Peace in the Heart
"... Proclaim among the nations what He has done" Psalm 9:11
Peace in the Heart
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. John 14:27a
"Love and Peace are Holy because we could attain them only from Jesus our Savior and the Son of God.- And this Peace would come to us only by praying the issues that we need to pray and in the way that we should pray.
Spreading all the issues at His feet , being transparent in our soul, pouring out all that is in there, whether it is good or bad, and telling Him as to a loyal bosom friend, as if we are talking to our own heart, never hiding anything --- should be the unwritten rule of the prayer life.
Only then, He would be ready to submerge us with downpour of Peace which is beyond our understanding, to our mind, our thought, our heart. This Peace look like a great fortress which protect our thoughts, our feelings, and emotions. This Peace cannot be taken away by any one at any given circumstances.
How often we forfeit this amazing peace, just because we are too lazy to talk to the 'lover of our soul' ! We are over confident and thereby we do not seek this 'intimate relationship' with Him.
This Peace, floods us with joy because it comes from that solid foundation of Word of God. In this we discover the purpose of our life, our goal and our identity.
"This Peace of God, transcends all understanding guards us in every task we take up." Philippians 4:7-
A BEAUTIFUL SCENERY
1983....December., that was one of the year marks, of my life, carved by Him in His palm, to bring glory to His name.
He brings a TEST IN OUR LIFE and waits to see our method of solving it. If we ask Him TO GUIDE US, to solve the problem; He paints a beautiful scenery on the canvas of our life and He enjoys as we walk with Him trusting Him with the Peace showered on us. Thus His name be glorified.
OAK IN THE STORM
" Leela, your husband is needed very much in the ministry of Vijayawada, he had been a great help there in all these years, but after he married you he is travelling in between Eluru and Vijayawada, and it is a great loss for the ministry , as he is not available here. Why don't you resign your job and shift to Vijayawada, and help in the ministry here? "--
One of the Heads of the church ( who is in-charge of Head Quarters) told me thus, as a bolt out of the blue. But I was not shocked, not even jerked a little, nor was I surprised, strangely enough, I took that advice as a oak in the storm.
I learned to take things as they are; I knew everything would fall into perfect place as they should be, as my Father in Heaven is my GUIDE and my redeemer and He is in-charge of every situation in my life. I am assured that it is 'well with my soul' as He is with me.
Anything may come and any thing may go, no problem. As member of this particular organization we are supposed to obey their instructions by all means. Always taking their counsel, advice and guidance in our lives. I am conditioned along with many others, to obey them out of respect, to every instruction they give us. I was completely obedient to them but often I first enquire the Lord, my God about the decision I should take ultimately.
So quietly but firmly I answered her:
"Certainly sister, I like to take your advice, but I want to pray and find the WILL of GOD first."
I believe the right answer comes from God alone; the answer look like 'the golden apples in a silver platter'. That answer always have their base on the Word of God. And when God puts such right answer in my mouth, I knew that God is going to take charge of the whole situation.
Because I knew that the Holy Spirit will teach me at that time what I should say. "Seeking His WILL , doing it at any cost", is the anchor in the ocean of my life.
I found this habit of mine is very refetching,refreshing and rejuvenating my soul all the time."Oh , exactly Leela, you must pray and find the WILL of GOD", she smiled and sent me off.
Now after 45 years , I am surprised of her advice, asking me to resign my job, by involving into my personal life and matters, and financial issues, under the name of spiritual counselor. Obeying them taught me faith, though. Because I trusted God to lead me. Nevertheless, thank God, I took it as a challenge to seek the Will of God in my life, taking the GUIDANCE from that counselor. If she did not involve in my life, thus, if I did not have reverence and humility to obey her, if I did not seek the Will of God ultimately; this beautiful story of My God would not had been painted on His canvas of my life.
NEUTRAL POINT
At that juncture I considered my employment, as my 'Isaac' a 'burnt offering' on the 'altar 'of my faith, to my my Saviour Jesus Christ, thus gaining His peace in my life.
I understood that, this peace thus I gained is not like the peace that we get from our own efforts, leaning upon our own understanding, or seeking advice from the kith and kin, or well wishers. This is something amazing and wonderful beyond human understanding. Because I get it only by standing at neutral point between 'Yes, and No' of life commitment. That is my desire and her desire. My understanding and her instruction. Here, my job was given by miraculous methods of Him, its beyond any argument but now I am supposed to resign it, therefore I should come to a neutral point in between my understanding of the issue and her piece of advice. Between me and her there is a neutral point, when I stand there I can hear His voice, as of "Abraham lay not your hand on the lad" He was in between his love for Isaac and the commandment of God, willing to yield completely at a neutral point, then God intervened and shown His will to Abraham.
Now in that December 1983, just prior to her advice to resign my job, ( I met her in Carol service in Vijayawada) I got some remuneration by correcting the examination papers in my college where I was working. I was longing to see my little girlie in good clothes, so I went to the shop and bought half a dozen cotton frocks of my liking, my choice of colour and model. She used to wear only the frocks gifted by others, or the ones I used to stitch on sewing machine, in those days. So buying 'ready made' clothes was a dream. I was overwhelmed with joy while dressing up my little girlie in different colored frocks in that Christmas season. When I was told to resign the job, I quietly retreated into my quiet time with the Lord; then at that instant the very first thought pricked my heart sharply --
' Oh, it means, we have to live on one meager salary only. Now at least now and then when I have some extra money by Spot valuation remuneration; I was able to spend something on my children and enjoy to see them beautifully dressed up. But if I do not have my job what will happen?" a sort of fear encompassed me; and completely unbalanced me in spirit.
But I resolved to pray about this. I had determined to pray and ask God about my fears, and the decision to be taken, in 'a set-time and in a set-place'.i.e Watch night service.
I told my Lord God, that I will meet Him on 31st night December 1983 in Watch Night Service and seek to find His Will and His wish, with regard to this issue. I told Him I need His GUIDANCE.
But meanwhile, I was whispering my fears in my prayer to Him all through the day and night every day from the minute I was instructed to resign the job."Take words with you and return to the Lord.."(Hosea 14:2)
It was 31st night Dec, 1983, my daughter was two years and four months old and my son 10 months old. I went to Vijayawada to attend the Watch Night Service. It was arranged in Suvarthavani hall, Br Solomon was the preacher. I went there found an corner place, at the extreme left end of the gallery hall, spread the blanket sheets, laid down my children on the blankets, my little chubby son in front of me, my cute little daughter to my right side. and I knelt down on my knees and went straight away into the presence of God. I determined to pour out my heart as Hannah did in the presence of God.
I prayed, "Lord here I am. you know me, my predicament, they told me to resign my job. Lord you were the One who gave this job as you did divide the Red sea in olden times, in a miraculous way, beyond human intervention or imagination or comprehension, but, now if you want me to resign this job for the sake of your Kingdom, I WILL DO it. Surely I will resign this. You are my Father, You know me. - selah-- But Lord, do you think that we can live with one salary? The few things I bought for my children also will be cut off, as it is, we are living on the basis of 'hand to mouth' . Do you think I can have that much of faith to carry on my life without my job? Tell me Lord, whatever you want me to do, I will do, but YOU TELL ME WHAT I HAVE TO DO.'"
The TESTS God gives to us are unique, and distinctive; yes, He gave Isaac to Abraham with great promises, but He asked Abraham to offer the very son of his as sacrifice to Him. It's very important to us to learn to pray echoing with the prophet Job about all matters, "He gave and He took it back"--- Yes, it's terribly difficult in practice, but I experienced that, the One who asked us to give it back, by giving the test, would give us endurance and hope in Him to sustain till the end.
Now after I finished my prayer for some time as above, I believed that God heard my prayer. ( Psalm 66;19 "God has surely listened and has heard my prayer.")
I knew that He heard my sincere prayer as I did pray without hiding anything from Him, a prayer wherein I want to know His will , a prayer where I put "my will" as a burnt offering.
A sort of great PEACE encompassed me, This is the sign often I get, before I get an answer from God in spectacular way. So I resolved to listen to His voice as an answer for my petition then and there. ("Lead me in Your truth, and teach me. For I wait all the day."Psalm 25:5a).
That night His message was a straight answer to me. The thirst of my soul quenched thoroughly.
It had been my wont to listen to the Word of God carefully, I gird up myself to listen to the message of that 31st December, Watch Night Service, I was in His presence. the man of God started to read from the Bible. Deuteronomy 11:12-15. Later this promise was fulfilled, in my life in a spectacular way.
"The Land you are crossing the Jordan--to take possession of ,
Is a land of mountains and valleys,
That drinks rain from heaven.
It is the land your God cares for,
The eyes of the Lord your God are continually on it
From the beginning of the year to its end"
Br Solomon, the man of God was preaching on that text, he did not know that I was in that big crowd, I sat at the rear end of the hall in a corner, nor he did know my predicament, or the question in my heart. His message was carried on more or less like this: "Are you afraid to obey to the call of God? Are you afraid to serve Him . Do not be afraid, there would be great difficulties like the mountains, and also joys like the valleys, but you will drink the rain of heaven, you will have plenty of work in His vineyard, God will take care of you all through this new year as you are entering into it from the beginning of this year to the end of this year." I do remember not much more than that, but I was Looking into my Book and reading those verses.
1) The Land I am going to cross, and the river, Jordan. It's a river of Test, a symbol of my decision, to swim across into great test of faith. Need to take a bold step forward and into an unknown challenging future. It's like a decision to CROSS A RIVER in my life, its my JORDAN indeed. --( I remembered the river Krishna in Vijayawada in those days when we travel Vijayawada from Eluru in bus, it used to go to old bus stand, crossing the riverlets of Krishna ) 2) It's the land of mountains and valleys, I presumed many financial mountains to be climbed and many sweet valleys of joys in this place. ( Vijayawada is the land with magnificent hills and hillocks and plains, not Eluru certainly! . Besides not even one hill or hillock is in it. )
3) And It drinks the rain of the heaven,( oh here in Vijayawada, the word of God is plenty; we will have Youth meetings, Sunday school meetings, evangelists from HQ come on every Sunday, but not in Eluru definitely)
4) God cares this place, My mind was settled, very well, now I knew God wants me to come to Vijayawada. I closed my eyes and yielded to Him at that very moment. "Thine will be done ,even so, my Lord, My God" -"Even so, Father for so it seemed good in they sight". Matthew 11:26
And then I looked at the last part of the verse.
5) His eyes shall be on it from the beginning of the year to the end, and at that juncture, all in a sudden God's voice shouted in my head, like this:
"Yes you need to come to this land for ONE YEAR"
"What? How Lord? " was my next question, the answer was vivid , clear and sharp and to the point. "Apply one year leave, Yes, LOSS OF PAY-LEAVE for ONE YEAR"
---selah-----
The solution is from the Lord, its perfect way of dealing with the question of my shifting to Vijayawada. The solutions of the Lord comprises of His Great Peace . Oh that peace , I cannot describe it , its His peace, not the peace of this world, this peace is full of wisdom, I enjoyed that peace in my heart, I have the answer. I will obey Him now, the next step He will lead me later. I knew that God leads me step by step, always one step at a time.
I stayed back In Vijayawada Satynnarayanapuram railway quarters, for those Christmas holidays, How I enjoyed His presence is beyond my words to describe. I lived that vacation as if I was in a dream, a dream where I fly on the white clouds in the blue sky.
[At the age of 4 years I used to dream that I was playing with, walking on, and even eating the white clouds, at times. One time my dad called a worker who makes the cotton in the mattresses fluffy by spinning the cotton, by his spindle, a slender rounded rod with tapered ends used in hand sinning to twist and wind a mass of cotton or wool or flax held on a distaff. We used to call him 'dhoodhiekulavadu' .{Cotton Spinning person} So one day he started to work in our corridor, repairing the cotton from our old mattresses. I was sitting in a big chair a little apart from him and observing him very keenly, the cotton was becoming white and fluffy and very soft in his hands, seeing my keen observation and curiosity he must have suspected the mischievous thoughts of mine, which I myself did not know then. Why he warned me thrice not to touch the cotton and spoil it as he was about to go for lunch. He told me that he would come back within half an hour and asked me not to touch the cotton, and if I touch it or play with it, the cotton would become solid again and would be spoiled and it would become ugly to look at, and all his toil of that morning would be wasted. You see I still remember what he told me that afternoon in that corridor. But as soon as he left the premises, I jumped on the heap of cotton, rolled on it and enjoyed the feel of it, to my heart's content, imagining that I was floating in the sky among white clouds. Though all that flakes of cotton stuck to my face. legs and hands and my dress and made me look like buffoon. After he came he murmured so much and mother scolded me. But that soft heavenly experience I never could forget.} That was a funny incident, though, I still remember how cute it was to walk on the cloud.
Now I experience sometimes the same way, I feel as if I was walking in clouds and floating on them, along with my God. This I feel when He gives me a promise and tells me His will.
Our college reopened on 16th of January 1984. On 16th I reached college much earlier as if some unforeseen force pushing me since that morning; I was literally forced in my mind to go earlier, may be an hour before any body entered into the premises of college.
As soon as I entered into the college campus through the main gate, I saw Sister Winifred, our Principal just two yards away from me, walking from her convent turning towards to the college building . She had the most beautiful smile in the world for me that morning and .
I smiled at her, wished her " Happy new year, and very good morning", She in turn wished me. I reached her and immediately after a few steps of walk together, I blurted out "Sister I want to talk to you one important thing". There wasn't any fumbling of words. The timing and the place to meet my Principal also was perfectly designed by Him already. She smiled brightly , that flashing smile , she was the only one Principal who had such guileless sweet smile on her face, surely I can say that. She said,"Oh yes, Miss , come on into my chamber" and while walking beside her I reached her room .My mind was blank, because I did not prepare any words to talk. Since that 31st night till that minute I was literally in clouds. I did not premeditate any appropriate words to say about my request for the leave on loss of pay. I just wanted to ask for the leave on loss of pay for One Year, that is all, nothing else was in my mind. Because I already knew that she would give me that leave as I was asking according to His word.
I entered into her room along with her and sat in the chair she offered thanking her. "Sister I want to apply one year leave on loss of pay" -- There was no introduction, nor any other commitments of prep talk for this request. It was straight from my heart as my Lord guided me. Her answer too was more astonishing and instant, because she said,"Yes Miss, Will you take it from the end of this academic year?" -"Yes, sister"--That's it !!---- The next thing I remembered is , I left the room , in silence having the joy of heaven.
One thing with our sister Winifred or past Principal Sr. Josephine was, when they say, 'YES" it is 'Yes', always, no turning back, I believe that particular morning she was led by God to come at that hour of the day, before anybody arrived to college, leading her to do the errand He prescribed to her. As it is this particular sister is the most God-fearing woman, she obeyed the order of God immediately. That British discipline and etiquette , integrity, nobility, decency, fairness we had in her regime. T hose were the golden days of college life that we enjoyed during her tenure as Principal.
She gave me leave on loss of pay from March 31st of that year, and she immediately left for higher studies, to Mangalore. I heard later she lamented about the way she had granted leave to me. Because many other lecturers persisted the in-charge Principal Sr.Vincenza, another sweet soul, to grant leave to them too as I was given, so Sr Vincenza was informing Sr. Winifred and telling her about those requests. Later Sr Vincenza told me that Sister Winifred was so frustrated and said to her,'Oh why I said,'YES" to Miss Leelavathi to her request that day, I do not know"
When God Himself granted that one year leave to me in Suvarthavani hall on the watch night service, every piece of puzzle fall in its beautiful place.
Without seeking Prince of Peace how can any one get peace in life? There is no peace to ungodly. They quarrel , strive, fight, and shout for Peace but it is beyond their reach because they never seek it.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."--Jeremiah 29:11
https://www.mygodmystory.com/like-a-penguin-in-a-burrow/
Now in that December 1983, just prior to her advice to resign my job, ( I met her in Carol service in Vijayawada) I got some remuneration by correcting the examination papers in my college where I was working. I was longing to see my little girlie in good clothes, so I went to the shop and bought half a dozen cotton frocks of my liking, my choice of colour and model. She used to wear only the frocks gifted by others, or the ones I used to stitch on sewing machine, in those days. So buying 'ready made' clothes was a dream. I was overwhelmed with joy while dressing up my little girlie in different colored frocks in that Christmas season. When I was told to resign the job, I quietly retreated into my quiet time with the Lord; then at that instant the very first thought pricked my heart sharply --
' Oh, it means, we have to live on one meager salary only. Now at least now and then when I have some extra money by Spot valuation remuneration; I was able to spend something on my children and enjoy to see them beautifully dressed up. But if I do not have my job what will happen?" a sort of fear encompassed me; and completely unbalanced me in spirit.
But I resolved to pray about this. I had determined to pray and ask God about my fears, and the decision to be taken, in 'a set-time and in a set-place'.i.e Watch night service.
I told my Lord God, that I will meet Him on 31st night December 1983 in Watch Night Service and seek to find His Will and His wish, with regard to this issue. I told Him I need His GUIDANCE.
But meanwhile, I was whispering my fears in my prayer to Him all through the day and night every day from the minute I was instructed to resign the job."Take words with you and return to the Lord.."(Hosea 14:2)
It was 31st night Dec, 1983, my daughter was two years and four months old and my son 10 months old. I went to Vijayawada to attend the Watch Night Service. It was arranged in Suvarthavani hall, Br Solomon was the preacher. I went there found an corner place, at the extreme left end of the gallery hall, spread the blanket sheets, laid down my children on the blankets, my little chubby son in front of me, my cute little daughter to my right side. and I knelt down on my knees and went straight away into the presence of God. I determined to pour out my heart as Hannah did in the presence of God.
I prayed, "Lord here I am. you know me, my predicament, they told me to resign my job. Lord you were the One who gave this job as you did divide the Red sea in olden times, in a miraculous way, beyond human intervention or imagination or comprehension, but, now if you want me to resign this job for the sake of your Kingdom, I WILL DO it. Surely I will resign this. You are my Father, You know me. - selah-- But Lord, do you think that we can live with one salary? The few things I bought for my children also will be cut off, as it is, we are living on the basis of 'hand to mouth' . Do you think I can have that much of faith to carry on my life without my job? Tell me Lord, whatever you want me to do, I will do, but YOU TELL ME WHAT I HAVE TO DO.'"
The TESTS God gives to us are unique, and distinctive; yes, He gave Isaac to Abraham with great promises, but He asked Abraham to offer the very son of his as sacrifice to Him. It's very important to us to learn to pray echoing with the prophet Job about all matters, "He gave and He took it back"--- Yes, it's terribly difficult in practice, but I experienced that, the One who asked us to give it back, by giving the test, would give us endurance and hope in Him to sustain till the end.
Now after I finished my prayer for some time as above, I believed that God heard my prayer. ( Psalm 66;19 "God has surely listened and has heard my prayer.")
I knew that He heard my sincere prayer as I did pray without hiding anything from Him, a prayer wherein I want to know His will , a prayer where I put "my will" as a burnt offering.
A sort of great PEACE encompassed me, This is the sign often I get, before I get an answer from God in spectacular way. So I resolved to listen to His voice as an answer for my petition then and there. ("Lead me in Your truth, and teach me. For I wait all the day."Psalm 25:5a).
That night His message was a straight answer to me. The thirst of my soul quenched thoroughly.
It had been my wont to listen to the Word of God carefully, I gird up myself to listen to the message of that 31st December, Watch Night Service, I was in His presence. the man of God started to read from the Bible. Deuteronomy 11:12-15. Later this promise was fulfilled, in my life in a spectacular way.
"The Land you are crossing the Jordan--to take possession of ,
Is a land of mountains and valleys,
That drinks rain from heaven.
It is the land your God cares for,
The eyes of the Lord your God are continually on it
From the beginning of the year to its end"
Is a land of mountains and valleys,
That drinks rain from heaven.
It is the land your God cares for,
The eyes of the Lord your God are continually on it
From the beginning of the year to its end"
Br Solomon, the man of God was preaching on that text, he did not know that I was in that big crowd, I sat at the rear end of the hall in a corner, nor he did know my predicament, or the question in my heart. His message was carried on more or less like this: "Are you afraid to obey to the call of God? Are you afraid to serve Him . Do not be afraid, there would be great difficulties like the mountains, and also joys like the valleys, but you will drink the rain of heaven, you will have plenty of work in His vineyard, God will take care of you all through this new year as you are entering into it from the beginning of this year to the end of this year." I do remember not much more than that, but I was Looking into my Book and reading those verses.
1) The Land I am going to cross, and the river, Jordan. It's a river of Test, a symbol of my decision, to swim across into great test of faith. Need to take a bold step forward and into an unknown challenging future. It's like a decision to CROSS A RIVER in my life, its my JORDAN indeed. --( I remembered the river Krishna in Vijayawada in those days when we travel Vijayawada from Eluru in bus, it used to go to old bus stand, crossing the riverlets of Krishna ) 2) It's the land of mountains and valleys, I presumed many financial mountains to be climbed and many sweet valleys of joys in this place. ( Vijayawada is the land with magnificent hills and hillocks and plains, not Eluru certainly! . Besides not even one hill or hillock is in it. )
3) And It drinks the rain of the heaven,( oh here in Vijayawada, the word of God is plenty; we will have Youth meetings, Sunday school meetings, evangelists from HQ come on every Sunday, but not in Eluru definitely)
4) God cares this place, My mind was settled, very well, now I knew God wants me to come to Vijayawada. I closed my eyes and yielded to Him at that very moment. "Thine will be done ,even so, my Lord, My God" -"Even so, Father for so it seemed good in they sight". Matthew 11:26
And then I looked at the last part of the verse.
5) His eyes shall be on it from the beginning of the year to the end, and at that juncture, all in a sudden God's voice shouted in my head, like this:
"Yes you need to come to this land for ONE YEAR"
"Yes you need to come to this land for ONE YEAR"
"What? How Lord? " was my next question, the answer was vivid , clear and sharp and to the point. "Apply one year leave, Yes, LOSS OF PAY-LEAVE for ONE YEAR"
---selah-----
---selah-----
The solution is from the Lord, its perfect way of dealing with the question of my shifting to Vijayawada. The solutions of the Lord comprises of His Great Peace . Oh that peace , I cannot describe it , its His peace, not the peace of this world, this peace is full of wisdom, I enjoyed that peace in my heart, I have the answer. I will obey Him now, the next step He will lead me later. I knew that God leads me step by step, always one step at a time.
I stayed back In Vijayawada Satynnarayanapuram railway quarters, for those Christmas holidays, How I enjoyed His presence is beyond my words to describe. I lived that vacation as if I was in a dream, a dream where I fly on the white clouds in the blue sky.
[At the age of 4 years I used to dream that I was playing with, walking on, and even eating the white clouds, at times. One time my dad called a worker who makes the cotton in the mattresses fluffy by spinning the cotton, by his spindle, a slender rounded rod with tapered ends used in hand sinning to twist and wind a mass of cotton or wool or flax held on a distaff. We used to call him 'dhoodhiekulavadu' .{Cotton Spinning person} So one day he started to work in our corridor, repairing the cotton from our old mattresses. I was sitting in a big chair a little apart from him and observing him very keenly, the cotton was becoming white and fluffy and very soft in his hands, seeing my keen observation and curiosity he must have suspected the mischievous thoughts of mine, which I myself did not know then. Why he warned me thrice not to touch the cotton and spoil it as he was about to go for lunch. He told me that he would come back within half an hour and asked me not to touch the cotton, and if I touch it or play with it, the cotton would become solid again and would be spoiled and it would become ugly to look at, and all his toil of that morning would be wasted. You see I still remember what he told me that afternoon in that corridor. But as soon as he left the premises, I jumped on the heap of cotton, rolled on it and enjoyed the feel of it, to my heart's content, imagining that I was floating in the sky among white clouds. Though all that flakes of cotton stuck to my face. legs and hands and my dress and made me look like buffoon. After he came he murmured so much and mother scolded me. But that soft heavenly experience I never could forget.} That was a funny incident, though, I still remember how cute it was to walk on the cloud.Now I experience sometimes the same way, I feel as if I was walking in clouds and floating on them, along with my God. This I feel when He gives me a promise and tells me His will.
Our college reopened on 16th of January 1984. On 16th I reached college much earlier as if some unforeseen force pushing me since that morning; I was literally forced in my mind to go earlier, may be an hour before any body entered into the premises of college.
As soon as I entered into the college campus through the main gate, I saw Sister Winifred, our Principal just two yards away from me, walking from her convent turning towards to the college building . She had the most beautiful smile in the world for me that morning and .
I smiled at her, wished her " Happy new year, and very good morning", She in turn wished me. I reached her and immediately after a few steps of walk together, I blurted out "Sister I want to talk to you one important thing". There wasn't any fumbling of words. The timing and the place to meet my Principal also was perfectly designed by Him already. She smiled brightly , that flashing smile , she was the only one Principal who had such guileless sweet smile on her face, surely I can say that. She said,"Oh yes, Miss , come on into my chamber" and while walking beside her I reached her room .My mind was blank, because I did not prepare any words to talk. Since that 31st night till that minute I was literally in clouds. I did not premeditate any appropriate words to say about my request for the leave on loss of pay. I just wanted to ask for the leave on loss of pay for One Year, that is all, nothing else was in my mind. Because I already knew that she would give me that leave as I was asking according to His word.
I entered into her room along with her and sat in the chair she offered thanking her. "Sister I want to apply one year leave on loss of pay" -- There was no introduction, nor any other commitments of prep talk for this request. It was straight from my heart as my Lord guided me. Her answer too was more astonishing and instant, because she said,"Yes Miss, Will you take it from the end of this academic year?" -"Yes, sister"--That's it !!---- The next thing I remembered is , I left the room , in silence having the joy of heaven.
One thing with our sister Winifred or past Principal Sr. Josephine was, when they say, 'YES" it is 'Yes', always, no turning back, I believe that particular morning she was led by God to come at that hour of the day, before anybody arrived to college, leading her to do the errand He prescribed to her. As it is this particular sister is the most God-fearing woman, she obeyed the order of God immediately. That British discipline and etiquette , integrity, nobility, decency, fairness we had in her regime. T hose were the golden days of college life that we enjoyed during her tenure as Principal.
She gave me leave on loss of pay from March 31st of that year, and she immediately left for higher studies, to Mangalore. I heard later she lamented about the way she had granted leave to me. Because many other lecturers persisted the in-charge Principal Sr.Vincenza, another sweet soul, to grant leave to them too as I was given, so Sr Vincenza was informing Sr. Winifred and telling her about those requests. Later Sr Vincenza told me that Sister Winifred was so frustrated and said to her,'Oh why I said,'YES" to Miss Leelavathi to her request that day, I do not know"
When God Himself granted that one year leave to me in Suvarthavani hall on the watch night service, every piece of puzzle fall in its beautiful place.
Without seeking Prince of Peace how can any one get peace in life? There is no peace to ungodly. They quarrel , strive, fight, and shout for Peace but it is beyond their reach because they never seek it.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."--Jeremiah 29:11
https://www.mygodmystory.com/like-a-penguin-in-a-burrow/
When God Himself granted that one year leave to me in Suvarthavani hall on the watch night service, every piece of puzzle fall in its beautiful place.
Without seeking Prince of Peace how can any one get peace in life? There is no peace to ungodly. They quarrel , strive, fight, and shout for Peace but it is beyond their reach because they never seek it.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."--Jeremiah 29:11
https://www.mygodmystory.com/like-a-penguin-in-a-burrow/
