our hearts, though she is the most famous doctor she is the most humble friend I have ever, all ways find time to talk to me and exchange certain inner life issues with each other.

      I visualized her story, in my mind, I like to write it here as I have it in my mind according to her version of the incidents happened in her life. I will try to put it here as coolly as possible.

     "They were on holiday, went to beach to relax and enjoy the cool breez in the evening, After relaxing for some time on the white dunes of the sand, her only son and her husband thought it would be more funny if they could swim in the waters for a while. She relaxed more on the sand leaning back and looking at them as they splashing the water on one another.  She praised God for such wonderful loving husband and the son, 'its His grace' she reflected ... the good old days so far.

        Suddenly there was some horrible shouts at the beach  people running toward the waters, there she saw her husband and son were being washed off the shore further, they were breathless, shouting for help lifting up their hands, 'help and help'   some men tried to jump into the water and tried to help them but the whirlpool sucked them at once.  People and she waited for an hour for them to emerge from the water, but no signs of them. Later in the late night their dead bodies washed to the shore  somewhere else.

She could not remember what happened then, not even a thing, she was in shock.. nothing look real, somebody escorted her to the hotel they lodged, somebody called her relatives, somebody put her back to home.

One minute and everything changed, it happened long back still the story is vivid in front of her eyes, she has not much to share about this, the voice quivers still, and the beautiful eyes has their traces of water... which were hidden back under the black kajal.

She is known for her compassionate service in her town, she worked for  patients, the cases which could not be dealt with also she did successfully because of her prayer life.  Lives alone in a big house, I thought of spending some days with her asked  her for a paying guest facility anywhere else. she said, 'how could it be Leela , you have to come and stay with me' that is all. "
Though we met three years back the emails, phones, and other things go regularly. Hardly I spent 5 or 6 hours with her in Hyderabad, but the love of God implanted an indelible print in our lives.  We both knew we are going to be good friends for life. and that is true.

I will write another friend doctor's life in next episode.

My reflections on Christ's compassion towards the woman who was about to be stoned to death

LIFE OF MY OLD FRIENDS.& OTHERS WHOM I KNOW (Part 1)

              As the gray years pushing us aside of the shore, as we swim to the other end of ocean, which is not in the capacity of common understanding, God gives us an outlook , a talent to be above the life, not in it, too far away from it, and help us to look at it as though we are from other planet. 
              We no more live in it, we come to a stage that all things that are happening around us as stories, beautifully stories, which are woven by God , which are not in the skillful hands of human, however he tries. I have a strange feeling, I live but I really do not live.  I am on this earth but strangely I look down at this life as if I am from another planet... something is happening, or preparing me.. ??   
  I have come to  Dallas, Texas.
  I came to see my old friend in Arkansas, our friendship was of 1969.. right back in PUC in Maris Stella, Vijayawada, AP, India.
I met many old friends like this before, but with this dear friend the way we both sailing in the same boat making us to enjoy each other's presence more than any one else.
Once my old friend of my school days, my senior though, came to see me, but her attitude and disposition was changed after along time gap between us, her aspirations, her way of life , her troubles made her a different person from whom I knew and enjoyed her friendship in the years 1966 to 1968.. and thereafter now and then.
Her life was such pathetic, which I could not digest during our short meetings now and then after 2011. The life gave her a very tough paths, which were a sort of unknown path to me to understand.
She married a Muslim handsome boy, and went away from home to Chennai in those days.. Love was so strong, they toiled against all the tides of life and established themselves with two cute children a boy and girl .  Her loving husband was so wonderfully took care of her, and children for a long time. He started his own business and they maintained a lavish stylish life.
Till then I knew the family, and later as I was married, and entangled with many commitments, I did not dare to have connections with my old friends, (LEF rule on one side that we should not be associated with old non-christian friends or relatives), so I almost severed from her friendship.
But whenever I visited my aunty , I was making it a point to see her in that town. Those were short and brief meetings. Later her husband died of consuming too much of Alcohol, and Cigars, at the end of the life he could not leave anything to her except of so many debts and without a house to live in. She lost all her wealth, and debtors took everything, her daughter went in search of a job to far away places and lost in the tides of life. She used to visit her parents rarely, and did not willing to come back to settle in normalcy of calm going life. Son married a Hindu again, and became a puppet in the hands of the her and in laws, due to financial insecurity. My friend suffered with sever diabetes and started to take insulin injections everyday.  Now not having money in hand to meet the expenses of  her stylish rented house as in the days of her husband , and meeting her own expenses of medicines .. etc became beyond her capacity. She relied upon her daughter and son to this extent.
Suddenly one day she called me and started to cry aloud, in the phone,  wailing, aloud, Leela , my son died my son died. he was 45 years old, died suddenly with massive heart attack. I tried to meet her, but she discouraged me not to come due to her relatives complications. She never gave scope to meet her in her home residence. I do not know the reason.  Later I got another call from a distant place that she was with her daughter,  later another call from Goa that her daughter and she were shifted to that place as she got her project to finish. Later I lost her track to this day. I just wait for her call. I wonder what made her life so cruel,  why such beautiful life which was started so courageously, should end up so pathetically. I wonder why life is all ways ends tragically for some, without any reason.
These friends of mine were good people, we walked together, we laughed together, we enjoyed our lives in fun and frolic, we dreamed together about our future, but the end was different, for each one of us its different, and we do not know what is awaiting for us furthermore.


                         And now about this dear friend,  She is a beauty, got married to a boy who was in America , in late 1970s. Came to USA with so many dreams of a young girl. The boy was a dupe though he loved her very much, he did not have financial stability. she was a girl from a well to do family. She was utterly disappointed, besides he was addicted to chewing leaves and drugs and cigar in his mouth. It was disgusting to look at.

                She started to work and earn for herself, as Rail conductor, some times two jobs in a day. The boy proved himself not able to take care of her either financially or fulfill his duties as a husband.
Though she lived in western culture, it did not give her a desire to divorce him, she stayed with him for the sake of her mother and father's honor.

                she had horrible years of married life for a long period of time. He developed cancer in his mouth, as the chewing of undesirable stuff reacted(Paan Paraag)
He lost everything health, jobs, etc. She started to take care of him day and night, besides attending the job .  Three months of pain and bleeding, the man breathed his last. She was left with nothing, no children..  She has some money and roof to live in. She lives quiet good financially but literally none to rely upon.
Loneliness is too ugly .

                    Both my friends are beautiful women, and maintain themselves so well, no one will think that they are suffering from so many health problems, and loneliness.

              Outwardly they look like people without any problem, smiling and beautiful with good attire and style.
But nobody kno
ws the inner life, and void they face in their life.
Life is a mystery.


       There she was cool and quet beautiful , tall and well dressed up with good make up , kajal lipstick, I introduced myself saying " I am Leela, are you Dr. Nirmala?"  "Yes I am Grace Nirmala "said she with a grim face. I wondered, and thought, she must be a little
 above our range of friends, I smiled and went away from her.  She was supposed to take a class for us , we went to an International Huggai Seminar in Hyderabad.

  We were given very good accommodation, and food in good hotel. We had nice time together , that was the last but one day of the seminar.  She was supposed to spek in the after noon session, we all sat for lunch, the seat beside me was vacant, I saw her coming towards me and sitting beside me.

     As usual the mates at the dinner hesitated to speak to this posh lady, but I started some casual conversation with her, every one left the table but we both were still digging into our plates, there was still more time to go to rooms and refresh and come back to the class.

     I asked about her, she told me that she is a gynecologist ,  When I asked her about her family she had a very sad story to tell me.
That brought us together so close , so knitted together and made us friends forever.
We love each other from the core of our hearts, though she is the most famous doctor she is the most humble friend I have ever, all ways find time to talk to me and exchange certain inner life issues with each other.

      I visualized her story, in my mind, I like to write it here as I have it in my mind according to her version of the incidents happened in her life. I will try to put it here as coolly as possible.

     "They were on holiday, went to beach to relax and enjoy the cool breez in the evening, After relaxing for some time on the white dunes of the sand, her only son and her husband thought it would be more funny if they could swim in the waters for a while. She relaxed more on the sand leaning back and looking at them as they splashing the water on one another.  She praised God for such wonderful loving husband and the son, 'its His grace' she reflected ... the good old days so far.

        Suddenly there was some horrible shouts at the beach  people running toward the waters, there she saw her husband and son were being washed off the shore further, they were breathless, shouting for help lifting up their hands, 'help and help'   some men tried to jump into the water and tried to help them but the whirlpool sucked them at once.  People and she waited for an hour for them to emerge from the water, but no signs of them. Later in the late night their dead bodies washed to the shore  somewhere else.

She could not remember what happened then, not even a thing, she was in shock.. nothing look real, somebody escorted her to the hotel they lodged, somebody called her relatives, somebody put her back to home.

One minute and everything changed, it happened long back still the story is vivid in front of her eyes, she has not much to share about this, the voice quivers still, and the beautiful eyes has their traces of water... which were hidden back under the black kajal.

She is known for her compassionate service in her town, she worked for  patients, the cases which could not be dealt with also she did successfully because of her prayer life.  Lives alone in a big house, I thought of spending some days with her asked  her for a paying guest facility anywhere else. she said, 'how could it be Leela , you have to come and stay with me' that is all. "
Though we met three years back the emails, phones, and other things go regularly. Hardly I spent 5 or 6 hours with her in Hyderabad, but the love of God implanted an indelible print in our lives.  We both knew we are going to be good friends for life. and that is true.


I will write another friend doctor's life in next episode.  Sweet smiles on her face for every patient that comes to her clinic, she comforts them with her skillful physician hand. There on the wall   a poster explaining that Jesus is the only Healer and Comforter of everyone.    There were New Testaments available to take away in OP for the patients.  She is slim and fair, tall, and in Venkatagiri starched handloom sarees, with short leaves and diamond bangles twinkling now and then, just as her smiles on her face. 

    When she got married she did not know the Lord Jesus Christ, did not know how to pray. She loved and married a christian doctor who is a Pediatrician, then she learned to love the Lord, pray, listen to the Word of God and read. 

    Her parents live just 60kms afar, in a nearby city. Every week end she visits them along with her two little kids, it was 2000 August, she met a major car accident her two boys aged 5 and 6 were killed on the spot, she escaped with deep injuries. 
  Story did not end there, she recovered later, physically, courageous,  and started her life, again, got pregnant, this time her baby is afflicted with autism, ferocious, uncontrollable, again second pregnancy got a girl baby, a little too childish to her age. 

    Life goes on, but I see the beautiful mother in her, there are many problems in life in and out, never she is disturbed. Prays and submits her life to God. She loves her children, especially her autistic boy, works for him day and night, works for him , made him a champion of swimming, got some state level awards.

For some the life is bed of roses, the thorns are invisible, but for some life is bed of thorns.. still the oozing blood could not disturb them they live like the roses on the thorns. What we learn and what we do not learn from them left to the learning heart of people. Those who go deep into their lives, those who have a desire to learn from other lives have this wisdom awaits to grab it. 
  Life seems to be good for some one not so good for someone, bad for some one and worst to some one... still Life this life given by God is a gift.. only His name and His blood gives us to forebear everything in it. God bless these dear friend of mine. Whisper a prayer for her.