These are extracts from a beautiful book I read, which reflects my inner feelings in a beautiful, simple words.
I thought it would be nice to store them, rather preserve them here in my blog, as I feel it would be nice to read them for myself.
do you know the joy of reading your own reflections? If not try and enjoy your loneliness...!!!
Thereby there is subtitle for every extract, here it is "clash"
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the many resons I didn't want to be here any more are too personal and too sad to share here. Much of it had to dowith my problems, but a good portion of our troubles were related to her issues, as well. That's only natural, there ware always two figures in our relationship, after all--two people, two votes, two opinions, two conflicting sets of decisions, desires and limitations. But I don't think it's appropriate for me to discuss her issues in my blog. Nor would I ask anyone to believe that I am capable of reporting an unbiased version of our story, and therefore the chronicle of our relationship failure will remain untold here. I also will not discuss here all the reasons why I did still want to be related, or all her wonderfulness, or why I love her and why I was unable to imagine life without her. I wont's open any of that. Let it be sufficient to say that, on this night, she was still my lighthouse and my albatross in equal measure. the only thing more unthinkable than leaving was staying; The only thing more impossible than staying was leaving. I did't want to destroy anything or anybody. I just wanted to slip quietly out the back door, without causing any fuss or consequences,and then not stop running until I reached Greenland.
This part of my story is not a happy one, I know, But I share it here because something was about to occur for this experience of mine... Something good, beautiful something unimaginable would come out .... This would be my wonderful outlet for my inner feelings..........
