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             I read about a funeral of a pastor whose children never coperated with him but astonished at the good words spoken by the public about him. They blamed him saying he spent more time for the church but not for them. When I sent that clipping to one of my friends she responded that she is like that child of the pastor and blamed her father for he is more interest in church than her and mother.  And another person reacted that the children are selfish and no one can satisfy such family when a pastor is more indulged in God's work.

Time

            Time. Time. Oh Time !! God created this mysterious thing called Time in the very beginning of His creation. Ever since it is created man became its slave or master. He tries to control it in his limited life. He believes that he will be eternal. No wonder the Wise Man Soloman warns the man that " Eternity is in the heart of man. Man lives forever in his thoughts. Never suspects that the life will end one day or the other day. Yes of course what he believes is true. The body may perish but the soul live forever and ever. That was the reason why God put His Eternity in the heart of man.
       Man thinks and  plans and behaves everyday that he is going to live for the eternity. The only difference that makes them different is one believes that he is going to live eternally on this earth, and thereby he toils all through his life for a morsel of food, he schemes, he drives crazy and make others crazy too. But there is another one who knew he too live eternally but he knew that its not on this earth but in the life after his death. Therefore he all ways strive to live and do things which would be counted after his end on this earth.
     Both knew that they do not live on this earth but they have another life which they need to live eternally. But what is this time... on this earth. 24 hours per day , as soon as the man opens his eyes after the sleep every morning his mind races on those things he has to finish within those 24 hours. He wonders what would happen how it would happen, what he has to do to happen, how long he has to take time to happen, so on and so forth. Even if he could not finish all that he planned to do that day, he has a hope of tomorrow, and he wonders why this night why this sleep why he should retire for the night....!! some go to bed reluctantly because he could not finish his work that day, even if could try to finish his work he cannot expect his fellowbeing would be there to coperate with him in the night. After all he can not stop his people to sleep.
Though he thinks he is the master of his time he is only a slave to his time, because the time is not in his hands. Yet he believes that he can manage the time, which is just a myth. He knew he his heart beats 72 times per minute any change in its rythum makes him anxious with his ill stricken body, not knowing the cause of irregular rythum of the heart. Even his breathing has its own rythum, and he has to oblige without his knowldege. Wonder of wonders he is there he counts every second, but he does not aware of this precious second.
Life is a mystery prisoned in time.
I pray and wish to have enough wisdom to see beyond the time to see the eternity in  

Birth day and Death day

     

                Sun shine?--follows dark night !!
blazing light? follows shadow of the objects-- Joys? Happiness? Triumph ? There's a day that is sorrows, worries, and defeat !!! Its the way of life ,God made Day and Night and He called it One day. God made Sun as well as Moon and stars to rule over the dark night---!
28th August is a day God sent me into this world, with a purpose , with a duty to do , and fulfill till He calls me o His bosom again, This is the day I love to celebrate because its the day of my exixtenace , its the day when two people rejoiced abundantly for my arrival, its the day they looked at me and was proud enough for thier achievement , and their fruit of their efforts, its the day I cried aloud for I left my Father in Heaven and came on this earth, soon enough i for got everything and cuddled into the bosom of my lovely mother. while my wonderful dad looking at me mzingly and with full of joy .
They selected number of names for me one of them settled, as Leelavathi. Ever since they started to call me Leela Leela, I learned to lorespond to them with a smile or a blink .. till now.
I still remember how my dad used to make me sit on his shoulders and show me proudly saying "oh see teacher who is on my shoulder this is Leela :over the wall to our neighbour Dhanamma teacher of Stall Girls High school.

Phoenix - a life lost & a life regained

       A talented fondling child of a loving father lives in dreams of her own, and her loving parents, enjoys every minute of life from the time in she knew that she was the princess of the household. Her birthday was a sign of jubilation of her kith and kin, near and far, she is the apple of the eye of her dad, believing that her dad would do any thing, yes anything in the world because her dad is her hero, like in  the films, her innocent eyes witnessed. Whatever she asked for, or she ordered for was not deprived , she was the center of attraction in the school or in the neighbourhood, because of her dad's status, she used to go along with him for hunting, into the forests some times or to the sides of kolleru lakes, or rivers of Pappikondalu or the sea shores of Machilipatnam,, all types of birds, animals are at her door step, to play with or turned  into dainty dish on the table, her mom is the most pleasant and beautiful  lady who is obedient, lively and as a queen manages the home with number of guests at any time.  kind hearted , educated, patient lovely mother.

     In school, top ranker, pet of the teachers, best friend of everyone, a dancer and artist,  fluent in two languages, voracious reader and jolly go lucky fashionable girl she is, life has given her everything she needed, friends, and fashions, parties and picnics, fun and frolics, nothing escaped her view of enjoyment. Highly educated, good name and hard working, life goes on very well.

     One set back , marriage, after the marriage, her life turned upside down, he is an example to the youth and old in the society, dutiful son of his parents and responsible brother of five sisters and one brother, a care free like Suseela is tied up to down to earth man like Prakash. Her life pattern is changed from the top to toe, no more freedom, no more liberty to do whatever she feels right or to get relaxation. He is her world, his people are her responsibility too. She is deprived of economic independence, los the identity of her own, even then she thought its her role to be an ideal wife, in the Indian society.
Poverty and misery pursued her to the core of her deep serene life, her habits of her enjoyment, her leisurely life is no more, no time to think of herself, new pattern of hard work, long tedious walks oppressed her.