Pens for the SheepBe careful, and watch yourself closely-so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or do not let them slip from your heart as long as you live " Deuteronomy 4:9
They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places ong devastated. They will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations Isaiah 61:4-7
"The promise I got in Railway quarters, Numbers 32:24 on 13th January, was fulfilled 3 parts of it so far. When the children of Reuben and Gad, told Moses that they ---1)Do not want to cross the Jordan but would like to settle their families East side of the river (I came back to St. Theresa's College ,Eluru) ---- 2) To build towns for their women and children; We bought a House in Ashoknagar, Eluru Moses , at last agreed to their plea when they promised --- 4) That they would not neglect the battles.( We took charge of the Church in Eluru and working day and night not taking one pie from our ministry. We were employed to earn our livelihood, and pastored the church just like St.Paul)But The third point YET to be fulfilled )-- 3)Build pens for their sheep, (The Prayer House in Eluru)
We later built a room with slab roof to our house in Ashoknagar in the year 1997, in the place of tiled roof; we used that room for the kitchen. When the steps were built I went up to the terrace and saw a big vacant site adjacent to my compound wall at the rear side of my house. It has a small parapet wall which can be crossed or jumped over by any one. Beyond that I saw small dirty huts, and rugged( kachda) paths A SLUM WHERE THE POOREST OF THE POOR LIVE , a SLUM of dirt , disease, and squalor . Every one were throwing their dirt and garbage into this vacant site, as it was full of thorny bushes, and dirty stagnated water and pigs trampling all over.
But I looked at that place with different eyes, at once I knew that this must be the place God wanted to give us to build 'pens for the sheep'
We were made to be in charge of the branch of an organization in Eluru since 1985, and we did not have a proper place to have our Sunday worship. We started to have worship in our house, and in (late) Chandrayya house, later in Mr. Jacob house, which was converted into a school later.
As the new comers were adding to the worship place, it was hard enough to draw harsh and fast rules to them. If anybody is negligent a little , we were used to taken into task. We felt that to have our own place to worship on Sundays is inevitable .
God gave me eyes of faith to look into this site as a future Worshiping place. "Pens for your livestock, " ringing in my ears. In my Telugu Bible its written as " a backyard for your sheep"
Therefore. I asked my husband to go back and enquire about the place, like how much it costs, how much area it is, etc. we came to know it is 1200 square yards.
We could go for loans to buy THIS land because it is just adjacent to my compound wall at the back. But never that thought entered into our minds. We were happy and content with the house, God had given to us. We bought this house because we were in dire need of a shadow, a roof on our heads. But apart from it buying lands or sites, or houses was not our creed. If at all we had such mind we would had purchased that place by taking a loan from the bank which would be no problem as they promised me that they would give some lakhs of rupees if only we go for vacant site or new house.
Recently one of my friends was taunting me "ah you are living in such old house , so no need to build a new kitchen any way: -- ah look at my washrooms, so beautiful , poor you your washroom is so small" Till she said so, I never thought that my house is small, or my house is such old one" In fact I wantonly did not seek greater things for me, as He told me in 1976. so No one can pursue me to go for rich things, unless I am led by God. Having food and raiment let us be therewith content.( 1 Timothy 6:8) Earning property, buying gold , was not in our priority list. Instead we used to spend more on music cassettes, message cassettes, and books, biographies of missionaries etc. What we invested then was a foundation stone to the character of my children. We still have a mini library in our house. The Tin shed was replaced by a little room for the books, with an attached bath room and closet for clothes. We constructed this in the year 2000 January after 6 years of our purchase of the house.
I was persisting my husband to go and find about that place for the Sunday Worship.
When he went back into that slum area the people showed a mediator between the seller and the buyer. He said, there was 1200 square yards place and each square yard costs Rs. 800/-
When my husband brought that piece of information, we both thought, the HQ would not give their consent to buy this place. As it would cost approximately Rs.1000000/-Therefore we kept quiet. since 1985 We used to send all the offerings, to HQ. So usually HQ give money to purchase any site, if they think it is good to buy in that particular place.
There was no rest in my heart. God told me He would give a 'backyard for our sheep'. Was it not look like just as a 'pen for the sheep'? with its short walls, and so much of greenery though they were thorny bushes; I felt this must be the place for Sunday worship.
In 1978 God gave me this promise "They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; they will renew, the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations." Isaiah 61:4-7
This is the promise I never forget to pray about since then. Therefore I was sure that THIS is the place that we should buy for the Worship in Eluru. We both were praying but did not know how to approach anyone to materialise our desire.
We both were very docile in these matters, the house we bought because Mr. Jacob Wesley took initiative to purchase it for us. Apart from it we never had any other properties till now. (2018)What we knew was , when God put a desire in our heart for His glory, we could pray for that and He would move men to full fill our heart's desire.
Hudson Taylor Principle is my Principle in my life. " Move men, through God, by Prayer alone."Therefore not knowing how anything about the Place for worship would be materialised, but knowing very well that the Creator of this earth who said , "The earth is the LORD'a and the fullness thereof, the world and who dwell therein." Psalms 24.1 we earnestly started to pray for a place for worship. But I was praying only for this backyard of ours specifically.
My husband went for a Work camp in BG, I was at home with little children, So I called upon the praying women of the Fellowship, to wail and shed tears to ask the Lord for a place to worship. We fasted and prayed for three days. Sugunamma, Suryakantham, Kanakam,Krupabhaiamma,Indira,Vijayamma, Ravanamma, Maniayamma, Gnanasundari, Jyothi, Esther Francis, Esther, Anandakumari, Karanam Ratnam, Sarah, Nakshathram, Ammaji, Vaisali, Veeramma, We poured our hearts, and repented for our transgressions, and the transgressions of families.
(They stood in their places and confessed their sins and the sins of their ancestors.They stood another quarter in confession and in worshiping the Lord their God. Standing on the stairs of the Levites were Jeshua, Bani,shebaniah, Bunni, Sherebiah, Bani and Kenani. They cried out with loud voices to the Lord their God. And the Levites--Jeshua, Kadmiel, Bani, Hashabneiah,sherebiah, Hodiah, Shebaniah and Pethahiah--said: "Stand up and praise the Lord your God, who is from everlasting to everlasting.( Nehemiah 9:2--5) YES exactly as in the days of Nehemiah we prayed in our home, and got answer from our Savior Jesus Christ, for what we were asking for. It was like story in Bible, Prayed and got Answere.
” Later my husband came from the Work Camp from Madras. After the work camp he reported to his duty in South Central Railway AEN Office. That evening he came and told me some wonderful news. " Leela, do you know what had happened today in my office?"
I was listening to him very attentively, Listening to one another attentively between husband and wife means there is respect and love for one another, which is the good foundation of peaceful family life; my husband a man of a few words and he was telling me something means, I knew, it must be of great importance.
"There was a file on my table from DEN office of Vijayawada by the time I went to the office. It was laying there since one week it seems. As soon as I went into the office I was told to take care of the file immediately as it was a summons from the higher authorities about some fine has to be recovered from a man.. While I was going through the file I understood that a Person was asked to pay a lump sum money as a fine as the residue and wastage from his sugar factory in Hanuman Junction is flowing into the Railway land . This Hanuman Junction is in between Eluru and Vijayawada, 20kms to Eluru and 40kms to Vijayawada.
The file was sent to Rail Nilayam Office Secunderabad first later it was sent to DEN Office Vijayawada then sent to AEN Office , Eluru. The file ultimately landed on the table of mine for further dealings. As I was looking into it a gentleman from Chetaparru came to me. His name is Mr. Subrahmanyam Choudhary. A very rich Landlord, and a highly educated person , he is M.Tech . He came to my table and said, "I see you are supposed to look into my file, I was told , in your absence. I came three days back and they said you were on leave and you would come today. I came from Chetaparru, See, you finish my work soon, I will fulfill all your formalities." (indirectly he was suggesting that he would throw away some money to me as bribe)
Then I told him that I am not that type of man who work for Bribes, I told him gently that I keep my both hands clean and holy in the sight of God, and I never work for bribes. He immediately, taken aback and said, " I am extremely sorry for what I said, so, please accept my apologies."
Then I told him to come tomorrow by that time and the work would be finished. Before he left my table he said, " I never met a person like you." For that I took the opportunity to give my witness for the Lord, Jesus, and told him ," Sir this is not my righteousness, Jesus Christ changed my greediness for money,previously I too was a briber, but after I am saved by the Lord, I restituted that bribe to the rightful persons. He changed all my life of the past. I being a Railway employee I traveled between Eluru,and Vijayawada for 12 years without misusing my set of Passes. I traveled in Passenger Rails though I had to suffer very much.But in His great mercy He got me transfered to Eluru without giving any bribe." .....and so on I told him. For that he was curious enough and asked me further questions about Christ and His salvation. I told him how I repented, and confessed, and restituted and reconciled and set right with men and God in my life.
He particularly asked me , why I traveled in between Eluru and Vijayawada. I told him that you are working in St. Theresa college as a Lecturer. For that he said , even his sister Sujatha is working there. "Oh , is that?, even my own sister Sujatha is working in the same college." "Is she the Lecturer in Politics? we knew her very well because she is living in a rented house opposite to our rented house in the next street where we lived, now, we are living in our own house, in next street." "Where is your own house now?" "The very next street to your sister's street, Tenali Rama Krishna street," Which house is yours?" "There is a temple in the entrance of the street, from there 4th house, on right side."
"There is a vacant place behind your house, did you see that"?
"Yes Sir, there is a big vacant place, I know it, in fact I tried to buy it for our worshiping place, but the broker told us very high rate, so we dropped it" "Oh is that so? where is your worshiping place now?" " Presently we are conducting the Sunday worship in a school hall"
"Actually that vacant land is mine, if you want I will sell it to you" he grinned and told my astonishing hubby.
"Thank you very much , sir, I will inform about this to our Head Quarters in Madras,and let you know" "Oh certainly, meanwhile if you can get one bronze cross for me I will pay the cost"
That was the gist of the conversation took place between my husband and the Land owner of the present worshiping place in Eluru.
Wasn't that mere the doing of our Almighty God? When we started to pray in that hot summer, the Lord made the Owner of the site to come to the table of my husband. The higher authorities realized the garbage of his sugar factory was flowing into the Railway land and they sent a summons and the file reached my husband's table, do you think all this is just coincidence? Not at all, its the doing of God.
Do you think The partition of Red sea was a fiction story? Here is the Partition of Red sea right in front of our eyes. If you think that the place was owned by us just like that, you are mistaken, there were still certain wonderful miraculous events took place in between , I saw the hand of God and we praised God for His bountiful graces, and mercies, in dealing with this worshiping place.God Himself visited us and made things possible in astonishing way. While explining the conversation btween him and the Mr. Subrahmanyam Choudhary and while I was listening to him, I am sure, God was listening to us, and everything was recorded in His presence. "Then those who feared the LORD talked with each other, and the Lord listened and heard.A scroll of remembrance was written in His presence concerning those who feared the LORD and honored His name. Malachi 3:16
(While I am writing this episode and these lines my eyes flowing in tears, remembering His love and mercy, His great miracles.)
Can any body imagine that the owner of the land will be sent to our "table",( You prepare a table for me in the presence of my enemies Psalms 23:5) and he himself offer us to sell the place? Is there anything impossible to God, when we pray for His glory.
What sort of conversation took place later was a miracle, what sort of negotiation was taken place between us was miracle, how this gentleman spoke and dealt with us was miracle, King of Assyria of Old testament came alive into our lives.
The promise I received from His bountiful table was a miracle. The fulfillment of that promise within seconds is a miracle. you cannot read such stories anywhere except in His Plans for the human lives whom He loved.
Therefore we immediately contacted the sister of the President of the Church organization who came down to Vijayawada from Madras to conduct the Children Retreat. She was in charge of the HQ and we were instructed by the President to take guidance and directions from her who stays in India, whereas he stays in America most of the year except in the month of May and January and October..
In those days we did not have internet , emails . We have to cable him if we need to talk to him, which was very costly affair. So as this errand was quick and urgent we called upon her and informed her about the proposal of the gentleman from Chetaparru, Mr. Subramanyam Choudhary, She immediately gave her consent to come to our place to check it , and promised us that she would come the next day She came along with Maryiamma of Singhnagar as she was already in Vijayawada conduction Children Retreat there. This was a surprise to us, as we never expected her to give her consent to come so quickly to our place.
We all went to the site behind our house walking back, to the place on the road into the slum. When the elders of the hamlet came to talk to the owner of the site and to my husband, they did not like this bargain , and started to shout aloud, saying, 'that we have no right to enter into their hamlet and they would not give path to enter into the site, through their slum'; I was astonished to listen to their shouts, so I retreated back a little, and stood apart from them as I saw some of them in the group were drunkards.
Sister , and Maryiamma stood along with Mr. Subramanyam and my husband, even the Document writer came along ,so they were talking to the mob who gathered there. The situation there was in tension, so I came away from the group and staring at them, then , a woman came out from the hut where I stood and recognized me, and talked to me, asking me" What Leelamma, you are here? why you came here?
Seeing that she was Chaaya, my old maid , her real name was Sai, I used to call her Chaaya,in the previous years not only she but even her mother and grandmother worked in our house to clean the vessels as maids.
I said," Oh Chaaya is this your house? " She confirmed that the hut she came from is hers and asked me the purpose of my coming there, I told her that we both, me and Sir, came to buy the site for building the Prayer house" and inquired her why they are shouting like that. she told me this place is staying vacant since 50 years, no body was given permission to enter into their slum to do anything with it, as it does not have any other approach road , and it could be only through their slum, no body was allowed to buy or enter into it by the elders of their hamlet.Even when the local MLA Ravindranadh Choudhary failed to construct a factory in it by buying it. she informed me. I told her, " Oh no, chaaya, this place we want to buy to build a Prayer House, it is for us"
She after knowing the errand we came for, she called her husband Kaameswarao at once, who was the ring leader and elder who got power over the slum dwellers, and told him about the purpose of me coming over there, like this,
' "Do you know who wants to buy this site, our amma and our ayyagaru, showing my husband, that too for prayer house, do not make any obstructions," she instructed him. Later he and some other elders calmed down and made some negotiations then and there and sold the path to enter into the site for Rs. 18000/ So that they could build a small community hall in the vacant place there. I think Mr. Subrahmanyam succeeded to settle the bargain by giving Check for rs.18000/ right in front of the whole community then and there.
While we were coming back from that place I was walking along with Maryiamma, behind the Sister, and my husband, and I over heard their conversation, Sister asked my husband.
"For How much we could ask per the square yard brother?"--
-My husband answered her, " Ask for 500/ Sister"--Mr. Subrahmanyam and the Document Writer were far before to us walking in the distance. I was not happy over this conversation, I thought, "It's not fair, just because they came forward to sell the site, should we go for such less price? This is not good, It should be at least Rs. 700/ or 750/ I shared my opinion to Mariyamma and taking her assurance, I stepped forward and called my husband a bit aside, and talked to him,
" Hubby do not go to such low price, rise your bargain to Rs.700/ at least or otherwise they will not sell the place to us." I tried to caution him, but he said,
" Leela, you do not know these matters, so do not speak any thing now" -- -When he says like that telling me not to open my mouth, I am defeated, I cannot open my mouth in this issue any more. Sulking inside, I obeyed him to the letter. Though that fear of losing the site was still lurking in my heart.
We reached home, all of them settled down in the chairs and sofas in the sitting room, the maid already prepared coffee , which I served them, and as I was not asked to sit there, I retreated back of the curtain of the door, and was listening to the conversation, after their preliminary talks,while having coffee, Sister said, "Sir, Can we ask each square yard for Rs.500/?----I could sense that my heart skipped its beat, I heard him answer, " Madam, give another figure ?" ---For that she said " Maybe its Rs.550/? " she quipped
I do not like this, nor I can involve as already my husband cautioned me, I was desperate, I was continuously prying in my heart about this bargain, I saw the Bible on the table where I stood, I made a quick loud prayer in my heart as if I shouted aloud to the Lord, closing my eyes, and then I opened it, it opened at Ezra 6; and I saw at the verse 22.the last verse in that chapter. telling me, thus," .....the LORD had filled them with joy by changing the attitude of the king of Assyria, so that he assisted them in the work on the house of God, the Lord of Israel. Ezra 6:22
I was astonished at once, and started to reread while the conversation in the sitting room was going on which I could hear as well, He said,
" Madam, this place belong to me, and two of my sisters, one is a Lecturer, and another is a Doctor. I will talk to them tonight and let you know the price, I will try to reduce the price than Rs.550 which you asked for" He assured us-. changing the attitude of the king of Assyria, Can any seller would say that he himself would try to reduce the price, in the history ? Now everyone were relaxed...He further carried the conversation, saying, Madam, I will get the site cleaned up by cutting all thorny bushes, and palm trees, and send some sand and gravel to make the place plain , and give it to you."
Do you believe this? he assisted them in the work on the house of God, the Lord of Israel. Ezra 6:22
Yes it is true, so real, the heathen king of Assyria was interested in Israel and assisted the to rebuild the house of God. So is here the owner of the site came forward to assist us in building the church, a House of Prayer.
This is like some thing like many many red roses falling in all my rooms in my house, a pleasant surprise, all those people sitting there were in smiles and happiness, so am I. My heart is praising God loudly, which was not heard by any one, except my Lord God. Mr. Chudhary further, said," Madam, If I say this , Mr. Yesuratnam would not accept, but if you do not mind, I would like to give a gift of Rs.10000? for your Church construction." Immediately without one second gap, or hesitation my husband said " Sir we will give receipt to you, and take this into our account of subscriptions" - -For that he answered,
"Oh yes I know you would say like this" Every body laughed loud. (But I could not find any thing strange in it, as I knew my husband is very meticulous and known for his integrity and unrighteousness every single pie of in money matters.) He further addressed Madam ," I have never seen a christian like Yesuratnam garu, His life is flawless, and I appreciate that I could meet him, on my errand like this:His office people told me about him in his absence. -" the LORD had filled .them with joy literally fulfilled on that day
Everyone give testimonies of their conversions in the Lord, but a true testimony like Paul or Peter win the souls, Yes, but a true testimony wins the souls, there is Power in the testimony of them who keep their souls pure in the sight of God.--A true witness delivers souls Proverbs 14::25 There is power in the prayer and witness of my husband. : I thank God for I obeyed my husband literally, completely, a;ways and that day in particular, Otherwise I would not had that wonderful promise of God from Ezra 6:22 , because I was compelled to stand behind the curtain without involving into the negotiations. I could pour out my fears to the Lord, and could had a quick prayer and got that wonderful promise from God. -What if I did not sought the help of God by looking into the BOOK? I would not have this much of joy in building the Prayer House for Him
Sometimes to obey, is very difficult, Obeying God is a must, obeying parents, husband, pastor, and authorities, some times very very difficult, we need to come down to the level of floor, and obey, When we obey, God intervenes and gives His presence to us, and comforts us, and shows us how beautiful it is to obey His commandments. My favorite quotation in those days was "Meekness is not weakness, If you think it is weakness, try to be meek for a week" I learned to be humble under His mighty Hand. " Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time." 1 Peter 5:6 :
---What if I did not stand apart from the mob that minute, near the hut of Chaya? Things would had been turned out in other way. -- What if my husband just kept quiet and did not tell him ,his testimony when he first met him? What if he did not tell him that he would not take bribe, nor give Bribe == but just did the work calmly quietly? What if he kept his identity as a Christian was not revealed and showed himself as a self righteous and ought for self glory? While the tractors with gravel and sand were coming into the site, through the huts of the slum dwellers, we found the bamboos of the huts projecting into the space of the small path wherein the tractors were coming , we knew if one bamboo was brushed by the tractor, whole slum will have their revenge on us. So I was standing on the terrace and praying as the tractors were coming in and going out. Even my husband was working along with the brothers and coolies to bring sand from the dried brook . I tired to stop him to go to work in the river beds to get sand along with brother coolies, but he told me" Leela we as servant of God should show good example to them. We could not boss over them. Now God has given this site to the prayer hall in a miraculous way, and it is time to us to show how much we can humble ourselves in His presence" It was midsummer, March and April months, I was cooking food for the workers along with some sisters help. One day I got a promise from God before I climb the steps to terrace to pray for the tractors, i.e., Psalms 68:4 Sing to god, sing praises to his name; lift up a song to him who rides through the deserts: his name is the LORD; exalt before him!
In Telugu I got this promise, and it was more apt to the situation, He is coming on vehicles in Royal Paths through the forests.
When I reached the terrace I could not believe my eyes, some other tractors were bringing and pouring out the concrete on the thin path and widening it for concrete road. It was early morning and our tractors will come only after 3 or 4 hours later. I was surprised and called Chaya, loudly as the site was clear now , and I could see her washing clothes in front of her house, asked her who was pouring concrete chips on the path/ She happily shouted back answering me,
Ma, the Municipality granted the concrete road for us it seems, so they started to work here, today." We both exchanged wide grins from distance. His promise was true, He paved the road, for us, He was the one riding on the vehicles paving a Royal path.
The rich ladies of our street and also distant relatives of the owner came to my home to see the site , and told me, "See the compound wall of your neighbor, from there to this end the part of the site belong to you, by original plan, so occupy it now it self in the place you bought ," they advised me. Because they knew this place since 50 or 60 years as they were the residents of this street from generations together. I never had such thoughts entertained in our minds, I believed, that this is for the LORD and that's it. I did not even mention it to any one , not even to my husband, because I never entertained that thought, In stead we built kitchen for the prayer house in that place..
My husband worked very hard to build this house of prayer, physically, I could not stop him doing mundane work, he wanted to be an example to the congregation all the time, so he toiled very much, we had great joy planting coconut seedlings, and different flower beds, and constructing the thatched big shed cool and comfortable for the congregation.We had coves and rabbits and fish aquarium for the little children to be entertained.
Most of his time he used to spend in the prayer house only. Yes my life has been changed since then. People coming and going whole day.
We were asked by that sister again, whether we could give away part of our vacant place in our house for the path way to the church from our side of our street. She asked me,: Leela , can you give a 4 feet wide and 20 feet long place in your compound for the path to pave to the Prayer House?" I said ,Yes sister"That night while I was walking up and down near the kitchen garden and prayed much about her wish, and told the Lord, "Thine will be done", the next morning my husband got with new idea, like building a gate to the back wall of our home and also to the front wall of our compound straight to the back gate. We did this with our own expenditure, So we closed one gate on right side and erected the same gate to the left of our compound front wall , which gives straight path into the site. and thus we gave the pathway for the people to go to church . though there was a gate through the slum in east, this pathway was for those who come from north. Sister when she visited later ,was very happy to see this convenience and said it was enough. But meanwhile some Tobias and Sanballats became very jealous , and wrote envious letters with all rumours to Mr. President, we did not say one word against them, even though we came to know who wrote those envious letters. Because, we knew this scripture, "But even the archangel Michael when he was disputing with the devil , did not himself dare to condemn him for slander but said, "the Lord rebuke you" was our disposition. So we left those people to the Lord to rebuke.
Yet these people slander whatever they do not understand, and the very things they do not understand by instinct--as irrational animals do will destroy them.
Woe to them ! They have taken the way of Cain; they have rushed for profit into Balaam's error, they have been destroyed in Korah's rebellion. These people are blemishes at our love feasts, eating with us without the slightest qualm--later they covered up with sheep cloth to feed themselves and entered into our meetings. They are clouds without rain , blown long by the wind; autumn trees, without fruit and uprooted--twice dead. They are wild waves of the sea, foaming up their shame, wandering stars, for whom blackest darkness has been reserved forever. Jude 9-12
We did the best we could with the help of the mighty God, but we were betrayed tasted the bitterness of the jealous people who never had taste of God's miracles. They wrote to the President that we bought the place with pure selfish mind so that we can enjoy it for our pleasure as it being just behind our wall with a gate in it
. My husband could not digest this, as he was very humble and sensitive. Though we leaned on God, the treatment he received from the very person whom we respected all through our lives hurt him into his heart and his heart was broken. Along with him I too suffered very much, But we were looking at Him alone. We became very lonely, the people whom we took to the house of God started to kick us on back, saying that we bought it for our comfort.
Later with that broken heart which led to massive heart attack, he left us and went to the Heavenly Abode.
Then I realized that God gives tests in life even when we are faithful to Him in hundred percent. Till then I had a vague idea of the cause of the suffering. Then I experienced how patriarch Job suffered without any reason. I learned to be comforted in Him, and I learned to comfort others who suffer like me. All Glory , Power and Might belongs to Him alone.
My husband died at the age of just 52 years, I was 47 years old, my children were young and not yet completed studies. Even my children suffered much seeing the backbiting of the Judahs in the church. I asked God with broken heart, Lord we are doing your service with all our heart as a family, why why you took him in this tender age, while he is faithfully doing your service? Jesus answered, on the day of the burial itself, 'Look at my Cross, I loved you so very much, I stretched my hands and tells you that that much I love you, but I died, didn't I ? I died at what age? I answered Him, "Lord 33 and half years only." "See, it is immaterial when he died I bless him "His answer wiped my tears, and comforted me, that day.
We did what You asked us to do, after all that we did , we have to say, we are just servants of You, we did everything because You loved us First. What we do is nothing in comparison of what You did for us on the Cross. We live, breath, and exist because Your breath is in us. Lord Jesus the Lover of my Soul, how can I express my love to you, there are no words for me, my language fails me, my tears fail on Your Feet, Lord, I am waiting to come to Your loving Bosom , till You call me, help me to record what all that You did in this futile life of mine.
"To love Heaven makes one Heavenly"--Shakespeare
