This sort of experience I had had many a times, when I cried for the faith in Him, and when Prayed for the deepest desires of mine, poured out in His presence. Its not once but many times,
The words I took as an extract from this beautiful book do depict my experience in wonderful way. so here it is recorded once again.
"And so the prayer narrowed itself down to that simple entreaty---Please tell me what to do--- repeated again and again. I do not know how many times I begged. I only know that I begged like someone who was pleading for her life. And the crying went on forever.
Until--quite abruptly---it stopped.
It so happened when I prayed when my husband died, He answered.
When I prayed for my son when he fall down in ditch, He answered.
when I cried for a baby in my womb with tears, He answered me.
When i was taunted being a widow, and I cried at His feet , He answered me.
Not one time, many times I had this experience , and so I am recording it from that beautiful book I read.
"Quite abruptly, I found that I was not crying any more. I'd stopped crying, in fact, in mid-sob. Many misery had been completely vacuumed out of me. I lifted my forehead off the floor and sat up in surprise, wondering if I would see now some Great Being who had taken my weeping away. But nobody was there. I was just alone. But not really alone, either. I was surrounded by something I can only describe as a little pocket of silence__ a seamlessly still. I don't know when I'd ever felt such stillness.
Then I heard a voice. Please don't be alarmed-- it was not an Old Testament voice, nor was it a voice telling me I must build a a monument in my back yard. It was merely my own voice, speaking from within my own self. But this was my voice as I had never heard it before. This was my voice, but perfectly wise, calm and compassionate. This was what my voice would sound like if I'd only ever experienced love and certainty in my life. How can I describe the warmth of affection of that voice, as it gave me the answer that would forever seal my faith in the divine?
The voice said: "how much do you love me? This much He said, and He stretched His hands and died"--When I died? at the age of 33 1/2 years, it is immaterial when your husband died, How he lived is all that matter." was the answer I got when asked Him why he died at the tender age of 52 only.
The voice said -- yea even Joseph was thrown in the ditch, but all my promises I gave him came true in due course of time."--that was the answer I got when I sobbed in His presence when my son was unconsciously asked me why God did not keep His promise that he would not stumble or fall.
The voice said--"your prayer was heard , and you will conceive .." which happened the very month and He kept His promise by giving Happy as my first born.
The voice said--"The Father in heaven He Himself revealed this to you.." when I was mocked for my children do not have father to perform their marriage, and publicly humiliated.
I thank God for all these sufferings, for they are rich , and wonderful paths to listen to His still small voice and enjoyed His wonderful protection, just like the author described about the voice.
