Tests come in life very unexpectedly unlike the tests in our academic field. But, we are quiet sure that we need to write the tests and exams in our academic area. After all, we join in the college or school, with good knowledge that we need to write the exams, and we are supposed to pass the exams, and then only we will be qualified to go to next class. We have to write these exams, there is no other go. However we play with the life in college or school , whether we like the tests or not, we will put through them, and the results will announce about our sincerity and hard work we put in learning the subjects. No pretexts or no reasons would give us any protection once we go through of the exams, we ought to face the results.
So also with the life, the real life , we need to face tests in our spiritual life. But these tests come unaware of our consciousness, all in a sudden, and in a given second of the moment. We have to be ready with an answer of His grace
.be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with.
So also with the life, the real life , we need to face tests in our spiritual life. But these tests come unaware of our consciousness, all in a sudden, and in a given second of the moment. We have to be ready with an answer of His grace
.be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with.
1 Peter 3:15
Unless you know how toUn less you answer any one, with faith , how you will be trapped by the evil
in one moment , you have to regret all of your life for what you have done; when you were caught up unaware of yourself.
I will tell you one of many instances in my life, there are hundreds of them, but one will suffice here.
It was the day for general physical check up, my husband used to work in Railways, so the Rail way hospital was at our disposal, we get treatments and tests freely. One week end we thought that we need to have some general check up of our health chart. On the other hand I had a baby boy of 1 year old, and I did not have monthly periods yet. I took one year leave when my daughter was born, in 1981 and again I took one year leave on loss of pay in 1983 when my son was born. It was 1984 Feb, and I was suppose to go to College on last working day in the Month of March to sign in the register and rejoin in the college before the summer holidays start.
So I thought I better be in good health and in good physical condition, before I go back to Eluru. We enjoyed our one year holiday in Vijayawada because he was working there in DEN office of the South Central Rail ways.
I was slim and active and in good figure though I gave birth two children , and I was 31 years old and was very confident of not having any more issues.Because the elders used to say , that we need not be afraid of having another pregnancy un till we get monthly periods, after the delivery.
The lady doctor I approached did a thorough check up on me and and said that I was perfectly healthy, but that I was pregnant, may be one or two months pregnancy.
I was shocked. First of all we wanted not to have any more children except these two, and as I have had already two years of leave availed, I utterly feel ashamed of my self to go to college as a pregnant woman and ask for maternity leaves etc again.
I questioned the doctor, as I did not have periods so far, how can it be possible? she answered, sometimes it happens, no need to wonder, there are umpteen cases who have been pregnant without having any monthly periods after the delivery of the baby.
I was utterly shocked, and again I asked, " what to do now, we really do not want another baby now, not at all at this time of all the things." She understood my grievance after I explained about my situation as a working woman where the leave from college is a tough task in life. She said, ' ok I will give one injection to you, if you are not pregnant you will get periods (menstruation period) after a week"
I said to her anxiously, "Oh that would be good , but suppose I am pregnant , even then I will get menstruation?
She answered "99% you will get it".
Again I asked , "then what is the use of taking it? I do not go for abortion at any cost, I will never, then what to do?"
I was shocked. First of all we wanted not to have any more children except these two, and as I have had already two years of leave availed, I utterly feel ashamed of my self to go to college as a pregnant woman and ask for maternity leaves etc again.
I questioned the doctor, as I did not have periods so far, how can it be possible? she answered, sometimes it happens, no need to wonder, there are umpteen cases who have been pregnant without having any monthly periods after the delivery of the baby.
I was utterly shocked, and again I asked, " what to do now, we really do not want another baby now, not at all at this time of all the things." She understood my grievance after I explained about my situation as a working woman where the leave from college is a tough task in life. She said, ' ok I will give one injection to you, if you are not pregnant you will get periods (menstruation period) after a week"
I said to her anxiously, "Oh that would be good , but suppose I am pregnant , even then I will get menstruation?
She answered "99% you will get it".
Again I asked , "then what is the use of taking it? I do not go for abortion at any cost, I will never, then what to do?"
she casually said, just take the injection and see whether you would get periods?
I said, 'But you said, even if it is pregnancy I will get periods, in that case it would be an abortion, if I am not pregnant, I will get periods,.( SEE those years , were the years, which in the medical field the blue strip test of the urine for pregnancy test was not available) No I wont take this injection. She said its up to you then.
I said, 'But you said, even if it is pregnancy I will get periods, in that case it would be an abortion, if I am not pregnant, I will get periods,.( SEE those years , were the years, which in the medical field the blue strip test of the urine for pregnancy test was not available) No I wont take this injection. She said its up to you then.
I said I am leaving for Vizag to my parents house this week ,I am really confused what to do presently.
She advised me ok I will give the medicine and also syringe to you, if you want to take it you can take it even at vizag, in case you change your mind.
I said that would be ok with me.
When I came out of the clinic my husband was waiting for me , he suspected something was wrong, seeing my face. I informed him, about the third pregnancy. we both went inside the clinic once again, the doctor explained the predicament to my husband too.
Next I remember , I was standing in our little balcony, facing the big play ground , where children were playing. I saw down into the kitchen garden of our ground floor quarter occupants; They have three Papaya trees, one tree has big papayas I remember that if any one take papaya fruit while they are pregnant they will get normal periods, and that pregnancy would not last.
I sent some one to the occupants of that house, as the lady of the house was my friend, she immediately gave me one big papaya .
I kept it on the table, and took a big knife to cut it and eat it. I know if I eat the whole papaya I will have normal menstrual periods of that month.. I kept the knife on it and about to cut it into two parts.BUT I could not do it.
But I just could not do it. I took the papaya and threw it with all my strength into the play ground as an athlete would through a ball in a play ground.
Later we went to vizag, there was great silence prevailing among us couple since the day we visited the lady doctor in rail way hospital. Our minds were fully occupied with the thoughts of unknown fear. As it is, we find it very difficult to maintain these little children as I am working,in one place and my husband is working in different place. I find it extremely difficult to manage the house hold things with litte children all by self . The age difference between them is only 1 1/2 years so both of them are so young, and it affects my health even.
Now as it is I was giving artificial milk , ( not the breast milk to both of them) We all ways carry milk powder tin, milk bottles 4 of them, and a steel jug, spoons , thermos flask for hot water, and a water bottle with boiled and cooled water to prepare the milk , in a plastic basket, and another basket of diaper clothes, ( in those days we used to wash the cotton cloth after used by the babies, and dry them in sun, so we need lots of them to carry around, either to church or friends house , any where. )
These baskets were heavy for me to carry on, so when my husband was not available some neighbor or some friend in the church used to help me to carry them. As both children are too young to walk , often times I used to carry one on my shoulders, and another by some body else, usually I used to carry Happy( my daughter, and give my son john to somebody else to be carried, as he was too small and would not feel that I abandoned him for the sake of his sister. whereas as Happy was a little bit older I felt that she should never think that I left her with others as I need to take care of her brother.
so though it look like a very common problem and every parent goes through of it in their life time, but as we pray about every little burden and put in front of Jesus, He would give answers to us exactly by evading all our fears through His word.
Now as it is I was giving artificial milk , ( not the breast milk to both of them) We all ways carry milk powder tin, milk bottles 4 of them, and a steel jug, spoons , thermos flask for hot water, and a water bottle with boiled and cooled water to prepare the milk , in a plastic basket, and another basket of diaper clothes, ( in those days we used to wash the cotton cloth after used by the babies, and dry them in sun, so we need lots of them to carry around, either to church or friends house , any where. )
These baskets were heavy for me to carry on, so when my husband was not available some neighbor or some friend in the church used to help me to carry them. As both children are too young to walk , often times I used to carry one on my shoulders, and another by some body else, usually I used to carry Happy( my daughter, and give my son john to somebody else to be carried, as he was too small and would not feel that I abandoned him for the sake of his sister. whereas as Happy was a little bit older I felt that she should never think that I left her with others as I need to take care of her brother.
so though it look like a very common problem and every parent goes through of it in their life time, but as we pray about every little burden and put in front of Jesus, He would give answers to us exactly by evading all our fears through His word.
That evening we went for an evening walk on HB colony bus road, we were walking on the right side of the road and we saw a maternity clinic , I asked my husband whether we could go in and take second advice from this doctor?
He accepted, so we both went in, I talked to the doctor , and expressed my fears after she confirmed that I was pregnant. I said about the doctor of vijayawada and about the injection, that injection was in my hand bag, since the day I took it from the hospital, she saw it and said, that it was good injection and explained to me just like the other doctor.
I said again , it means abortion, if I am pregnant, and also asked her, if I am pregnant and if I used this injection and suppose the pregnancy with stand will it affect the baby any way, for which she said she cannot give any positive affirmation.
I thanked the doctor and came out of the clinic.we were going back to home, and suddenly I felt some strange feeling, I opened the bag and took the injection and threw it in the dust bin laying aside the road.
He accepted, so we both went in, I talked to the doctor , and expressed my fears after she confirmed that I was pregnant. I said about the doctor of vijayawada and about the injection, that injection was in my hand bag, since the day I took it from the hospital, she saw it and said, that it was good injection and explained to me just like the other doctor.
I said again , it means abortion, if I am pregnant, and also asked her, if I am pregnant and if I used this injection and suppose the pregnancy with stand will it affect the baby any way, for which she said she cannot give any positive affirmation.
I thanked the doctor and came out of the clinic.we were going back to home, and suddenly I felt some strange feeling, I opened the bag and took the injection and threw it in the dust bin laying aside the road.
After two weeks ,approximately, I felt great peace in my heart. All that confusion vanished. What may come, I will face it. I decided.
We had our dinner, and we finished the days course, and we went into our room and knelt down to pray. I prayed, I do not remember what he prayed, but I prayed, the essence of the prayer was like this, " Lord it is thy will, what may come , just your will be done." And we opened the Bible to read the daily portion, I was reading the portion from the Bible
Psalms 81:6,7,8 I removed the burden from your shoulder; your hands were freed of the burdensome basket.. You called in trouble, and I delivered you and I answered you in the secret place of thunder. I tested you at the waters of Meribah.Selah."
(WEB RSV NIV).Selah (76 Occurrences) ... Its meaning is doubtful. Some interpret it as meaning
"silence" or "pause;" others, "end," "a louder strain," "piano," ... (. When I come to the word "I answered you in the secret place of thunder.." I felt a great sound and kick in my womb, it was so astonishing, I was physically jerked for a second, and i felt warm liquid in my loins, I just jumped from the floor where i knelt down to pray, and told my husband, 'just a minute, I need to go to toilet.' And there I found warm blood was flowing, and there were clots of blood too.
I was shocked, Can you understand the joy in my heart? Can you imagine the happiness written on my face made my husband shocked for a second, when i told him what has had happened? The wonders of God are unknown the way He speaks to us in sundry ways is unexpected.
I read the verses once again. I removed his shoulder from the burden ...... ( it means no more children to carry around on my shoulders) your hands were freed of the burdensome basket.. ( I know it means I need not carry those milk basket for another child) You called me in trouble,( yes lord , Indeed) and I delivered you ( yes yes Lord) I answered you in the secret place of thunder, ( wow , exactly as a thunder He answered me in my womb , the very secret place of thunder) I tested you at the waters of Meribah.Selah."..( to his people; for he shall not enter into the land which I have given to the children
of Israel, because you rebelled against my word at the waters of Meribah ... ) The "Waters of Meribah" was the name given to this place... "Meribah of Kadesh ... 81:7 God appears as having tested Israel here. ... Selah".
Psalms 81:6,7,8 I removed the burden from your shoulder; your hands were freed of the burdensome basket.. You called in trouble, and I delivered you and I answered you in the secret place of thunder. I tested you at the waters of Meribah.Selah."
(WEB RSV NIV).Selah (76 Occurrences) ... Its meaning is doubtful. Some interpret it as meaning
"silence" or "pause;" others, "end," "a louder strain," "piano," ... (. When I come to the word "I answered you in the secret place of thunder.." I felt a great sound and kick in my womb, it was so astonishing, I was physically jerked for a second, and i felt warm liquid in my loins, I just jumped from the floor where i knelt down to pray, and told my husband, 'just a minute, I need to go to toilet.' And there I found warm blood was flowing, and there were clots of blood too.
I was shocked, Can you understand the joy in my heart? Can you imagine the happiness written on my face made my husband shocked for a second, when i told him what has had happened? The wonders of God are unknown the way He speaks to us in sundry ways is unexpected.
I read the verses once again. I removed his shoulder from the burden ...... ( it means no more children to carry around on my shoulders) your hands were freed of the burdensome basket.. ( I know it means I need not carry those milk basket for another child) You called me in trouble,( yes lord , Indeed) and I delivered you ( yes yes Lord) I answered you in the secret place of thunder, ( wow , exactly as a thunder He answered me in my womb , the very secret place of thunder) I tested you at the waters of Meribah.Selah."..( to his people; for he shall not enter into the land which I have given to the children
of Israel, because you rebelled against my word at the waters of Meribah ... ) The "Waters of Meribah" was the name given to this place... "Meribah of Kadesh ... 81:7 God appears as having tested Israel here. ... Selah".
Yes , God is our Father, He answers us, then and there. Today one girl with whom I was sharing my testimony , she said, " Oh God answered you immediately."
Never this statement occurred to me , I knew God speaks to me whenever I prayed Him, most of the times very immediately But there are some times wherein I needed to wait upon the Lord for longer time till I get His answer.
So I told her, yes often He answers, but there are certain moments in my life wherein I just need to wait upon the Lord till He gives answers. Often times He answers either "YES < or NO or sometimes just WAIT, we need to get one of these answers, to know His will in our lives.
Never this statement occurred to me , I knew God speaks to me whenever I prayed Him, most of the times very immediately But there are some times wherein I needed to wait upon the Lord for longer time till I get His answer.
So I told her, yes often He answers, but there are certain moments in my life wherein I just need to wait upon the Lord till He gives answers. Often times He answers either "YES < or NO or sometimes just WAIT, we need to get one of these answers, to know His will in our lives.
Whatever Is Not from Faith Is Sin Rom 14 :23
