Presently I am in Melbourne .What I am doing here? I came here with so many things in my mind. Want to spend much time in His presence. Reading His word, praying and writing blogs, and correcting the manuscript of  Pictorial Pilgrim Progress and to spend quality time with my dear son, John. 
I have joined a course on Perspectives of Christian Movement in the Cross Culture Church where John attends. 
This course is helping me to see through the word of God in different perspective and learn of Him more and more.  I started to write my journal cum prayer book after many many years of lapse. I all most finishing the correction of Pictorial Pilgrim Progress manuscript.  My dairy speaks to me and I speak into it as most of the time I spend alone here.  whole day is at my disposal, no one to talk or to  interrupt me or pry over me. 
my life is mine all of it mine. In a way I am enjoying it as in the teenage of mine back in college days.  No pressure, no one to boss over me.  I used to have full freedom in our home. My parents used to love me a lot and never come in between my doings.
any way today I saw a video clipping where the Christians are beaten black and blue with sticks and kicked over mercilessly and burnt alive in western Africa by Muslim fanatics.   Today on the roads of Melbourne city I saw a big procession where the Muslims were shouting for the protection of Palestine and against Israel.   These are the end days, can I  keep my testimony? I feel so sad for those old couple and two others who were killed brutally. Martyrs for the sake of the Saviour they loved, who has given His life to them.
Was their faith so strong, was Jesus was so real to them to these so illiterates innocent old couple.  How cruelly that tall man was jumping on them with both feet and kicked them. What evil entered into that man. Why all people were looking and just standing there without doing or stopping him from killing. Oh Father in Heaven why such things are coming into existence. Or we really in end days,  where is the rapture? Or is it already happened and His people were taken away? are we left behind.? Do I have that much of love and faith for my saviour Jesus Christ till the end of my life?. In case I am dragged on the roads to be killed for the sake of my saviour will I be able to give my life? My love really could stand for this test?    oh Father!! I often used to boast that He has forgiven me so much of my filthy life and thereby I love Him very much. Do I really mean that? Can I say that and stand the trail ?

Oka Divyamaina Sangathitho

please click on the title of the blog. oka dhivyamaina sangathitho then u will listen to the title song of my tv programmes in eluru

types of lonliness

My laptop had been a great trouble all these days. I could not type on that new laptop due to the cursor jumping up and down without my permission.  and the new soft ware made me dizzy sometimes as i did not feel like learning new things at times. especially in software world. 

why not these people understand that certain softwares which are good could be retained as they are without making we oldtimers compete with the younger generations/ ? I felt vcery saad when widows xp is going to be out dated. whats the fun in doing so. Atleast they could give us an option that we can keep it if we want it. should they all together wipe it off?  

Any way here in Melbourn I found an old laptop with  widows xp, and I thank God for it is still working though many unnecessary adverisements are popping up in btween to irritate me. But I am too cautious not to get irritated with these unwelcome advertisements.  as I do have the widows xp still working here, i pacify myself that it is good. and better than the other softwares. 

I know life is also allways with full of adjustments.  some great person said , " only we come to know how matured person you are by the way how well you learn to adjust in life to the new situations, and irritations."

wow, i am still in the process of adjustments knowingly and unknowingly for the better or for worse. !!!

Here in Melbourne I find life is quiet easier, no one to bounce on me, or no one to see whether i am here or not. No one to demand me to do this or to do that. in short I say there is none to pry over me.  I am secluded, alone, in the real sense of the word, away from the whole world, only in between the four white walls in the room. this is my life from 8am to 8pm approximately.  Then John comes a few exchange of thoughts and sleep... etc.

This scluded life I enjoy in a way.because I do not have any responsiblities i used to attend right back in eluru in my home. .On the other hand i have lot of time to read or write not as an escape to my own world like in usa but cheerfully as I do like it here.  See life is only a phase of attitude.   every where i am alone either in eluru or in usa or in Melbourne... but only here i am enjoying this loneliness .  Its again i say a phse of attitude. In eluru i am alone in my home in midst of so much of busy life. which makes me depressed not having any one to go along. doing things alone eating and cooking alone. everything seems to be a sort of burdensome in the same house once i was very busy with many things at hand.   in usa , family of my daughter is there , but they are busy in their own way not having time to spare for me. which make me more depressed than ever.  Here in Melbourne  john is there but he is busy outside in the office, and the few hours of time he spends with me in good way possible.  this makes me not to worry about my lonliness at all.  

Good life gives all the tastes of lonliness to me.