DOING NEW THINGS.....!!! OH

Fear of the new ventures,  chasing me a lot now a days, what i did so easily before, what i thought were thrilling to do , now seems to be giving me great stress, is it a sign of getting older and older as days and months and years go by...?how i wish i could re-live my youthful days once again with all that vigour and strength, and energy and confidence..a thoery in life that i can do anything alone... !

when i look back i see my life had been  a choice of getting wrong things first and dong right things at the end,  the job i chose is the best one to my aptitude, then thel ife partner  whom i wanted to be a God fearing man, and God did give me that wish of mine, later, children thier growing years, thier studies, marriages ooph,  so on... later , after that , i started to chose what is best for family... and there ends... my life, i cannot do any thing new for me, or do any thing new except that i can buy some new saries which i never did before hahahaha isn't it funny ...well ... for some of us life gives so much , abilities ,  opportunities, and manythings, but after certain lonely life we just cannot do anything which life is offering... oh really how i wish i can go back to my youthfullness when i used to be a daring, dashing and confident ... i wish ,, i really wish  let me something i can do which my children and thier children would be happy about me whenever they remember me  after i leave them..... and they could write on my epitoph " she has done what all that she could do"...